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I know I know it's been a really really really really (I know I have to find a synonym for "really") long time but here it is.

Disclaimer: Everything in from Twilight belongs to Stephanie Meyer but my horrible writers block is all mine…

Chapter Twelve-???

BOV

It had been a week since Alice's sleepover and coming home to barf up all the disgusting chips that game made us eat. And the entire time I was barfing up my entire stomach I still couldn't decide if I still liked Edward or not.

Also the fact that I saw Jeremy less and less each day didn't help. I was used to going to work and put up with all the bitchy models and then coming home to read while I half watched Jeremy and the twins play on the Wii. Till I was slowly dragged into the game until the screams from almost falling off a cliffe, or something, got too much to Lucy that she took away the Wii and told the twins to go play and Jeremy and I to act our own age. Now whenever I go downstairs to find a book Jeremy turns ice cold and pauses the game until I leave.

Since I had finished cleaning out my closet already I had gone into dusting the entire house, cleaning all the keyboard keys (Dustin's taking at least four hours trying to get off all the soda stains), helping Lucy weed our 50 acre backyard in order to plant new flowers, clean out Emily's closet, and wax/vacuum all the floors in the house. After going has far as trying to clean the logs in the fire place Lucy sent me up to my room to read and wouldn't let me go near the cleaning supplies for at least eight hours.

"Izzy do have a t-shirt that has color and some kind of design on it is? Emily's wondering if she can borrow it." Dustin asked coming up the attic stairs two action figures in his hands, Jared right behind him.

"You have the memory of a hamster, Emily made you repeat it twelve times back to her." Jared said in disgust as Dustin shrugged his shoulders and had "Ben Ten" attack a random stuffed animal on my bed. "She says she's looking for a blue sweater that you had before you were transformed because she needs it for a scrapbook of before we all changed, and said that sweater looked the best on you when you were human and she's working on a best and worst clothes page of you."

"Yeah you guys go ask Lucy when I can go downstairs again for me I get the sweater to Emily." I said going to my closet.

Before we left Forks I snuck back to see Charlie one last time, and while I was sneaking out my window I accidently hit a board in the floor wrong and it came out to reveal all the stuff I had thought Edward had taken before he left. The CD, the one picture that had me worrying that I was too plain when I was human, and other random things that I had collected in the short time we had been together.

Behind everything in the very back of my closet underneath about a million extra sheets and blankets was a small black shoe box that had "Human Bella" scrawled quickly across it. It was as if it was the day we moved here I was looking through the very few belongings I had and the stuff still made my heart ache so I quickly wrote on top of the box and through it in the back of the closet to cover it up with as much junk as possible until the only thing that would let me know it was back there was because I hid it.

Slowly I opened it, the blue sweater took up most of the box but a few pictures were slightly wrinkled and of course the CD, there were a few little things in there also. Picking up the box I brought it out into my room and emptied the contents of it on my bed setting aside the sweater for Emily. The CD caught the last few rays of light as the sun set and shined it into my eyes just taunting me to put it in and listen to it. After standing and looking at it like a moron forever I finally gave up and put it in my stereo. The moment I pressed play and the sweet notes softly played through the speakers I could feel tears that would never and could never come form in my eyes. While the rest of my sweet lullaby played I looked at the pictures.

When I went to go see Charlie I found pictures that he had taken or most likely Esme had given him in his dresser, I took the doubles of them. One was when I had first met Edwards family it was the first time I had heard my lullaby, as I stared at the picture I couldn't keep my eyes off of Edward's eyes as he played his expression so carefree yet intense like he had to make the lullaby even more perfect than it already was. The next was of that birthday before I had cut myself Alice's eyes shone and the more I studied Rosalie I could sense, just a little bit, that even she was excited to celebrate a birthday.

The final photo I took was Edward and I at the meadow, I didn't even want to know how they got the photo I didn't care it was perfect. It wasn't perfect like those totally fake ones you get when you buy a frame but somehow we looked equal like the meadow took away the fact that Edward was a gorgeous vampire and I was just a plain human girl somehow everything about us was combined and both of us reached a level of beauty that didn't even look like they stereotypical beauty, like nothing could touch us in that meadow and that was what made it beautiful.

After standing there staring at that picture for who knows how long I finally stopped when the songs stopped my trance was over and Emily has waiting for the sweater. Tucking the picture in my jean pocket I grabbed the sweater and headed down the attic stairs to Emily's room. Not knocking like always I just walked on to freeze and take a double look.

Laying in a vertical position making out was Emily and Jeremy tongues and everything, and they looked like they were only a few steps away from going all the way. Trying to leave it was like human Bella took over my body and the first time in awhile I tripped a true and total clutzy trip, landing face flat on the floor and making a huge boom sound startling the couple from the position.

