A/N: My brother has given me a challenge to make this story have at least 40'000 words, so sorry if the chapters are too long but I thought well I might as well upload this to fan fiction to see what the reviews are like (

So Here is the first chapter to the sequel of 'until the very end'. But this is from a different pairings point of view. But let me make this clear, in this fiction Owen is Not Dead!! I will ignore any reviews which say 'He could not feel that because he is dead' Because he's not. In Until the Very End he was, But he isn't now. I know, it doesnt make any sense but please read (

Chapter One.

"You know what, Tosh?"

"No, I don't? What?"

"I really do love you, and I promise that,"

Toshiko Sato and Owen Harper were curled up on their sofa in their large flat. The sofa was placed in the middle of the living room with the TV in front of it up against a wall. Behind the living room was the kitchen, and down the hallway was the only bedroom and bathroom. Owen had his arm around Toshiko and her head was on his chest, listening to his heart beat. He had an empty bottle of beer in his hand; she had an empty wine glass. Neither of them wanted to move; as they were too comfortable as they were. An uneaten pizza was sitting on the table while a film was playing to itself in the background.

It had been a year since Ianto was infected by the Weevil Gas; hence a year since Owen had released his feelings for Toshiko. So they were celebrating their one year anniversary by having the night off work, thanks to Jack, and having a lazy night in.

Toshiko let out a long yawn and stood up to put her empty glass and Owen's beer bottle on the table next to the pizza, before sitting back down on Owens lap, her arms wrapped round his body, and his arms wrapped round hers. Toshiko had such a light and perfect body that Owen did not mind one bit having her sat on his lap.

"You know, before I started going out with you. I thought I would get married to a computer at the rate I was going," Toshiko confessed as Owen chuckled slightly and pulled her closer, "Before you, I had only had one boyfriend,"

"One Boyfriend? A gorgeous looking girl like you only had one boyfriend?" Owen remarked, whilst brushing the hair out of her face, "I'm not going to believe that,"

Toshiko blushed slightly, she wasn't as conscious about her looks like she was before; she didn't believe she was stunning, but she was confident. Ever since she started going out with Owen; who would comment on apparently how 'gorgeous' she was at every chance he had.

"Well, you should," she stated whilst standing up abruptly causing Owen to jump in surprise. She started to walk around the back of the sofa, behind Owen, as he wondered what his girlfriend was up to. She knelt behind him, slowly, massaging his shoulders, manipulating him, knowing he loved it when she did it. He leant his head right back over the sofa so he could see her upside down.

"You still look beautiful upside down," He said matter-of-factly.

She knelt up higher so she could lean over his face to kiss his lips upside down, in a kind of Spiderman style. Their tongues were twisting awkwardly, so she ended the kiss quickly, leaving Owen literally moaning for more.

"Ooo Tosh! Where the hell do you think you're going?" He questioned friendly as he sat upright and twisted in his seat, so he could see where she was heading.

"The bedroom, are you coming?" She said, with a very kinky twist in her voice.

Owen stood up quickly ran over to Tosh and picked her up by wrapping his arms around her flat stomach. He ran into the bedroom, with Toshiko giggling and begging him all the way, and threw them both onto the bed. Him landing on top of her fragile body. He rolled them over so she was on top of him.

"Fucking hell, I fucking love you Toshiko fucking Sato," Owen said, stroking her cheeks.

"Charming," She answered,

"Well, it's the fucking truth," He said, revealing his teeth in a beaming grin

"It should be!" She said, kissing his nose, "Oh and by the way," He raised an eyebrow at her comment, "I'm in love with this man, his name is Owen Harper," She said cheekily whilst pulling them both into a tender and gentle kiss. Owen pulled back and said, "I've heard, from rumours, that this Owen Harper loves you too," Toshiko started to undo the buttons of Owen's shirt. They had a long night ahead of them.

Toshiko awoke from her dream suddenly, tears streaming down her face, for dreaming of the good times, the times where she was everywhere with Doctor Owen Harper.

They went together everywhere, after Owen had seen sense and kissed Toshiko. At work, Toshiko worked on the new computers in the autopsy room, just so Owen didn't have to get distracted by her being so far away. They shared each others lockers, Ianto sat in the front seat of the SUV with Jack, and so Owen and Gwen could sit together in the back. With Gwen of course. Whenever Owen and Toshiko's eyes met they each gave each other a beaming smile.

But now he had gone, he had left her 4 nights ago and left a note on the fridge door for her to find in the morning. Forgetting that they would still have to see each other everyday at work. Toshiko doubted they would argue, not any worse than they did before they got together. Just the normal bicker. Toshiko tried to act as though she wasn't really bothered, but on the inside she was, she was dying on the inside. She had gone to work the next morning and Owen didn't even make eye contact with her. Jack wasn't there so Toshiko went to Gwen, who had also had her heartbroken by Owen. Once Toshiko started explaining about Owen, she couldn't stop. She started breaking down into tears, so bad that Gwen listened, and listened to everything, and rubbed her back to calm her down, and once Toshiko had stopped Gwen sent her home. No questions asked. She wanted Toshiko to feel confident, and happy and there was no way she was going to feel that when Owen could be round every corner, making sarcastic comments about any situation.

There were so many questions Toshiko wanted to ask Owen, but she was scared, for the same reasons Gwen sent Toshiko home.

She thought they were perfect, she thought they would stay together forever, but he had just left her without any reason. Owen had made Toshiko the happiest girl in the world; he had now made her feel like trash.

