Hiding
Characters: Sirius, Andromeda
Genre: Angst/Family
Rating: PG / K+
Warnings: Mention of child abuse, hint of cutting
Summary: When Andromeda is there, Sirius has nothing to scare. And when she's not…
A/N: Songfic! Like this story, also lyrics are originally Finnish. I translated them, because this text is born of them. Originally song is called "Piiloon" by Jippu, and this version is bit different than the real one. I tried to make some rhymes :D
I needed to melt away
I needed to sink out of day
In corner of big, dark room sits a boy called Sirius Black. He is barely ten years old, black haired, hugging himself and pressing himself against wall. He hears his parents' yelling from downstairs, then the voice of shattering glass. He's afraid.
In his hand, Sirius is holding a small piece of glass. It's very clear, if you don't count the ledges, which are red with blood. The same blood is trickling along boy's thin arms.
I wanted to stay with you
I wanted to stay with you
On the floor next to him is a photo of beautiful, maybe fourteen years old girl. Brown hair falls beautifully on shoulders, green eyes are sparkling. On the edge of picture is a one word, a name, written with black ink. "Meda"
Sirius whispers the name quietly.
I need to be brave enough to fall asleep
I need to be able to feel
Some how without you
The life at home could be a hell. They've beaten him, shouted at him, he's never good enough. But Meda kept him safe, Meda cared. When she was with him, no one could hurt him.
But when she's gone…
You help me hiding, you're the one who cares
He remembers how Meda built a cottage of chairs and blankets for them. There they were safe from the world.
Together. Hiding.
You shield me with your arms from my nightmares
Meda held him on her lap, hugging him. So he could safely fall asleep.
"Nothing to scare of, Siri."
Wrote on my back you'll always love me
Meda's fingers stroked Sirius' hair and arms, writing the messages with a secret code, so only they could understand.
Even though my sanity is nowhere to see
Meda let him cry. And she never stopped telling over and over again everything would be fine.
I needed to melt away
I needed to sink out of day
But now the cottage is destroyed. Meda is gone. But Sirius is still hiding. Hiding, in the shadows, hoping no one will ever find him there.
I wanted to stay with you
I wanted to stay with you
"Do you
really have to go?" Sirius whispered, holding Meda's arm tightly.
She gave a little smile.
"Summer is over. I need to go back to
school."
"Why can't I come with you?"
You know I'm afraid of dark, hollow
You know I fear for being alone
"You can't leave me alone", Sirius cried.
"I don't want to be alone."
Meda hugged him. "Just remember; don't be afraid of dark. I'll be here, even if I'm away."
I wanted to breathe you
I wanted to breathe you
Meda never tells lies. Sirius believes her. She isn't all gone, she's here. Laughing, embracing, and whispering to Sirius' ear. Telling there's nothing to scare, and everything will be better tomorrow.
You help me hiding, you're the one who cares
You shield me with your arms from my nightmares
Wrote on my back you'll always love me
Even though my sanity is nowhere to see
-Stargazer
A/N: Hopefully it made sense… I love to write about Sirius and Meda! Review!