"Oh my god Izzy, um this isn't…well actually…you see." Emily babbled as Jeremy quickly moved a foot away from Emily.

Cutting Emily's mindless babble with my own I slowly made a run for the door. "Um, I'm sorry I didn't know you guys…well here's the sweater I'm going to just leave it here. Continue please, uh Emily Yvonne called we have another car gig tomorrow, though I guess right now isn't the best time. Um I'm sorry I'm going to go now, really." I said finally making to the door and closing it tight, only to here it open again.

"Izzy wait." This time it was Jeremy's voice, I froze I hadn't heard it in awhile.

"Okay, but isn't Emily um waiting?"

"Izzy this just happened we haven't been sneaking around you. I was sulking as always when Emily finally confronted me about it and somehow it ended up like this, I really do like her I'm not just re-bounding. Also I truly love you Iz but now I realize more like a sister. Izzy when Emily confronted me and it made me think. When we went out to the club with the Cullen's for the first time and you ran out when you were asked if you still loved Edward I could kind of tell you still did but it wasn't too obvious. But now I here every time your asked you avoid it and can't say no. I think your avoiding it because you really love him but you're afraid of getting hurt again, but I've seen how he looks at you and I swear the next time he leaves you will be too go get some decorations for some crazy party Alice throws and only because Alice tells him if he doesn't she'll torch his piano. So Iz, stop fighting it. I've realized it; Emily and Alice knew from the start; Lucy, Chandler, Esme, Carlisle just have those weird parent senses; the rest of the Cullen's knew it; hell Jeremy, Jared, and ever Emmett! Has realized it so now it's your turn to realize it, your in love with Edward you just don't know how to tell him." Jeremy finished staring at me just daring me to deny him, even though he knows me better than anyone.

"But," My stubborn side showing.

"No but's,"

"What if,"

"No what if's"

"How about,"

"None of those either,"

"Then, where is the closest florist?" I finally finished, Jeremy's glare turning into a smile.

"I'll give you directions."

…

Even though I technically can't feel cold I felt absolutely frozen from within while I waited by the fountain walking back and forth waiting for Edward it come.

After stopping by the florist I drove over to Edwards apartment thrown a piece of paper attached to a rock, asking him to meet me at the fountain at 12:00PM, and waited in the shadows to make sure he got it. Then quickly drove to the park before he could and to collect myself, only to have one butterfly replaced by an entire swarm.

Before I left Emily helped me pick out a flowing dark blue dress with spaghetti straps and black lace trim on top with a long bow, black flats with a wide bow, and a black wool coat with three shiny black buttons on the front.

"Ehem." I heard in the background turning around quickly I turned to face Edward.

His bronze hair was perfectly tussled and he wore a simple brown sweater and black slacks, and yet looked perfect. Even after years of modeling in the most revealing outfits right at this moment I felt more revealed than my entire life as I stood in front of him my hands behind my back.

"Hi Edward." I said nervously.

"Be-Izzy." Edward said correcting himself, somehow Izzy still didn't fit on his lips.

"Before you ask any questions I have something for you."

Walking closer I took my hand from behind my back and handed him a small purple five petal flower shaped like a star.

"It's a heliotrope. You see you have to know the story before I tell you why I'm giving you this." I interrupted before Edward could even open his mouth. "Well this guy who's obsessed with me, it's almost kind of sad, was sending me a ton of beautiful flowers each day just to tell me he was thinking of me. It was ridiculous even sweet Lucy got annoyed. So finally I agreed to go out with this guy to save myself from you know drowning and dying in flowers. So I went out with him and he told me he wanted me back, I had dated him a bit before when I was younger you know." I paused for a moment just entranced by his smile.

"Please continue." Edward almost laughed when I stared at him too long.

"Right well, this foolish girl after having her heart broken by him before somehow realized, with the help of many and I mean many prying family members and friends, that she never really stopped loving him. So in conclusion this flower is a heliotrope, meaning Devotion and Eternal Love…" before I could even finish my rant his lips were on mine in a kiss that could light up the Eiffel tower.

We just stood there for who knows how long my arms wrapped around his and his around mine just standing there in one long sweet kiss. After what seemed like forever it ended.

"I love you too." Edward said smiling, before starting another kiss.

I know finally the story is finished. Sorry for basically a year wait but I finally finished it! Thank you all for the encouragement and support, and somehow still loving this story as much as I do. I hope you liked the ending, and didn't think it was too rushed.

Reasons why it was kinda rushed…

I was afraid I wouldn't finish it if it was any longer

I think that when Bella finally realized she was in love it would come fast and with lost of confusion, like love always is in stories

I like ending things on even numbers (Chapter 12)

I thought you guys deserved a surprising and fun ending

Again than you all so much for reading this and I hope all you new readers like it as much as others!

Thanks and I hope you'll read any other FanFic's I somehow am able to spit out!