I'm working on getting Bella and Edward together but I think that would just be too easy I mean I was disappointed to a point in Breaking Dawn that it was so predictable I mean I don't like Jacob much but Steph should of been more original Bella and Edward? how about Jacob and Bella? Or Bella alone?

"And they all live happily ever after" I mean thats not what Twilights about somone should of died there should of been a fight and there should of been a bit of Originality in it...

I do not own Twilight and I never will..

The murmuring quite I heard them all get up lead by Edward bee lining it for my room.

I didn't need this stress right now. I opened the window and with the grace I'd grown to enjoy sprang lightly to the ground. The ground pounding under my bare feet was exuberating forcing me to recall how often I'd nearly passed out while riding on Edward's back.

I nearly tripped when I realized how easy it was to think his name now. Usually back in Italy I would start hyperventilating when I said his name, thought it even. I found the place I was looking for. I sprang lightly passed the boundary and onto the reservation.

Instinct told me I was being followed but I honestly didn't care, moments like these when it was just me, myself, and I; I found it easier to be less judgmental. She never showed up at moments like this the cold harsh wind ripping against my face made me feel alive again.

I felt like a kid when Renee used to chase me around the park giggling as I tripped and she caught me, I used to wonder why Edward thought it so bad to live forever. I understood now, in my naive human years I thought it to be stupid but now it seemed fitting. I'd always imagined how it would be, being strong and graceful and beautiful now those all seemed petty.

You may be the most beautiful person in the world but without happiness your not truly beautiful. Without the smiles to lite up your features you seem lifeless. I have yet to forgive myself, I don't blame Edward it was not his fault he deserved a choice. When I was a human, when I was this weak little creature barely hanging on, I was happier then I'd ever been. When I had to have someone save me constantly when was I was the happiest. Even now, when I can stand up for myself I can kill you with a flick of my wrist, it all seems pointless. To know no one will ever be able to catch me if I fell or ever get a chance to actually feel something other than thirst is heartbreaking.

Some days I wish for it. Some days I regret it, but those days don't happen much. I don't enjoy being a vampire I hate it I would rather die then have this fate on me, but I don't kill myself (I could if I wanted to) I don't because of my children. I can't be selfish enough to leave them here alone I'm their only parent.

I sat down on the edge of a cliff letting the salt air coming from the crashing waves below me blow against my face.

Someone sat down next to me the air was thick with his scent I hated to think of how much influence he actually had over me if he tried. Because I hated being weak I hated knowing that if he said the word I'd let him back.

"Bella talk to me please" He begged I resisted the urge to touch him in comfort years of caring for my children told me to grab hold of him.

I glanced at him his expression was pained my hand itched wanting to comfort him but I couldn't he caused me so much pain he deserved a little right?

I raised my hand to the light of the moon, "You're sad. Why?"

He did something I hadn't expected taking hold of my raised hand he brought it to his lips with such casualness you'd think we'd be dating again.

When he spoke his lips moved against the top of my hand, "You're not the same person you were when you left are you?" He asked opening my palm in his hand.

"No." The answer was simple and true I wasn't little naive Bella anymore.

He held my arm to look over it examining every little indention there before sliding his finger down them.

"Did you do this to yourself?" He asked it was a soft question most people demand very rudely really.

I looked at him he was staring at my face, "Yes."

He stood up dragging me with him; He had a look on his face, one that almost made me cringe away.

He looked back at me eyes bright with excitement, "Jump with me."

I stared at him not contemplating what he was saying; he smiled brightly pulling me closer to the edge.

"I'll make you trust me again. I'll show you Bella" Then our feet left the ground.

Now I'm confused.

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