I was in an angsty mood so I wrote this. As usual for my gg fics, its N/B/S triangle. I love love love love that pairing and this story. Please enjoy and review.

Cry.

Nate Archibald never cries. Happy or sad, his tear ducts are sealed shut.

Of course Blair knows this. She knows everything about him.

She knows that he's secretly afraid of thunderstorms, that he never really wanted to go to college at all, that he had a secret obsession with cheap ice cream that comes in those cardboard cartons.

When Nate and Blair got married at sunset on his yacht in the French Riviera, he didn't cry. She could barely recite her vows. Her happily ever after had finally happened, and she was thrilled. The tears that ran down her face smeared her perfect makeup, and for once she didn't care. Nate repeated his vows, a careful smile on his face. His eyes darted behind her for a moment. She turned around and saw her still-best-friend Serena crying her pretty little eyes out. Her makeup wasn't smudged.

She fixed her makeup.

When Nate got the news that his dad had died from a relapse overdose, he didn't cry. He walked into his study, slammed the door shut, and talked on the phone for two hours straight. He wouldn't talk to Blair. He refused her food, her words of wisdom, her company. He didn't tell her who he was on the phone with. He wouldn't even open the door for her. So Blair called her still-best-friend, looking for help about the situation. The line was busy.

For two hours straight.

When Blair finally gave birth to a beautiful baby girl after thirteen exhausting hours of labor, he didn't cry. When they had first announced that it was a girl, his face lit up and he even teared up a bit. Blair was too tired to even move, but the look on his face told her everything that she needed to know. When the child was brought over to her, she snapped out of her exhausted haze. The baby girl wasn't the spitting image of her mother, as she expected it to be. The newborn had bright blue eyes and golden blonde hair, like her father. When her still-best-friend Serena came tumbling in, she laughed and giggled at the beautiful baby, and it hurt Blair to see so many similarities. Nate suggested they name her Serena, after she had left.

They named her Audrey.

When Nate and Blair walked into her no-longer-best-friend's funeral, he cried. He cried so hard that his whole body shook. He wasn't ashamed of the tears, in fact he didn't even try to wipe them away. He let them fall freely. And when he went up to the pulpit to talk about her, he couldn't get his words out. His voice choked on the word Serena, and he walked back down from the pulpit when he was finished with as much dignity as he could muster.

Nate Archibald did cry.

Blair just wasn't the one that he wanted to cry to.

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE REVIEW.