A/N: Here is a better understanding…

Takes place in New Moon, duh. Edward has been gone for about a month or so. Jacob and Bella are every good friends. Jacob knows all about the Cullens being vampires. Bella doesn't really talk to anyone else in her school except for Angela and Ben. And basically everything else is the same… Oh and this story will pretty much follow the book except for a few things.

I don't own anything! It sucks, doesn't it?

I was laying on my bed staring at the ceiling. I was playing everything over in my head for the hundredth time. Edward leaving. Edward telling me he doesn't care about me anymore. It all happened too fast. One minute he loved me the next… not. I couldn't get over this feeling I had that it had something to do with that night.

It was about a month ago when Edward let me be in control of us for a change and it just sort of happened. Then my birthday just had to happen. Everything went downhill from there.

Oh crap. I got up and ran to the bathroom. I dropped to my knees as I threw up everything I have eaten today, which wasn't that much to begin with. Ugh I felt like this for a week now and at first I thought it was a flu or something, but now I'm not sure.

"Bella, are you okay in there?" Charlie asked knocking on the door.

I splashed my face with cold water. "Yea dad, I'm okay." Wait, no, no I'm good.

"Okay, well I have to go. Have a good day!"

Right, like that will happen at this rate. After I heard the door close I got out and changed my clothes. I need to get out, like badly. So, I got into my truck and drove away from that house.

I actually ended up driving to La Push to see Jacob. I don't even know why though. When I got out of my truck he seemed to see me because he jumped up and ran over to me. Then he just had to pick me up.

"Bella, what are you doing here?" he asked spinning me around.

"Well, I'm going to be sick," I said as he sat me down. "Anyways I really just need to be somewhere other than my house. I can't be that alone with my thoughts anymore."

He nodded. "Are you okay? You look kind of pale."

I waved him off. "I'm fine. I just haven't been myself lately."

"Because of him right?"

My instinct told me to protect myself, so I wrapped my arms around myself. Jacob sighed, putting his arm around my shoulders as he led me into his house.

"Bella," Billy said looking up from his newspaper, "it's nice to see you again."

"It's nice to see you too Billy."

"Dad, I'm going to show Bella the Rabbit," Jacob said as he showed me the way to his garage.

When we got there he got me a seat and told me to sit. I knew he was going to talk to me about something. "Bella, I think you should see a doctor. You've been pale for weeks now, and I always hear Billy talk with Charlie about you. I mean Charlie said you have been throwing up every morning for weeks now."

"Jake, I'm scared too."

He squeezed my knee. "Why would you be scared to see a doctor?"

When he said doctor something clicked in my head. I knew it couldn't happen though. He told me it couldn't happen. Maybe he was wrong though. I mean I don't think any other vampire has been with a human before… "I don't want to know the truth," I whispered.

"You're going to find out sometime soon. You have to know, but what don't you want to know Bella?"

I swallowed. "I think I might be… but I can't be. He told me it was next to impossible. But Jacob, what if I am? What will I do?"

He stared at me like I was speaking another language. "Bella, what are you talking about?"

I stared at the oil spill on the floor of the garage. "I need to see a doctor." I had to know.

He nodded and got up to make an appointment to tomorrow at noon. I left soon after that. I had to think about what would happen if it was true. What would I do? Would I try to find the Cullens to tell them? No, I wouldn't. They wouldn't have left if they cared about me. They would have known if it was true. Even if he didn't love me anymore he wouldn't have let me. Would he?

I came home to the smell of pizza. Ugh just the smell was making me sick. Charlie was asleep on the couch, meaning I could get upstairs without having to eat that.

I got up to my room and clasped onto my bed. I grabbed my iPod off the floor and put it on shuffle. The first song to come on was Dark Blue by Jack's Mannequin. I quickly changed it knowing he loved me in that color. The next song was Secret Valentine by We The Kings. I kept it on. I groaned sitting up on my bed. I put my elbow on my window seal and looked out into the rain.

Tears started coming down my eyes along with the rain. I didn't understand how he could just leave me. I don't understand how any of them could leave me. Clearly they are better liars than they lead on.

I fell back onto my bed and let the music lead me into a smooth sleep.

