Merlin, a new chapter so soon? Couldn't be! Haha, but yes here it is. Hope you enjoy!
I haven't gotten a chance to edit, but I thought you might appreciate the chapter being put up relatively quickly. If you find any terribly errors, please feel free to point them out. And review while you're at it! Thanks for reading! =)
The next day, it was as though a light had been put out at the house. Everyone was quiet and gloomy. Harry would not be separated from Sirius for a even a minute and Ginny was constantly in the arms of one of her older brothers. Everyone was upset. Everyone but Hermione that is. She had apparently bounced back overnight and was as cheerful as ever. She insisted on teaching Fred and George to drive and Ginny to dance and she even insisted on cooking dinner for them all.
Three days later found Ginny pulling out all of the clothes in Hermione's closet. After spending the last couple of days in the house relaxing quietly, Hermione insisted that it was time to do something fun. They were to go clubbing in the night. With Tonk's help, Ginny resized and restyled Hermione's clothes and the three girls put together outfit after outfit trying to decide what to wear to Club Rio. Halfway through, Harry knocked on the door, distressed because he had no idea what to wear, and because according to him, Sirius would most definitely look gorgeous. So Ginny and Hermione gladly helped Harry pick out a stunning green shirt that matched his eyes, and tight black pants that looked sinfully good on him. When Ron came wandering in, they dressed him in blue to go with his red hair, and he walked out smirking. The girls grinned at each other happily. Finally, they could feel like normal teenagers, although in the back of everyone's mind was Draco Malfoy. And they were praying to Merlin that he would be alright.
When they finally were ready to go that evening, the group looked…stunning. Ginny was the most beautiful of all. She looked radiant in an all black dress with blue earrings and a blue necklace that was the exact color of her eyes. Her brothers watched her with guarded expressions, and Ron almost wouldn't let her out of the house. Tonks looked beautiful as usual; she had changed her hair to a jet black for the occassion and Hermione was dressed in a pair of tight pants and a cute top.
When Remus and Sirius left their room there were murmers all around. Sirius Black was wearing all black, fittingly enough, and he looked gorgeous. When he crossed the room to kiss Harry, the girls all gasped with delight.
"Looks like the girls have their entertainment set for a lifetime," chuckled George.
"Me too.." responded Fred dreamily, staring in the opposite direction at Remus Lupin. If Sirius was stunning, then Remus was out of this world. He wore a tight, long sleeves white shirt that highlighted his toned body, and jeans that fit him just right. On his neck was a chain with a tooth on it, and his hair he had brushed back so it just framed his face and brushed his eyes. On his left ear he wore a small earring.
He waved his hand in front of Fred's eyes, and grinned at his expression.
"What are you staring at?" he asked, completely oblivious. Fred turned to Sirius and rolled his eyes.
"Please help your dear friend get a fucking clue." He told Sirius. Sirius, who was hugging Harry to him and watching the scene, laughed heartily.
"I tried, believe me, I did. He's hopeless. Maybe Tonks can be more successful." Tonks grinned.
"Maybe, but Fred, if you continue to covet my boyfriend, I'll have to hex you." Remus blushed a bright red.
"Tonks he can't be…"
"Shut up Remus," chorused Harry, Sirius, Fred, George, and Tonks.
Ginny and Hermione laughed at his taken aback expression.
"Just let it go, Remus," Hermione insisted, "You'll never understand them."
They drove to the club together, and at the door, Hermione hugged the bouncer, who exclaimed in delight when he saw her.
"Honey it's been so long! And who are your delicious friends?" He asked, eyeing Harry lustily. Sirius put a protective hand around his waist though, and the bouncer, Jerry, quickly averted his eyes. Harry laughed up at Sirius, and when Sirius growled overprotectively, he stood on his tip toes to give him a quick kiss.
"These are my friends from school, Jer. We're here on vacation for a week. How's the club doing?"
"Everything is fantastic! But go on in, we can talk later. You're holding up the line," and he ushered them through. Inside, Fred disappeared onto the dance floor with a pretty girl in about three seconds.
"I can't figure it out," Sirius shouted into George's ear over the loud music, "Is he gay or not?"
"We don't like to limit ourselves by such a silly thing as gender," exclaimed George with a smirk, and he too disappeared onto the crowded floor.
