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I do not own anything, all the characters belong to Stephenie Meyer.

A/N: thanks to Anima Bella ,CACh stardust ( your criticism really helped) and x-rosepetals-x for reviewing .

Okay I've redone this chapter because I really didn't like it hope fully this will be better.

Carlisle POV

Recap

I walked towards him knowing that I had no choice. No matter what they said I was treading on dangerous ground here. I desperately wanted to trust them, to end the centuries of loneliness. He lead me through a smaller, shabbier door, into a surprisingly large bright room. The sun shinned in above from a glass dome high above us, making us sparkle. Around us were piles of books. Hundreds, no thousands of volumes all waiting to be read! I looked around hungrily, at the collection that must span back hundreds of years. I noticed that some of the covers were written in some ancient language on yellow parchment in faded ink while others looked fairly new. "Magnificent isn't it" said Aro admiration and awe in his voice. "It took as year to collect them all…… anyway that's not why we're hear." He indicated he wanted me to sit down at one of the many chairs. Reluctantly I tore my gaze away from the amazing wealth of knowledge before me and sat.

Moments later Marcus and Caius entered looking utterly bored as usual.

"Ah now were all here we can begin."

End of recap

I shifted uncomfortable in my chair as they stared unashamedly at me. I glanced down at the floor and couldn't help but be amazed by the intricate patterns made by the wood grain. The room was bright as the sun beamed down at us though the glass, I could feel its life giving rays on my cold stone flesh, warming me. It made me almost feel relax, like I was in the company of friends, where I could say anything and not be judged. I felt my eyes widen at this realisation. " Well, Carlisle my brothers and I are to say the least, surprised by your choice of diet" said Aro drawing me out of my musings. He smilked at me warmly before continuing "we want to know what made you choose this.. Lifestyle"

"Don't you already know." I asked politely wary, I knew that they could easily overpower me at any moment. At this Caius and Marcus exchanged a brief look before Caius said "Yes we know, but we want to understand why." I glanced at them studding there expressions , Marcus seemed as unemotional as usual but Aro and Caius seemed genuinely curious. In fact Aro was looking at me as if I was some interesting, rare type of bacteria.

Sighing I considered how to answer this question without insulting them and give them enough to leave me alone, but not anything they could use against me.

I signed and answered in the only way I could. "I didn't want to be a monster."

At this they smiled tightly at me, well Caius and Aro did, Marcus showed absolutely no emotion at all . I couldn't help but wonder why that was, every time I saw him he had the same mask on his face devoid of all emotion, it sent shivers down my spine, it wasn't right it wasn't natural; but then who am I to say what's natural… I'm a vampire!

"You're a doctor correct?" Aro asked once again interrupting my inner monologue . I nodded confused . What could he possible want to ask about that? He already knew everything about me, every thought that had gone though my head what more could he want, no NEED to know?? "Why?" He asked staring intently at me. The curiosity was evident in his eyes leaving me no room to doubt his interest.

"I wanted to do good, to save lives. I can do things that humans can't and when that helps me save someone's life, it makes me feel like I have a purpose and soul" I replied passionately. It made me feel like this life was worth living. I had long come to terms with me fate. But still, sometimes I was hard.

After my speech they all looked slightly more confused, even Marcus. I realised that I must of really surprised them. "But human blood is so much more.." Caius, trailed off unable to find the right words.

"Maybe, if you tried, my way of life, you would think differently." I replied coldly. These people where monsters, no matter who civilised they appeared to be they still drank from humans and had killed many people. They represented everything in this world I had always despised and in my human life worked actively against. I breathed rapidly in and out heavily, trying to calm myself.

With each breathe however I could smell them, the smell of human blood hung to their clothes, I could feel my throat burn, but ignored it. That particularly feeling was as familiar to me now was my right leg, I had the feeling if I suddenly got the chance to become human again, I would miss it in away. It helped shape me, make me hopefully a better person.

"Maybe… and maybe if you tried ours you would see what we mean." Aro replied beaming at me, looking at me knowingly. I wrinkled my nose in distaste. I noticed so did Caius and Marcus and the mention of trying my lifestyle. I almost laughed, but this didn't feel like the right time. They may of said that I was a guest, but it certainly didn't feel that way with my "escort" following me around. They looked at me expectantly as if I would suddenly shout out " of course I'll try it!" when they realised I had nothing to say Aro spoke once again. He seemed to be their leader, or at least nominated speaker.

"We'll talk about this later" Aro promised, instantly filling me with foreboding, before he and his brothers swept out of the room. Leaving me more confused and warier then ever. What was I going to do?

A/N: Okay I made it longer and hopefully more descriptive. Please review ( I do accept annon reviews btw) and hopefully I will update fairly soon… but I'm starting school again so it might not happen for awhile depending on how much homework I get. :)