Chapter 1
Summary: James and Lily have been dating since the beginning of the year but when Lily finds James cheating on her, she decides she has to leave. She breaks up with him on Graduation Day and leaves. She is not seen or heard from for 5 years when she returns to the wizarding world for a five year Hogwarts reunion. She now has two children (Harry James, James' son and Rhiannon Alani, James' daughter). Can she forgive James and return to the world she loves and give her kids a father? Whole story is AU (i.e. Hermione is Remus' daughter, Sirius has a son and a daughter and Remus has a son as well and there is no Voldie. First chapter to the song Gotta GO My Own Way- HSM2
I carefully walked into the blue room that my five-year old son was sleeping peacefully in. I walked to his racing car bed and sat down gently next to him. I moved some ebony hair from his face and he instinctively leant into my palm. I smiled at him through the light sheen of tears that had covered my eyes. Underneath his closed eyelids, rested my emerald green eyes, however, in every other aspect of him, he was his father's son. He acted just like his father and I knew that when he was older, he would be a little heartbreaker like his father.
I kissed my baby boy on the head before leaving the room just as quietly as I entered. The next room I entered was painted a purple colour with a black roof that had glow-in-the-dark constellations, planets and stars covering it.
Lying in the bed, snuggled under a Tinker Bell bed set and heavy doona was my little girl. Her silky auburn hair was long and flowing out around her head like a small halo. Her wonderful hazel eyes that always reminded me of her father danced behind her closed eyelids as she dreamed what I assumed to be wonderful dreams.
I kissed her on the forehead and walked out of her room quietly.
My mind flashed back to my seventh year when everything went wrong.
-- Flashback--
Lily and James had now been going out for a few months and it was now time for Graduation.
Lily and James had shared 'that special moment' (i.e. sex) a month ago and now Lily was worried. She had been throwing up and her period was late. Her worst fears were confirmed however when she went to madam Pomfrey who confirmed her suspicions that she was pregnant.
Lily was glowing. SHE WAS PREGNANT! She couldn't wait to tell James. She wanted to find him straight away and tell him.
She walked into the Gryffindor common room and found her best friends ever Tarren "Tazz" Jones and Meghan "Meg" Warren sitting by the fire discussing wedding plans for Tazz's impending wedding to the one and only Sirius Black.
"Hey
Lils. What's up?" Tazz asked.
"Have you seen James?" Lily asked.
"Yea actually. He said something about going to the Defense Room to talk to Professor Carlisle about something." Meg said.
"Thanks guys." Lily said before walking out of the room.
Lily walked through the halls until she reached the Defense room. She heard some noises that confused her but she just put it down to one of the weird creatures Professor Carlisle usually had in his room.
Lily opened the door and walked inside only to gasp and have tears well up in her eyes at the sight she saw.
There was James, HER James, wrapped in the arms of Holly Stone. They were both in their underwear and they were kissing like no tomorrow.
Lily covered her mouth to stop herself from screaming. She ran out of the room and up to the Room of Requirement.
The next day Lily broke up with James. Her excuse was that life was getting in the way of their relationship. She told him she was leaving on Graduation Day and probably wouldn't return.
James cried and true to her word, on Graduation Day, Lily Evans left the Wizarding World to fulfill a life as a muggle.
--End Flashback--
I walked into the kitchen and turned on the radio. I made myself a cup of coffee and listened to the sad song that perfectly described my break-up with James.
I
gotta say what's on my mind
Something about us
doesn't seem
right these days
life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try,
somehow the plan
is always rearranged
I said exactly what was on my mind to James. I just told him "Something about us, our relationship, doesn't seem right. Life keeps getting in the way. We have tried to arrange dates but trying to maneuver them around friends, Quidditch, school work and Head's Duties is near impossible. Also it doesn't help when I find you cheating on me."
It's
so hard to say
But I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be
ok..
"James, this is hard to say but… I have to do what's best for me. We have to break up. I also have to leave the Wizarding World. You'll be ok I promise." I said to him that day.
I've
got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope
you understand
"I have to move on and find out who I am. I don't belong here in the Wizarding World. I hope you understand, please understand."
We
might find our place in this
world someday
But at least for
now
I gotta go my own way
"Maybe one day I'll come back and find my place but just for now, I have to go my own way."
Graduation day rolled around and I could be found saying to myself as I packed:
Don't
wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up
and I watch
them fall everytime
I didn't want to leave my friends behind but I had to. I got my hopes up with James that we would be a perfect couple but that fell through.
Another
colour turns to grey
and it's just too hard to watch it all
slowly
fade away
I'm leaving today 'cause I've
gotta do what's best
for me
you'll be ok..
It was so hard to watch everything I had worked for slowly fade into nothingness but it just happened. I was leaving that day because it was what was best for me. They'll all be ok.
I've
got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope
you understand
We might find our place in this
world
someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way
After I was presented my certificate I sat down think about everything. I had to move on to become someone different then what these people here expected of me. We all will find our place in this world or any world soon but I knew my place was in the Muggle world.
That afternoon, James came up to me. He was so upset. He said to me "What about us? What about everything we've been through?"
I started crying. He had cheated on me and he wanted me to forget everything he had done just to be together. I did love him but he hurt me so bad.
I turned to look at him, tears running down my face "What about trust?" I yelled at him.
He looked at me baffled and in that instance, I turned and ran to the platform.
I snapped out of my memories as the song finished.
you know I never wanted to hurt you
and what about me?
What am I supposed to do?
I gotta leave but I'll miss you
I'll miss you
so
I've got to move on and be who I am
Why do you have to go?
I just don't belong here
I hope you
understand
I'm trying to understand
We might find our
place in this
world someday
but at least for now
I want you to stay
I wanna go my own way
I've got to move on and
be who I am
What about us?
I just don't belong here
I
hope you understand
I'm trying to understand
We might
find our place in this
world someday
but at least for now
I
gotta go my own way
I gotta go my own way
I gotta go my own way
I finished off my coffee, turned off the radio and went to bed.
Little
did I know that I would be drawn back into the world I had left and
that my kids would be involved just as much as I.