"Come on, let's dance," Sirius insisted, pulling Harry onto the dance floor, Harry laughing happily.
Tonks and Remus soon followed him, and Ginny was given permission by Ron to leave too, after she had promised to behave herself and be careful. Hermione turned to the bar, assuming Ron, too would join everyone on the dance floor, but instead he followed her.
The bar area was much quieter, and the two ordered two gin and tonics and sat in silence for a bit, listening to the music as though it was coming from far away. After a moment, Hermione spoke up.
"You
don't need to baby-sit me, you know. I really am fine. Go on,
enjoy."
"No, no, it's fine. I want to be here with you.
Anyway I'm not much of a dancer, and Lavender wouldn't be very
happy with me." Hermione shrugged apathetically.
"What she doesn't know won't hurt her." Ron looked at her in shock.
"Bloody hell, Hermione, I didn't realize you disliked her that much," Ron said after a heartbeat, crestfallen. Hermione, realizing her mistake, tried to make ammends.
"Oh Ron, it's not that. I'm in a foul mood that's all. I just want you happy. If she makes you happy, then she makes me happy too, I promise. Don't worry, I DO like her." Deep deep down…
"Good," Ron said, his face breaking into a smile, "because you will always be one of the most important women in my life. Always."
"And you will always be one of the most important women in mine, Ronald!"
"Hey!"
On the dance floor, Harry and Sirius were moving to the beat, taking turns grinding and necking and not too far away, Tonks and Remus were enjoying themselves. But soon Tonks pulled away.
"I'm sorry," she said into his ear, giving him a kiss, "but I want to check on Hermione."
Remus nodded understandingly, and she looked at him for a moment.
What? He gestured.
"I don't know how I got so lucky," she explained into his ear. He laughed at her.
"We both did!"
"Go on, dance with Sirius and Harry," she said, laughing at him, and she went off to find Hermione.
Remus found Harry and Sirius who were facing each other and just dancing, and he snuck up behind Harry, and began to dance. Harry turned around, startled, but he relaxed when he saw Moony, giggled slightly, and began to dance back. Sirius laughed at the two of them, and they all enjoyed themselves for a song. Finally, Harry pulled away.
"Now that you've got someone to dance with," he shouted in Sirius's ear, "Let me go check on Hermione."
When he had left, Remus put his hands on Sirius's waist, and pulled him flush against his body.
"Come on, let's dance," he said smiling, and Sirius forgot himself for a song or two, moving like fluid against him, thinking about how it was before Azkaban, before Voldomort, before Real Life. Suddenly, remembering where he was, and with who, he pulled away.
"What?" Remus asked, concerned. Sirius shook his head, and walked away, pushing through the crowd. A bewildered Remus followed him as fast as he could. He found Padfoot sitting at the bar on his own, watching their group of kids enjoy themselves. Harry and Ron were dancing, and Hermione, Ginny, and Tonks were dancing: they were laughing and grinning, and really losing themselves in the music. They looked…like regular kids, and Remus smiled happily at the thought. He joined Sirius at the bar and ordered a drink for the two of them.
"What's wrong?" he asked Sirius. Sirius gave him a strained smile.
"Nothing, it's…nothing. I mean, we shouldn't… act like we did at school. Things are.. well, they're different now aren't they?" he stammered. Shocked, Remus took a deep breath.
"Listen, Padfoot," he said, keeping his voice gentle, even though on the inside, his friend's cut through him like a knife. "I'm not trying to…get with you, or anything of the sort. I would never do that to Harry, never, and I respect Tonks way too much to…"
"No!" Sirius broke in, anxiously, "Moony! I didn't mean that at all!"
"Then, I don't understand, it's just dancing between mates. We are mates aren't we? Harry and Ron are dancing. What's the difference between them and us?"
"We have baggage! Can't you see?" sputtered Sirius
"No, I can't. I put that, Us, behind me a long time ago, Sirius." Remus spoke firmly.
"I can't!" Sirius exploded helplessly, "I can't just put it behind me! I can't just…" and then suddenly he clapped a hand to his mouth. Shit.
"Can't what Padfoot? Tell me, what can't you do?"
"Nothing, nevermind."
"Just…"
"No! I can't. Stop. Let's not talk about it." Remus eyed him carefully; his words had really surprised him. But they couldn't mean…
"Fine, alright." He said, putting an end to the conversation for now. He put a hand on his friend's shoulder, reassuringly, and they sat in silence for a while.
