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The silk robe was tied tightly around her too thin waist when her phone vibrated. Nate had just left, and Blair was having a difficult time trying to stop smiling, things were back to how they were supposed to be. It was always supposed to be Nate and Blair, and finally they were back; king and queen reunited. Flipping open her phone Blair saw a new message from Gossip Girl. Her smile disappeared as she read it.

Spotted. C, bags packed and headed to the airport. Where's he going? Your guess is as good as mine. But I'll be watching. XOXO. Gossip Girl.

Blair knew why Chuck would have left. He had cared about her, more than a fuck-buddy, or a part-time lover; he had honestly felt affection for her. And she'd known that, if she was being honest she reciprocated his emotions a bit. But that wasn't the way it was supposed to be. No matter how much they cared about each other, no matter how great the sex was; it was always supposed to be Nate and Blair. That's what everyone wanted. The Waldorf's and the Archibald's were ecstatic over the relationship, the couple were the envy of the entire school, Nate loved being with someone as gorgeous as Blair, and Blair needed to be with Nate. She needed the attention, she needed the way of ensuring she'd never fall from her crown again, she needed to be envied and adored, she needed to prove that she was as good, if not better than Serena, and she needed to be the picture-perfect fairy-tale couple. That was just who she was, who she'd always been. Blair needed the attention fix.

She knew it was her fault; she'd used him, treated him like dirt. In her mind it was payback; payback to Chuck for all his conquests, payback to Nate for sleeping with her best friend. But Blair couldn't help herself, Chuck attracted Blair like not even Nate had; he was wild, scheming. Chuck was a way to rebel, to prove that she wasn't boring in comparison to Serena, to escape. She had a power over Chuck, and she revealed in that; she now had the type of power over Chuck that Serena had seemed to possess over Nate.

When she'd been with Chuck she didn't have to pretend, she could be exactly who she was, exactly who she wanted to be. Everyday she hid behind a castle of money, expensive clothes, extravagant jewellery, excessive make-up, styled hair, and last names. But when she was with Chuck, Blair could forget about disappointed dreams, let-down parents, false friends, and gossiping classmates.

But now he was gone. No goodbye, nothing; just like Serena had; just like she'd planned to. The trait all 'Upper East Siders' shared – the talent and gift to pickup and run, never caring about who was left in the wake. But Chuck had never been one to follow suit, so Blair was surprised that he'd finally taken the hint and got lost, mimicking the actions of too many before him.

She'd regained her fairytale boyfriend, taken back her crown, become 'Queen B' again, but at what cost? She'd traded in a man who possibly loved her, a man she trusted and could let loose around, for a boy who was still hung up on Serena. Her confident, lover, friend, partner in crime and the guy who had possibly captured her heart with his butterflies (although she'd never admit it), was now on a plane to god-knows-where, for an unknown amount of time. And she had to live with the fact that she had been the reason for his departure.

But that was the crime of the 'Upper East Siders', the sacrifice for the fairytale ending, the price for that god-damn picture-perfect life – and even if it wasn't worth it, the need for that was too great to deny. Blair had finally pieced back together her life, but a piece was gone, leaving a few cracks. Still, Blair had a reputation to uphold; so she dressed in a stunning dress, applied her make-up and left the house – Blair Waldorf needs no one and mourns the loss of no one. But she couldn't deny the poke in her heart when she saw a checked scarf in a shop window, not that she'd admit that out loud, after all she was Blair Waldorf, and Blair Waldorf never even liked Chuck Bass, right?

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