I MISS YOU ALL! I can't believe people are still putting this on lists and whatnot. I haven't updated in SO LONG! But please, if you're still interesting in reading, leave a review!! I know I'm always hounding you guys, but seriously this time. I don't know if anyone even cares any more, and there's so much more to come! Just because we know the secret doesn't mean it makes enough sense yet. ;)

When I woke up, I realized three things. The first thing was that one of my fingers hurt- really hurt. And I could hardly move it. I tried to flex it, and it gave no response- of course. It was in a splint. Second. I realized I was married. There were two rings on my finger now, (one of the fingers that was still completely in tact,) and as far as I could tell, they would continue to stay there for eternity. And lastly, probably most importantly, I had spent the night of my wedding asleep in my bed in the Cullen house. That had definitely not been a part of my plans. I groaned, curling myself up on the bed. The memories of the day before flooded into my head quickly. I felt incredibly disoriented as I thought it over. There was no way Jake had attacked me; it wasn't something he would do, no matter if he was in his right mind or not. I scrunched up my eyebrows, thinking. Edward seemed to think Jake was out of his mind. Could his need to push against everything his mind was telling him do that to him? I knew that answer- yes. Pushing against everything you knew was true and trying to make your life go a completely different way could drive you insane. I immediately wanted to forgive him, to make sure he was okay. I didn't have it in me to be angry with him. Edward had made irrational decisions just like that one before. Well, not exactly just like, but he had done some stupid things on my behalf. Always so protective... I sighed, already missing him. He probably thought I was attempting more sleep.

I rolled around to find him, not even opening my eyes as I reached out for him, but I found nothing but air. I groaned in frustration. Hadn't he just said he'd be right here with me all night? Did he not count daytime, even though I had still been asleep? My stomach constricted with my sadness, I wanted him here now. I felt worse than I had with him gone in a long time, and I couldn't figure out why. My entire body went from just fine to burning hot, and I felt clammy all over. I opened my eyes, confused, until I felt something rising up my throat. This was definitely not sadness constricting my stomach. I ran as fast as I could toward the bathroom, and hardly made it.

After I threw up, I curled myself against the bathroom floor and closed my eyes. I was burning hot, I felt like I was on fire, and only the cool tile of the bathroom was making me feel better. "Edward..." I groaned, trying to push myself up, immediately becoming very dizzy. Obviously walking was not something I was meant to do at the moment.

He appeared in a flash, his face going from confused to understanding, the click of his realization flashing in his eyes. He bent down beside me, pushing my hair out of my face, touching my forehead. "Bella," he murmured, staring, horrified. "You're burning."

I nodded, my eyebrows furrowing together, suddenly angry with him. If he had not left me in bed, somehow, this wouldn't have happened. I wouldn't be feeling this terrible. "Where were you?" I demanded, my voice gurgled.

Edward's eyes tightened and he closed them for just a moment, still caressing my face as he did so. "We've had a visitor."

I could tell from the look on his face that this was not the kind of visitor one enjoyed the company of. I tried to push myself up again, and instead of pushing me down, he scooped me up. I loved the feeling of his chest against my face, so I pressed it there. "Take your shirt off." I muttered, and I could hear him laugh.

"Is it really the time for that, Bella?" he teased, and I groaned.

"Not like that," I muttered. "It's cool." I paused for a minute. "What visitor?"

"Oh, you know." Edward said, taking the finger with the splint on it and holding it. I had completely forgotten of the pain in my finger until then. "The one who gave you this wedding gift."

My eyes opened, wide. "Jacob?!" I was horrified. A million thoughts were flying through my head. How had I not heard the sounds of Emmett tearing him to pieces?!

Edward seemed to understand, and he sighed. "It seems last night Rosalie and Emmett decided a millionth honeymoon would be fun." he shrugged, still rocking me slowly. I wasn't sure we were even going anywhere now.

I suddenly felt terrible. Rosalie was trying to get Emmett's mind off of Jacob. This was my fault. "I ran them off. Again." I sighed, and then my eyes widened. I could feel it coming up again. This fast?! I couldn't believe it. "I'm going to...." I made a face, and Edward had me back at the toilet in no time.

This time, he held my hair back and made sure I was okay, rubbing my back. "I don't like this much." he muttered. "I think we should go to the hospital."

"It's just a virus or something." I explained, rolling my eyes and getting up toward the sink to get my toothbrush. "They'll tell me to ride it out and send me on my way." He was immediately behind me, attempting to keep me up.

"Isn't this a nice change of pace?" he said, amused. "Usually I have to keep far away from you when you're sick. Now you need me more than ever."

"I'm glad you're enjoying this." I snapped, spitting out my toothpaste. "And where's Jacob?!"

"You don't want to talk to him, do you?" He asked, and I could hear the underlying tone in his voice—he was disgusted with the thought.

"Why do you ask?" I replied, washing my mouth out.

"Because if you want to, I'll have to let you, of course." He said, as if this question was silly.

"Well, I want to." I determined, turning to face him. My head spun. I groaned and put a hand to my forehead.

"Of course you would." he said smoothly, scooping me up and starting toward the stairs.