She was lying on her recliner armchair in the living room. The same living room Toshiko was dreaming about. The television was on, playing late night TV as per usual, and a half-eaten pizza was upside down on the floor next to the arm chair, having obviously fallen off the arm of the chair once Toshiko had fallen asleep,

"Shit!" She leaned over the arm of the chair and noticed the meat feast pizza splattered all over her carpet and up the wall, she rubbed her eyes and pushed her hair back before closing the recliner of the chair and standing up to clean the floor, "Bollocks, Bollocks, Bollocks" She said casually with a large yawn as she stretched her arms out.

She walked into the kitchen to find some sort of cleaning detergent and ended up stubbing her toe twice and banging her head on a kitchen cabinet door.

"Bollocks! I bloody give up with this!" She leaned against the corner of the kitchen and slid down the wall and broke down in tears. She stayed like that for what feels like hours until there was a knock on the door.

"Tosh? Toshiko?!" She heard Jack Harkness banging at her flat door and ringing the bell.

"Tosh? Open up!" This time Toshiko heard the welsh vowels of Ianto Jones.

Toshiko forced her self up and dragged her feet across the flat's floor and opened the door to see two men standing there. One grinning stupidly with a military coat on, gripping the hand of a shyer man wearing a suit and tie, like always. Toshiko felt a surge of jealousy run through her as she saw Ianto and Jacks fingers interlaced, but she soon felt guilty. They were happy, and Ianto was more confident that he had ever been, and Jack had found his true love through space and time.

"Jack, Ianto, come in," Toshiko moved away from the opening of the door to allow Jack and Ianto to come in. They walked in and took a good look around her flat,

"Nice, very..."

"Elegant, sophisticated…" Ianto finished Jack sentence off.

"Exactly,"

"Thank you," Toshiko said, blushing slightly, "sit down,"

"Don't mind If I do," Jack said whilst him and Ianto leaned back to sit down on the sofa, Jack putting his arm round Ianto so they were comfortable. Ianto snuggled into Jack slightly. They look so cute together, Toshiko thought.

"Would you like a drink?"

"Tosh."

"Mm?" She nodded, knowing where this conversation was going.

"How are you?" Jack asked. Tosh knew what he meant.

"I'm…I'm fine thank you, How are you two?" Toshiko tried to change the subject; she knew that Jack wanted to talk about Owen. But why he wanted to, she did not know. Ianto began to answer Toshiko, not wanting her to feel uncomfortable or awkward, but Jack cut across him.

"Tosh,"

"Mmm?" She seemed to be distracted by her surprisingly interesting thumbs which were twiddling in an odd fashion.

"You know what I mean, you haven't been to work since Tuesday, and tonight is Friday. Anything you want to talk about? Anything Umm…to do with Owen?" Jack looked at Ianto nervously and looked for support. Ianto took a deep breath,

"I know it hurts, Tosh, to have you're person you love, leave you," Ianto added, "Jack left me, hmm…remember?" He squeezed Jacks hand which was draped over his shoulder with his opposite hand.

"But I came running back to you!" Jack chuckled to himself, whilst Ianto felt awkward with Jack stating this comment, and Toshiko wiped a single tear which was silently trickling down her cheek.

"It does hurt. A lot. But I mean, it's not as if I will never see Owen…or ever talk…or…" Toshiko broke down in tears and covered her face with her hands. Jack rushed over to comfort Toshiko whilst Ianto went into the kitchen to get a coffee for Toshiko.

"It's perfectly okay to cry, Toshiko…"

"That is all I have done over the last four days, Jack! Look at my eyes!" Toshiko placed both of her hands on each side of Jack's face and forced him to look at her, "I have not slept or eaten properly in days! I have no tears left to cry! But they keep coming, they run down my cheeks like there is no tomorrow, Jack! And that's what it feels like. It feels like...to-to-today is my last…" Toshiko threw her body into Jacks and he embraced her with full comfort as she cried into his shoulder.

Ianto walked into the room and saw Toshiko crying her soul in to the Captain. He caught Jacks eye and saw the worried look that was painted on his face.

"Toshiko? I have made you a coffee. Decaf, it's you're favourite right?"

"Th-th-thank you Ianto," She nodded gratefully and took the coffee as sipped it refreshingly, "Thanks, it's lovely," She told Ianto, appreciatively.

"Come on now, Toshiko. Come and sit on the sofa between me and Ianto, tell us everything," Toshiko nodded and accepted Jacks hand who pulled her up and out of the chair she was sitting in. She took a seat next to Ianto, he placed a friendly hand on her knee, removed it and took her coffee from her hand and placed it on the table in front. Jack sat on her other side and gripped her hand, urging her to tell her secrets.

"Tell us what you feel," Toshiko looked up into the eyes of Captain Jack Harkness. They were full of trust and comfort. She looked round and up into the eyes of Ianto Jones. They were full of loss, and yet still full of love. Ianto looked away quickly, knowing his eyes were being read. Toshiko looked away in apology, and looked back at Jack

"I loved him Jack; I really, truly loved him. He was my one and only…well, I thought so, he obviously didn't," She said the last few lines with utter bitterness in her voice. "But Tuesday morning I woke up and he wasn't there. I thought he must have gone to the toilet or something, so I went into the kitchen and that's when I saw the note, Jack…And you know what it said?"

"Tell me Toshiko,"

"I thought I loved you…"

Toshiko broke down in tears and felt two pairs of arms wrap around her. She was sure that Ianto and Jack were exchanging worried looks behind her back, but she didn't care, she was grateful that even if she didn't have the love of her life in her arms, she had her best friends arms wrapped round her, that's all she needed. She tried to convince herself this anyway.

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