I was suddenly in the clearing. Only this time I was by myself. I looked around and imagined the people who were here last. Emmett was batting, Alice was catching, Carlisle was in the field and so was Edward. Rosalie was waiting for her turn at bat and Esme was beside me. Only none of them were here. Suddenly I saw James, Victoria and Laurent. Only one wasn't there.

I looked down; my stomach was three times its normal size! My eyes went wide as I gulped. Victoria and Laurent swiftly came to my side. Laurent hit me to the ground. Victoria crouched beside me and took a slow bit at my neck…

I suddenly woke up screaming and sweating. I looked at my clock. It was 1:14 AM. I pulled my covers off and looked at my stomach. Just as I thought it should be, flat and normal.

What a nightmare. Maybe I should eat cheddar chips before bed. Hopefully that's what made my nightmares. Hopefully.

"Bella," Jacob called walking into my house at 11:30, "are you almost ready?"

No, I wanted to scream, but I couldn't because my head was practically in the toilet. When I could finally breathe again I told him yes. Then I got ready and headed down to meet my fate.

On the way there I would only look out the rainy window. All I could think of was them. Wouldn't they know if it was true? Did they really not care about me? Though seriously, who could be that cold hearted? Well, they don't have a heartbeat. . .

I looked over to Jacob who quickly flashed me a smile before I turned back to the window. Drip, drip, drip. Ugh could this ride be any longer? I hate being this alone with my thoughts. I couldn't deal with all of my memories.

The freshest one had to about a month ago before my birthday. We were laying in my bed after it happened. He was holding me next to his cold body, but I felt strangely warm. The clearest part of that night is what he whispered to me.

"Bella, marry me," he whispered in my ear.

I propped up on my elbows and stared at him. "Edward be serious."

"You're wounding my ego, love. I am completely serious."

I sighed and brushed my fingers across his cheek. "I… can't. I'm only eighteen. We aren't even close to being done with high school. I'm just not ready for that."

"Well I've been in high school five, six times now," he said giving a faint smile. "Bella, we don't have to get married tomorrow. We can wait a year. I just want you to know how much I love you."

"A ring can't show me what I already know. Besides if we aren't getting married right away then why can't we wait for the whole engagement thing?"

He looked down and smiled sadly. "You don't want to get married do you?"

I laid back and thought about it. Right now I really didn't, but in a few years I would. "Edward, I would love to be your wife, but my mom always told me to wait until I was older. It's sort of stuck in my head that I should wait."

"It's okay, love. I understand where you are coming from. One day, though, you will be wearing my ring on your finger," he said with a teasing smile.

I should have just said yes. That could have been the reason he left me. Maybe he just doesn't take rejection that well. But he was completely normal the next day and was smiling more than ever. I would always have that question in my head now. What if I said yes? Would he still be here? Would he be driving me to the doctors instead of Jacob, or would he still abandon me?

"Bella, we're here," Jacob said getting out of the truck.

I got out, slowly. I was still dizzy from that morning sickness. I did, however, make it up to the second floor without getting sick. What an accomplishment.

We waited for an hour before they finally called me back to a room. "Hello, my name is Jane Green. You must be Isabella Swan," a nurse said dressed in purple scrubs. She had curly blond hair, blue eyes, and was maybe 5 feet, 7 inches.

"Bella," I corrected.

"Okay Bella, what seems to be the problem?"

"I don't know, well I may know. I've been throwing up every morning. I can't seem to eat anything, but cheddar chips. Everything else makes me sick."

She nodded writing it all down on a chart. "Okay Bella, it seems like you might be pregnant. I'm going to run some blood work so we are positive. Would you like someone to get the father?"

Yes, please. "No, he's not in the picture."

"Isn't he in the waiting room?"

I wish. "No he's just a friend, and he can wait out there."

She nodded and did everything she had too afterwards she came back to talk to me about the whole 'father' thing. "Bella, does the guy know he may be a father?" I shook my head. "Do you think you will tell him?"

"No, he's not in the area anymore. He moved about a month ago. I haven't heard from him since."

"I think you should probably contact him, or a member of his family. One, he does have a right to know. Two, it's hard to do this whole process without the father of the child. I think it would be easier. Would he be violent if he found out? Is that why you won't tell him?"

"No, that's not it. He was so kind and very protective of me," I said quietly. He was a vampire though. What do you think of that Jane?

"Can you give me some background on him?"

"Well he was adopted when he was… eight. He has two other adopted brothers and two adopted sisters. His 'father' is a doctor. Um, he has brown hair?"