Alice was not the least bit happy about this arrangement. She seemed she was ready to fight both Edward and Jacob over it, especially given my condition. Upon seeing the look on my face she gave a snarl like I had never heard. Jasper had to calm her down, and even after she looked outraged.

Jacob was standing, near the door, obviously ready to make a break for it. Edward sat me down on the couch and then put me in his lap, holding his arms around me, attempting to protect me from whatever. I stared at Jake, worried for him.

We stared at each other for a minute, both of us confused on what to say. Finally, Jacob attempted to speak.

"I didn't...." he closed his eyes. "How's your finger?"

I held it up for him to see. He groaned.

"I didn't mean to do that." he muttered.

"Oh, please!" I heard Edward say under his breath, and Jake shook his head, fast.

"I didn't! I never would have..." he stopped. He was shaking. "I don't know what's wrong with me, Bells. I'm not thinking any more. My body is reacting for me instead of me making the decisions. I didn't even realize what was going on until it was too late." he took a deep breath, the shaking subsiding.

"I know." I replied, and I could hear the collective groans of all the vampires in the room. This sent Jake off again.

"NO!" he roared, and I didn't understand what was going on. He had been just fine a second ago. Something was wrong with him. Something wasn't right. He was right. Edward was right, someone was at least. Jacob had a problem. But I couldn't think long enough to figure out what it was. I cringed, the sound of the roar filling my head like a piercing scream. My head hurt too much for that.

"YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND!" he demanded, and suddenly we were standing up, and I was dead behind Edward. Jacob had made an attempt to walk closer to me, and Edward's little amount of patience had just worn itself thin. A low growl was coming from his chest, and I turned to see Alice and Jasper on both sides of me. Alice was now holding me up, since Edward couldn't, and I thought for sure I was going to fall over now. I was exhausted with sick.

Jake was shaking again, worse than before. "I have to keep her safe." he told me, only me, staring through Edward and right where my eyes were. I could feel it. "I have to keep her safe, that's all I've been doing for weeks, no matter what. She almost died, I saved her and she just..." he closed his eyes, the shaking even harder now. They looked like tremors going through his body. Then, he was out the door. He bolted and he ran, and when I looked out the door I could see nothing but the wolf.

"Treaty broken." I heard Jasper say, and I couldn't take the thought of that. I should have hit the floor, but instead I hit stone. Six stone arms were trying to catch me at the same time, and then I blacked out.

I didn't wake back up for a long time. I dreamed the same dream, over and over on repeat, a dream of Carlisle fighting against Sam, leader against leader, Sam's hands covered in what had to be blood, though I couldn't figure out why, and I could smell it in the air. It made me even woozier, though I couldn't get away from the fight. Then Sam moved toward Carlisle with what I thought was some sort of sadness, and four wolves closed around him, seeming to jump in from the tops of the trees around them.

And I screamed. This wasn't fair- Carlisle could take on one of them, maybe even two of them easily. I knew he was strong and smart. But five of them?! No one was a match like that. Why were they fighting so underhandedly?! And why were they fighting at all!?

When I woke up, I could taste the blood in my mouth. That worried me. What had happened? I opened my eyes, frantic. I was immediately confused when I found I was somewhere I had never remembered being. I was at a hotel.

I turned, and there was Edward. Shirtless. Good, he had finally listened to my demands. I curled into him, and he looked worried.

"You threw up so much that you were vomiting blood." he told me, sighing. "And I don't think the best place to do that is in a house full of vampires."

I stared at him. "I've been throwing up?!"

His eyebrows went up. "You don't remember? I know you were a bit out of it, but I thought that was just after..."

I shook my head, not really caring. "I'm sorry." I told him, pressing my forehead to his chest, enjoying the coolness of it.

He grabbed my face and pulled it up, staring at me, his eyes bright gold and making me melt. "For what?" he asked me, and I thought he must have been insane.

"Some honeymoon." I told him, muttering, embarrassed, and he laughed.

"Well, we did get ourselves a nice hotel room, and I'm not fully clothed. That's about what most people get on their honeymoon."

"Most of them aren't vomiting."

"Yes, this is very true." he chuckled, kissing my nose. "Since when are we ever normal?"

He pulled away, an odd look on his face. "Now please go brush your teeth." he scrunched up his nose, obviously making fun of me. "You kind of smell."

I started to get up, and I realized I was feeling a bit better as I made my way to the bathroom, where Edward had already put my things for the night. "How's Jacob?" I called, hoping to sound nonchalant, but my throat tightened. There were so, so many things I should have said to him while he was there, and yet I ignored them all. There was so much unfinished business. I almost felt delirious thinking of it. It hurt.

"He didn't return." Edward said simply, and something told me he did not want to be talking about Jacob right now. There was too much going on in my life. I didn't have the time or patience to process it, sift through it and understand. I felt dizzy and disoriented, but a lot less sick. I wondered how Edward managed to get a hotel room and put me in it while I acted like a zombie.

I sighed, now understanding why Edward hadn't kissed me on the lips. There was still blood in my mouth. How disgusting of a honeymoon this must be for him. I looked down at the rings on my finger, thinking it over. We had really expected this to make things better. We thought that everything would stop when we got married, and it seemed that it had just thrown us into an even worse turmoil.

This would be an interesting next few days.