Axel knows now. I told him after I got the note. I hadn't cried when I first got it, but now, after reading it a million times over, crying over the tears previously splattered, and wishing the arm around me was another one, I fear I've reached my limit. I've thrown up a couple times, but nothing too serious since I haven't eaten anything for a week. I'm almost as skinny as my boyfriend. A boyfriend I'm only keeping to curb the loneliness. A boyfriend who doesn't have uniquely silver hair, isn't nearly as intelligent and witty.

I've told him that I will never love him like I love Zexion. I've told him that I'm broken, and there's no warranty. I've told him that I'm not good enough for him. But every time, he shakes his red head, and he kisses my forehead gently, and says, "I love you, and Zexion wouldn't want you to give up."

So I've stayed with Axel. I feel guilty about imaging his arms are Zexion's, but I do it anyway, the guilt not enough to banish the need.

I'm standing in front of Zexion's casket, his closed eyes powdered. They did a good job. You can't even see the red marks any more. But when my tears fall in, the make-up starts to smear horridly. I smile. "He never liked make-up anyway." And taking a look around me, I make sure no one is looking, then lean in and press a kiss to his cold, but still soft lips. "I'll be happy enough for the both of us, Zexion. I love you, and we'll be together before you know it." I smile. I know he hears me. I don't know whether he's in heaven. We both never believed in that sort of stuff... But I hope he's some where that keeps him happy until I join him. I take Axel's hand, and let the tears stream down my face, smile never failing.

I love him enough to live on.

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A/N: Kay, so Sharpies felt really bad.
I got all these reviews that were like...

"OMG, ZEX HUNG HIMSELF? WHAT ABOUT THE EPIC ZEMYX LURRVZ?"

Well... Not as epic right now as they may be, this was the best I could do.
This is just my take on people who end their lives, just because someone close to them has either ended their own, or because they feel that they have no reason to live. Suicide hurts, not just you, but your loved ones, and their loved ones and so on. Suicide is not as personal as people think. It affects everyone on a very emotional level.

So, Emotional!Rant finished, let's get some reviews, shall we?

Live strong, Live long,
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