Authors note: 1st Hannah Montana Fanfic. Not my first story. Please no flames. ENJOY!

WARNING: cutting/depression/language/sexual content in later chapters

Chapter 1: The sunset

Miley Cyrus was sitting on her deck looking over the beautiful Malibu. Whenever she was home when the sun was going down, she would go up to her deck to watch. It was almost like time was standing still and speeding up at the same time. There was never a more beautiful time then sundown.

Someone had walked into her room, without knocking. Instinctively thinking it was Jackson, she turned around to yell at him.

"Jackson GET OUT OF MY-" she froze when she saw Nick Jonas standing in the doorway.

"How'd you get in here?" she asked surprised.

"Oh gee, I love you too Miley," He chuckled slightly.

He came and sat next to her on her white patio chairs. Miley escaped his daze and looked back over at the horizon. The sun had just started peeking behind the mountain. Shades of orange, pink, and red filled the skies.

They were silent for a long while. Or, so it felt to Miley. Her heart was racing, just as it always did around Nick. She denied how much she likes him to her family and friends, but to herself, she knew the truth.

"So how did you get in without my dad seeing you?" Miley asked, interested in hearing his answer.

He laughed sarcastically.

"I had made up a whole plan about how I would get up here without him noticing before I got over here, but when I walked through your driveway both your dad and Jackson's cars were gone. It was amazing luck."

"Then how did you open the door?"

"I know where you keep your spare key," Miley laughed, because honestly it was a little creepy that he knew where it was, but she was still really flattered that he knew so much about her life.

"So why are you here then?" she asked.

"You are certainly full of questions." He said with a sigh.

"No," She answered, "Just questions any normal person would ask when someone shows up unannounced," Now she was kidding, but in all actuality she really wanted to know the reason why he was here.

"Well I was wondering what you were doing Friday night," He said nervously.

I couldn't believe Nick was asking me out on a date! I wanted to say yes so bad, but I knew Jake would kill me if he ever found out.

"As much as I would love to do something with you Nick," She started, "Jake and I are actually, um, well, back together I guess, so I just couldn't.

Nick blushed.

"Oh uh, actually I was wondering what you were doing Friday because, um, my little bro wanted to know. You know how bad of a crush he has on you. Anyway I should go." He picked up and left so fast Miley didn't even have a chance to apologize.

When he was gone, Miley let her tears fall from her face. She went back to staring at the Sunset, which was now almost over. In a few short minuets the sun will be completely behind the mountain and all the light in the sky will turn to darkness.

"I'm sorry Nick," She said only to herself, "I want to be with you so bad, but you don't know what Jake would do to me if he ever found out I even was interested in you."

She walked over to her mirror and lifted up her shirt. She was covered in bruises. One bruise was so bad, that she thought one of her ribs were broken.

"Look at me" She sobbed, "I'm disgusting!"

The she picked up her hands to look at her wrists which were scarred.

Running to the bathroom, she picked up her razor and started cutting. Something she promised herself she would never do again. She seemed to be breaking a lot of promises lately.

She just wanted the pain to go away. There was too much of it. Why did she have to hurt Nick like that?! Why does Jake have to hurt HER like that.

More angry thoughts circled through her. Eventually she had to stop, because she felt woozy.

There was a knock at the door, but Miley didn't get up to answer it. She just lied on her bathroom floor.

"Miley," A familiar voice opened her bedroom door. He walked in, expecting to see her on the patio, but with no prevail.

"Miley," He said again, this time knocking at her bathroom door, "Common Darlin it's dinner." He said starting to get exasperated.

"Miles?" Now his voiced showed a lot of concern.

"JUST LEAVE ME ALONE DADDY!" Miley yelled.

Billy Ray knew these signs. He heard the anger in her voice, and he could almost feel her tears. He tried jiggling the door knob but she had locked it.

He ran to his room to grab his "all house key." Something he had made just a year ago when Miley first started sinking into depression.

He hustled back to her bathroom and unlocked the door. Miley was lying on the floor. Glass was broken from things on her counter she had thrown, and her razor was sitting next to her. She was crying on the floor, holding onto her bloody wrists and hands.

"Miley!!" He yelled, rushing over to her to pick her up, "Common, we are going to the ER."

"No daddy. No!" She yelled fighting all the way.

Billy Ray felt absolutely helpless. He knew she needed stitches, just from seeing how deep the cuts were. This wasn't her first time doing this.

By now he had already picked up his daughter and carried her downstairs. She was still fighting, and kicking. She had gone completely crazy in anger, and fear.

"Jackson!" Billy Ray exclaimed, "You need to drive me and Miles to the ER."

Without another word, as if this was more routine then it actually was, Jackson got into his Daddy's car, and started the engine.

Miley and her dad sat in back. Where Billy Ray tried to calm her down as much as possible. She was still bleeding heavily.

By the time the 5 minuet car trip was over, she had already calmed down and stopped screaming. Now she was completely out of it, just starring. She still had tears streaming her face.

Jackson and his dad rushed her into the ER, where she was taken as first priority and got stitches. It took a little less then an hour. There were 2 cuts that needed stitches and the other 2 just needed to be cleaned out, and heal on their own. Miley sat there the whole time. Silently starring at nothing. The only emotion being her tear-stricken face.

When they patched her up, they tried asking her some questions. Billy Ray left the room to go sit with Jackson in the waiting room.

"What's your name?" They asked Miley.

No answer

"Can you tell me how this happened?"

No answer

"Can you say anything?"

At this she looked up, once again crying silent tears.

"I just want to go home."

Authors note: Hey guys! Sorry that this chapter was a little bit over the top dramatic, but there are actually really good reasons why she is like this, so you will have to keep reading to see why all this is happening. She isn't just crazy lol! Anyway tell me what you think!