Title: Phases of the Moon

Author: Jaino

Fandom: Harry Potter

Pairing: James/Sirius

Rating: R

Disclaimer: I own nothing, everything belongs to JK Rowling. I just use it every now and then.

Summary: Sirius and James were a couple until the Whomping Willow incident. James gets extremely mad at Sirius and tells Sirius their relationship is over.

Note: I found one of my old stories written way back when for the SxJ fiction FEST!. I have rewritten some of the story to give it a better flow. I hope you like it. And a Special Thank you, for my very helpful Beta reader Sophocles!
With out you things would have... well lets not go there ;) Thanks Hun!
-Jaino

Hogwarts:

"I don't understand you Sirius, how could you betray us?" James glared at his boyfriend, anger coursing through his body. He couldn't believe Sirius let the Marauder's deepest darkest secret slip to that greasy git Snape. A secret that they all vowed Never Ever to tell anyone about... anyone and putting him, them all in danger.

"Please James, it was a mistake. I just wanted to- to..." Sirius stumbled over the words; he never thought that his joke would have turned out like this, betraying his friends trust, endangering everyone's safety" letting it go far enough that someone got hurt" even if that person was Snape.

Normally Sirius was a well-rounded person, but the events that had taken place in the span of three days, really shook him up. Everything was so jumbled, things had happened too fast.

First Snape had threatened to expose them on their monthly disappearances, so Sirius had made up the joke to scare Snape into keeping his mouth shut. But then everything had gone so wrong; Snape almost had gotten badly injured. If it wasn't for James saving him at the last minute. The visit to Madam Pomfrey, the talk with Professor Dumbledore soon after┘ Sirius only wanted to protect his friends, his lover now after everything" he just wanted everything to be okay again.

Quickly cutting him off. "To what, Sirius? Have a little fun, ruin Remus's life?" he said glaring at Sirius, unwilling to take pity on him. James watched Sirius holding himself tightly.

Snapping his head up swiftly--shaking it in denial. "No, James, that's not why, I would never want that to happen, I care about-"

James's eyes flew open then; he hadn't even realized he'd closed them. "You care? I bet you cared so much you probably thought that it would make Remus happy in Azakban, huh?" James yelled out at Sirius. His right hand shot out and grasped Sirius's arm tightly.

His words stabbed Sirius deeply, combined with the hard grip on his arm, Sirius softly whimpered. Sirius's eyes stung with tears, but he refused to let them fall; he wouldn't let James words affect him yet.

Not before he finished explaining his side of the story to James. "No, I just-" Sirius started to speak but James cut him off once again.

James's anger had taken over his body and possessed his soul.

"I don't want to hear it, Sirius, and I... I don't I want you anymore" his voice stumbled only slightly; staring at Sirius, he just couldn't see who he was anymore.

Rage had put emphasis on all the bad qualities Sirius had, overshadowing everything else. Thinking what had always lurked in the back of James's mind: that the Sirius he and the others cared for, the fun loving, strong willed, loyal person was all just an act.

Sirius had finally showed his true colors' an arrogant, selfish, disloyal wizard from the house of Black.

James loosened his grip, letting Sirius go; looking at him, all James could see was a person who had betrayed everything that the Marauders stood for: friendship, laughter, family, and most importantly Loyalty.
Not the Sirius he thought he knew, but a stranger, a stranger he couldn't stand.

James looked at Sirius's stunned expression; feeling little, he began to make his way to the door. Sirius just stood frozen as the James's words started to make sense.

"What? No, James, y-you don't mean that, we haven't discussed anything yet." Sirius couldn't believe his ears. 'What was James saying? That he didn't want to be with him anymore?' Sirius couldn't accept that. Holding his arm out, he blocked James path, Sirius stopped him from taking any more steps. Taking a fistful of James's robes, Sirius could feel his own heart beating rapidly with fear and anticipation.

"Yes, I do, Sirius, you're not the person I thought you were." James looked at Sirius's clenched fist. "I don't want you to talk to any of us; you are on your own now, you dug your own grave." He pushed Sirius off roughly, stumbling as Sirius grasped him around the chest, holding tightly.

"NO! You can't mean that! I didn't get to explain anything James-"Sirius said, trying to get James to listen to him.

"Enough Sirius," James said, his voice hard. He began to struggle out of Sirius tight embrace.

"You said-- you said that you would be with me forever!" His voice was high pitched and full of panic, he couldn't let go, he knew that if he did, he would lose James forever.

James finally twisted one of Sirius wrists, prying his arms off. "No! No, we're not done talking yet! I haven't explained to you," Sirius cried out as James shook him off and walked towards the door. "Please James, wait... Wait!" he called out, struggling to get up, trying to stop James from leaving.

But as he stood up, James gave him one last glare. Then opening the door, he started to walk out.

Sirius hit the door as it closed. Kneeling, he bent his head resting it against the door. "No.. no.. no.. nononono- I didn't explain James, I didn't explain, I only wanted to-to protect us, only protect..." The words softly chanted, muffled sobbing against the door, his body lay crumpled.