Part One
She
didn't know how long she had been asleep, drifting in and out of the
world...in and out of time. Xena knew that her own soul had reached
peace, but her body would not catch up as quickly. The muscles and
the bone and the tendons, living and breathing, walking and running
and jumping - none of that here. Wherever here is. This calm
limbo, this bright oasis... this serene nothingness.
For a few
months, the warrior could stay in the land of the still alive. She
could coast alongside ships, could dissolve into sand, could reach
out and touch... You. I could once touch you, Gabrielle. I said
that death could never separate us. But each day pulls me further
away and now you can't see me as well.
There was not a supreme
being to greet her at the end of her days. No voice, no light, no Eli
or archangels. Just day upon day of silence. And for a while, that
was a good thing. Xena let the quiet wash over her, finding her mind
clear of dark thoughts and guilt. She even could share this bliss
with the bard, once or twice... Wind for fingertips, spelling
messages to Gabrielle in the desert. And the bard would smile, albeit
a sad form of smiling.
"I'm happy for you, Xena."
That
was the last time they saw each other, really saw each other. Then
the tug of some unknown place slowly took Xena away from Gabrielle
and Egypt and grass and sky and everything. Her soul, now clean and
unblemished, is free. And freedom means leaving for good. Freedom
means no attachments to the earthly realm.
Leaving for good...
My soul is free from pain and hate and sadness. Yet, it is not free
from you, Gabrielle. Nor do I want it to be, but when you call for me
and I cannot come to you... My soul can still ache for you,
Gabrielle. My soul can still hurt for you. How can I leave you behind
when you are a part of me?
These thoughts are persistent now,
with each passing moment that Xena cannot see the bard. The warrior
feels the stirrings of discontent once more, only this time it is not
a need for redemption - it is a need for love.
And with that very
thought, so concrete and true, Xena finds the ethereal turn to
blackness. For the first time in a long time, the warrior can feel
something on her skin, along her arms and legs - it is the air.
Like
an apple from a tree, she is falling...
Dirt. I feel dirt. And roots. And my back hurts
like a centaur kicked it... which means... that... But that's
impossible.
Xena opens her eyes slowly, finding herself
surrounded by trees. Trees and the night sky of the living world
swirling above... But that's impossible...right?
"I'm
alive again."
And Xena grins to hear her own voice echo out
into the woods. She stands like a newborn, shaky legs and curious
looks. But each step gets braver, more broad and sure. Every intake
of air is deep, her lungs filling up with a substance she never
thought she would miss.
Gabrielle... The name is a mantra
in Xena's head. Gotta find out where I am, how to find her, what
is going on... And the warrior does wonder what is going on. How
did this happen? And why?
That is when she notices something in
her hand. Was that there the whole time? Parchment, slightly
torn and crumpled, revealing a crude drawing of weapons. And a reward
for the...
"The last of the Amazons." Xena finishes
out-loud, the words getting tangled up in her throat. The tattered
poster offers huge sums for the capture of whatever is left of the
Amazon nation.
A familiar name tops the list. A blonde warrior, a
fair queen, a talented bard. Xena grips the parchment tightly.
"Is
this why I was brought back?" She shouts to the night. And
somewhere, in the darkness, a whisper answers 'yes'. A shadow follows
Xena, watching the newly returned hero stumble and run.
A shadow
watches and waits to see if Xena will succeed...or fail.
TBC