"Who was his father?" Jane asked eying me.

"Dr. Carlisle Cullens," I said quickly.

Her eyes went wide. "You're kidding me. I used to work with him. If you want I could give you the number of the hospital he is working at now. It's somewhere in New Hampshire."

I shook my head. "No, no. Please don't call him and tell him. He either wouldn't believe you, or come back here. I just don't want them to be involved at this point. Not just because I might be pregnant, but I would want them to want to come back just because it's me."

She nodded. "Which one of his sons might be the father?"

"Edward Cullens," I choked out. I hated saying his name.

"Nice. He's definitely one of the cuter ones."

I almost laughed at that. Emmett would have a fit if Edward beat him in that. Jane left me to go and find out what's wrong with me after that. I thought I would be alone for awhile, but then Jacob came in.

"Do they know anything yet?" he asked peaking his head in.

"No, nothing yet. Come in Jake. I could really use you right now."

He nodded and came in. He jumped onto the table with me and rubbed my back. "Bella, whatever happens I want you to know I will be here for you. I'll even tell Charlie for you."

I forced a laugh out of me. "No, I should tell him if I have a deadly disease or if I'm pregnant. Thanks a lot though."

"Anytime. Now are you sure that you could be pregnant. I thought bloodsuckers couldn't reproduce."

I shrugged. "I didn't think they could, but who knows. I mean I don't know of another human who would even come close to a vampire let alone be with one… alone."

"True. I mean you're the only one crazy enough to fall in love with one. Let alone be best friends with another," he said nudging me.

I faked a smile at him. I just couldn't bring it in my heart to be happy again. "What will I do Jake?"

"You'll go through this whole pregnancy thing and I'll be right there with you. The whole time. I'll put up with your weird cravings and mood swings. Then when it's all done you will raise a beautiful baby that will hopefully never ever meet another mythological creature. And if you need me, I'll help you make sure he or she doesn't fall in love with one."

I put on my head on his shoulder. "What would I do without you Jake?"

"Well, you would be wishing I was here with you."

I nudged him a little and he laughed. I could barely move him. Jane came in at that point. "Hello, you must be the friend…?"

"Jacob Black. I'll be here with Bella every step of the way," he said shaking Jane's hand.

"Well, that's good. It would be very hard for Bella to go through a life changing process by herself. Anyways, I have the results," she said taking out the chart. "Bella, you are pregnant."

I felt like I was going to pass out. Jacob grabbed my hand and squeezed it. I held it so tight I thought I might break his hand.

"Now there are options."

"Options?" I asked.

"Yes, like say you didn't want to keep it. You could give it up for adoption or there is always abortion," she said looking down at her charts again.

"Um, well, the second option is out." She nodded. "I'll consider the first," I said quietly. I mean if I put it up for adoption then it could have a mother and a father. Also it would have a better chance of not being in contact with vampires or whatever else is out there.

"We'll think about it," Jacob said.

It didn't sound like he wanted that option at all either. I shrugged it off though. I mean I was going through this 'process'. I should get to decide if I want it to have a shot at having a normal life, or a 15 of a chance to have a normal life. I was sort of leaning towards the 75 chance instead of the 15 chance…

When we got to the car Jacob looked at me. "What?" I asked.

"You can't give it up for adoption."

"Why not?"

"Bella, this has probably never happened before. What if it becomes a vampire sometime in life and kills its adopted parents. No, you have to take care of it. You'll know what to do if that does happen. Besides I know you are going to be a great mother."

"Jacob, what if that doesn't happen though. This child could have an actual normal life! I don't want to take it away from that."

"We can't take the chance though. I mean who knows what will happen? I know I don't want to take the chance. It's too big of a chance. It's your decision though, you chose," he said starting the car.

I was my decision. Which one is the right one though? Is it like a trick question, or a gamble with fate? This child might have a 50/50 chance of being normal or become a vampire sometime in its life. What if it is normal though? I'll have to tell it sometime what its father is, and then it will be terrified of everyone. If it's not, however, then it will be a good thing I kept it.

Should I take the chance or be safe?

A/N: Well there is the first chapter. Tell me if I should keep going or if I should just stop now. If you like it, though, tell me what you think the sex of the baby should be! Also if you would like a chapter or two in Edward's POV…