FROM A LION'S HEART

A one-shot, featuring the thoughts of Juri since Leomon died, and the Digimons returned to their world…

Everything that's been happening to me, since Takato met Guilmon, and we become Digimon Tamers…

It's been…like a dream, really, and one I never wanted to wake up from, even though I didn't really like Digimon at first. I guess I thought, hey, if Takato can do it, so can I! And, I could. But…my awakening came on that day…when Beezlebumon did the unthinkable…and killed my Digimon, Leomon.

There, I said it. I don't usually just put things blankly like that, but I know I became an absolute ghost after that, and it took awhile for me to wake up fully.

I forgave Impmon for what he did…but the pain never goes away…

I felt the same way after my Mum died, but I couldn't put on my happy-face straight away.

Even after, when I felt okay (or, at least I felt a little bit better then I did in the Digital World) and all, I still had this hole inside of me.

And, watching everyone else walk out with their Digimons, and into the arms of their families. Takato and Guilmon, Jenrya and Terriermon and Shuichan and Lopmon. Ruki (she helped me so much after Leomon died) and Rennamon, Kazu and Gaurdramon, Kenta and Marineangemon…

And me, standing there, no Leomon and no Mum, and my Dad…

Okay, I'm sounding bitter again. In truth, I'm actually a little happier now that we're all still friends.

Kazu still picks on Kenta all the time, Ruki's got a stand-alone-complex that's SLOWLY dissolving. Jenrya's still taking care of Shuichan, and Takato's still part Digimon, probably…

But I…

I will smile. I will laugh. I will make jokes, and talk to my friends and go shopping and play the flute and everything.

But…if the other Tamers get to see their Digimons again…

Then…

Will I ever see Leomon again??

I heard a song once, that goes like this (I don't own in, though):

Living just isn't hard enough,

Burn me alive inside,

Living a lie's not hard enough,

They take everything from you,

Living just isn't hard enough,

Burn me alive inside,

Living my life's not hard enough,

Take everything away…

I still have my friends, and my Dad, and I'm still here…

But I don't have my Lion Heart anymore…and that pain can never be replaced with a smile…