"Now isn't that a pretty sight," he breathed, grinning. Harry and Ron were sandwiching Hermione, and Tonks and Ginny were now dancing. They looked breathtakingly beautiful.
"Oh you perv, Ginny's about half your age!" Sirius said laughing at his mate.
"Look whose talking!"
Sirius chuckled, "Point taken." They watched their kids for a moment.
"But she is something else isn't she? She's really growing up to be beautiful. And, gods the way she was looking at your body Remus…I thought she was going to devour you."
"I don't understand the lot of you. And what is with their obsession with my body?! You're supposed to be the pretty one! Look at you, dressed in all black, and…" he leaned close to examine a small pendant that Sirius was wearing, fingering it gently, "hey! This is the necklace I gave you!" Sirius nodded, blushing slightly. The chain had a pendant that was of a dog, strongly resembling Padfoot, playing with a saphire ball. It was exquisite.
"I never take it off," he said softly, his voice coming out more intimately than he would have liked.
"How did you save it from Azkaban?"
"Hid it in the Whomping Willow."
"Oh!" Remus said, understanding. A pause.
"Anyway," Sirius continued, clearing his throat, and leaning away hastily, a pretty blush spread across his features, "I may be pretty, but you are gorgeous, my friend." Remus rolled his eyes.
"Whatever you say Padfoot," he said, skeptisim clear.
"Moony…"
"Sirius!" Harry called, approaching the pair. "Come dance with me, Sirius!" he said, smiling at him playfully.
"Harry," Sirius protested, "I'm exhausted. I'm too old for this."
"You didn't seem old when everyone was staring at you out on the dance floor."
"They were staring at you silly boy!"
"Yeah like the bouncer," Remus cut in, sniggering. Sirius glared. A small smile played at Harry's lips. He walked slowly and purposefully over to Sirius, and sat in his lap, straddling him.
"Please Sirius?" He kissed him slowly. "Dance with me," he murmered, giving him his best sultry smile.
"Oh go on you two. Or get a room, one of the two." Remus said affectionately.
"Oh alright," Sirius said – he pulled Harry in for a deep kiss, and then Harry grabbed his hand and the two of them strolled off to the dance floor. As they were leaving, Hermione, Ginny, Ron and Tonks headed their way.
"Wanna grab a table Prof…Remus?" Ron asked, pointing at a table over to the side. Remus nodded, and they headed to a booth.
Remus slid in and Tonks settled comfortably against his chest, and Ginny, Ron and Hermione settled opposite them, both girls leaning tiredly on Ron.
"I'm beat," Ginny said stretching contently. "This was fun! Thanks for bringing us Hermione."
"Anytime," she said, leaning over Ron to kiss her on the cheek. She smiled giddly at the fun she had brought to her "family" and shut her eyes contently.
At two o'clock in the morning the group stumbled back into Hermione's house, satisfied and pleasantly exhausted. They all looked at each other and then suddenly, Hermione started to laugh, and soon the whole room was laughing, holding onto each other and laughing and laughing and laughing. Harry grinned at them all quietly, leaning lightly against Sirius. When the group had settled George elbowed Fred, grinning and then said outloud.
"Hey Ronald, I think you should sleep in our room today."
"Wha..? Why..? Oh. OH! Okay, sure." He winked at them, chuckling.
"Hey wait, that's not fair! I don't want to sleep by myself. That's no fun!" Harry protested.
Remus looked at Tonks, and she smiled at him knowingly.
"Sirius can sleep with you, I don't need him," Remus said to Harry, while staring into Tonk's eyes.
"No, but no one should be alone, just in case. I'll stay with Remus."
By this time the whole room was laughing brightly except Harry, who apparently was too drunk to understand where this was headed.
"I'll give you a hint," said Sirius who sauntered up to Harry and kissed him deeply and obscenely. No one even pretended to look away, but stared at them, eyes darkening. Ginny moaned softly. Remus rolled his eyes, used to Sirius's tricks, and gently closed Hermione's mouth, chuckling.
When Sirius pulled away, Harry looked at him, dazed, and then grabbed his hand and pulled him towards his bedroom. As soon as they heard the door shut, Fred and George cackled.
