A/N: This is just really a chapter to get the story going next chapter is when we really get to the plot. So enjoy.

Dislcaimer: Even though I wish I did, I sadly do not own any of this that honor goes to Stephenie Meyer.

Prologue

It glinted. That was one of the good things I could find about the ring. It was supposed to symbolize love and devotion the never ending kind. To me I saw it as an end, nothing would ever be the same, Jacob would not be my friend anymore but my… husband. I could barely think the word let alone say it, but it was true I Isabella preferably Bella Swan was engaged to Jacob Black.

I should be ecstatic I should feel something close to elation. Yet I feel dread, swarming through, filling me up. This ring that Jacob had so proudly bestowed upon me, had used to claim his undying love for me, had so few appealing qualities to me that when I really thought about it I could only come up with that it glinted, that it looked beautiful in the sunlight. But I couldn't find another redeeming quality on why it was on my finger.

In a mere three months I was to become Mrs. Black and I couldn't help but hate it. I didn't want this marriage, though I did love Jacob with my whole heart, I just couldn't marry him. The thought alone had me claustrophobic and gasping for air.

To say Charlie was ecstatic was an understatement, after four years of dating Jacob, we were to be married, he was finally able to be related to Billy. I had started dating Jacob when he was a freshmen and I was a sophomore, he was everything I knew I should want, no he was everything I wanted at the time. It was like teenage romance we were supposed to be lucky that we found each other on the first try but wasn't that just for the movies?

I had felt like this for a long time, the need to leave, to escape everything including Jacob, no especially Jacob. I never had the nerve, didn't want to break his heart, didn't want to disappoint Charlie. But now that there's only three months left and that everything seems to be ready, the invitations have been sent out, flowers arranged, dress (god that horrible dress) fitted, everything was ready to go.

Except me, and now with my mom here and accepting everything so calmly it all seemed too real. With one last look at the ring on my finger I slipped it off and got off my bed, it was time.

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"Bells!" Jacob nearly screamed in excitement as I arrived at his house, I had immediately walked to the garage knowing he would be there.

"Hey Jake." I said as he gave me a huge hug and kissed me, I reciprocated out of habit. Once he pulled away I gave him a sad smile. "Can we sit down, I want to talk." I said motioning to a bench inside the garage.

"Sure, whatever you want." He said taking my left hand to lead me over. "Where's your ring?" He asked alarmed.

"That's what we need to talk about." I said as we sat down.

"Did you lose it?"

"Not quite, Jacob there's no simple way to say this and I want you to know that I do love you, I just need to do this ok." He looked at me with confusion in his eyes but nodded. "We've been together for four years, and they have been the best years and I feel like you shaped who I am in so many ways that without you I wouldn't be who I am now, but…" He kissed my hand as a sign for me to continue and I couldn't help but feel the guilt wash over me. "I can't marry you."

"What?" He dropped my hand he was holding and leaned away from me. "What you can't marry me, why?" I could see the pain marring his handsome face and I hated having been the one to put it there.

"I love you, I do, but I'm not happy anymore and becoming your wife won't help that, I don't want you to waste time being married to me when I'm just not ready."

"Bella if you don't want to get married that's fine we can wait, I can wait all the time you need." I felt tears slide down my face.

"I, god Jacob your too good for me, I can't be with you anymore, I'm sorry I just can't I feel suffocated and I just can't." I could barely see properly with the tears but I grabbed the ring from my pocket and put it in his palm, and with a whispered sorry I left Jacob Black in his garage silently crying at the loss, of what he hoped to be a future with me.

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"I'm leaving." It had been a week since the ending of everything, it was all over town Bella Swan had no heart and left poor Jacob Black. I had stayed in my room for the most part of the week only coming out to inform Renee and Charlie of what had happened and to use the bathroom. Renee had cancelled everything for me, they were both saddened by news and seemed to think it was all because of wedding nerves and I just couldn't handle any of it anymore.

"What?" Both Renee and Charlie said in unison as the got up from their seating in the living room. I had packed a traveling bag and had bought my ticket last night on the internet.

"I'm going to go away for a bit, I need to leave and I think it would be better just to go and let everything settle down here." I said this with confidence with strength knowing this was what needed to be done.

"Bella you can't, I… look Jake's not mad I talked to him yesterday he knows how you get and he still loves you." Charlie had said with pleading in his eyes.

"Dad, I don't love him anymore and I think it's easier for him if I'm not around for him to hope."

"Honey, do you want to go back home, you can stay as long as you want with me in Arizona you know that." Mom said as she lovingly smoothed my hair down.

"Thanks mom." I hugged her. "But I talked Angela Webber, from high school the other night I told her everything and she offered me a job at this local magazine she works at as part editor she saw the work I've done at the Port Angeles Now, and it's small little thing run mainly by the funding of the community but the pays good and change of scene would be good."

"Wait didn't Angela move to Las Vegas?" Charlie asked alarmed.

"Yeah both her and Ben go to UNLV, I think it would good, it's very different from Forks and I'll have someone there, she offered her spare room in the apartment she has."

"But honey, that's… I just don't think it's a good idea." Mom said with a pleading look.

"You guys I'll be fine, I'm an adult now and I need to do this for me, I need to do something just for me once." With that said though they did not agree Charlie and Renee agreed and so I was off.

A/N: So tell me what you think.