"I think it's time for bed," Hermione proclaimed blinking slightly, and the group went off to enjoy their new sleeping arrangements.
As soon as Sirius closed the door, Harry had him against the wall, kissing him soundly.
"Shit Sirius," he said between kisses, "You've been teasing me all night." He rolled his hips into Sirius's and moaned. Fuck.
"Harry, shh," Sirius said panting, "slow do – oh." He tried to grasp Harry's shoulders, but Harry would have none of it. Harry's hands were everywhere – on his chest, on his arms, on the bulge in his trousers and Sirius was…shit…and he bit his lip, and clenched his hands into fists but he couldn't stop from pressing into Harry's insistent palm, and the smallest amount of friction right there was enough and suddenly he came on a strangled gasp, falling weakly against the wall. There were tears flowing down his face and arousal left Harry like a punch to the gut.
"Sirius, hey, Sirius, what's wrong?" Harry asked, trying to get him to look up at him, but Sirius refused.
"Oh god Harry, I'm so sorry. I'm really…" his face was turned away in shame and embarrassment
"Shh… what happened? Did I do something wrong?"
"No, no, of course not. I just…I haven't…I mean…not since, before" he swallowed "Azkaban." Harry's eyes widened. "It's been years" He murmered, still turned away, eyes hidden behind hair, voice full of shame and apology, "And then you were everywhere, and god it was wonderful but it was too much all at once, and shit Harry, I tried to control…but I couldn't and I'm so sorry."
For a second, Harry couldn't think. This was his Sirius, his Sirius crying, and he didn't know what to do because Sirius never cried and…
"Harry," his voice was just a whisper but it was filled with self loathing. "This isn't. I mean. You deserve better than this old man. You deserve better. I'm damaged goods Harry. I'm simply not good enough for you. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry I…"
"Stop," Harry said cutting him off firmly. "Please just stop. I think you're wonderful Sirius. You mean the world to me. There isn't anyone I'd rather be with. I've tried, believe me I have, to stop loving you but I can't. I will never be able to stop loving you and…"
"I'll stay away. I'll take missions away from Hogwarts. I'll stop writing to you. In time your heart will heal. I'm sure. It's probably just infatuation anyway."
"NO!" Harry shouted at him, his voice panicky. The thought of Sirius abandoning him made him sick. "Sirius don't you dare leave me. Not even for a second."
Sirius spoke quietly, his eyes cast downwards, "Maybe it's for the best."
And suddenly Harry was furious.
"You think you know what's best for me? Fuck off. Sometimes I feel like you don't even KNOW me. So just, fuck off. Get the fuck out of here."
"You think this is normal Harry?! You think what we're doing here is right?! Maybe in our small bubble of a world here, but in the real world? Where it counts? Do you really want to be seen with an old man like me? Think about it! Maybe you didn't notice, but I SAW the stares we got. People looked at me like I was disgusting. They think I'm ruining your life."
"They don't know a thing about my life. They have no right to judge you or me. Maybe you're right. Maybe we should end things here. After all if you can't even handle the judgement of a few strangers, you'll never be able to handle the judgement of people that matter."
"It's not that I…" Sirius began defensively.
"It is! You're scared of what other people think! You're not strong enough to handle it! You've had it so fucking easy. Good looks, good friends, good grades…everything handed to you on a fucking platter. And…"
"I suppose being blamed for my best mate's death and being sent to Azkaban for 12 years fits somewhere in all this?" Sirius cut in darkly. Harry hung his head.
"I'm sorry Sirius," he said remorsefully. "I just…I don't want to lose you. I don't think I could bear it, now that I know what it's like to have you." Sirius lifted his chin up and kissed him gently.
"I love you so much Harry. I just want you to be happy. If you're happy with this, then I'm happy. Just, don't be afraid to tell me how you feel. I don't want you think that you have to be forever tied down, because you're afraid of hurting me. I want you to know that you deserve better, and that when this is over, you should be with someone who deserves you."
"And if that time never comes?" Sirius laughed and kissed him on the nose.
"Then it never comes." Harry smiled warmly.
"Come on, let's go to bed, I'm exhausted. And we can snuggle. I love snuggling." Harry laughed at him. They undressed down to their boxers and got into bed. Sirius gathered Harry into his arms, and pulled him close and Harry sighed contently. They fell asleep quickly.
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