Disclaimer: Seriously, you all know I don't own this, right? Right.

Warnings: Yaoi, rape, lemons, mpreg

Chapter 1: Lonely, Lost, Lacking

He had the purest of gold hair, matching with an angel's face – perfect lips, wide blue eyes; perpetually innocent. The new member was smaller than Demyx, cuter than Demyx, and Axel noticed. He immediately gravitated to the scared nobody, a comforting hand for a lonely boy to hold onto.

"You okay, buddy?" Axel said, concerned as he crouched next to the new member. His pretty cheeks were flushed and tearstained, mouth pouting adorably as he shook his head. For the first time in his memory, Axel swooned under the attention of this boy. He placed a hand on the younger's shoulder. "Do you wanna tell me what's wrong?"

Another shake of that perfect head. Axel conceded, sitting against the wall and waiting in silence. In a sputter of sobbing, the boy spoke.

"Where am I?" He asked sadly. His voice was perfect, too, childish and so soft.

"This is Castle Oblivion. We're in the World That Never Was." Axel cringed – it wasn't the most reassuring name for a place.

"I want to go home!" He whined pathetically, a few tears leaking from bright blue eyes. Axel patted his shoulder softly.

"Where is home, kid?"

"I d-don't remember!" The boy sobbed, frustrated. Axel boldly grabbed his hand. The younger looked up immediately at the redhead, shocked.

"I'm Axel," he said, never letting his eyes leave the boy's. "I'll take care of you here. I'm your friend, got it memorized?"

The boy nodded. "I'm…Roxas…" he said, testing the new name out. Axel mentally gasped, he recognized that anagram.

"Roxas." Axel repeated. He loved it. "Well, Roxas, what do you say we go meet the other members? They're waiting to see you."

"Okay. I've already met…Xemnas, was it?" He pondered.

"Yeah, our Superior. He gave you your name, didn't he?"

"He did…he said another name before that, though, but…I don't remember. He said it didn't matter anymore."

They walked the rest of the way to the meeting room in silence, Axel looking down often at the little blonde still clutching his hand fearfully. He squeezed reassuringly as he opened the door.

Axel proudly paraded Roxas in, enjoying the curious and, in Demyx's case, envious stares.

"Roxas!" Axel announced loudly. The congregation went into an uproar.

"Too young, by far!" Came one call.

"But he's so tiny, Xemnas!" Cried another, "How d'you expect him to fight?"

Xemnas raised his hand, demanding silence. His deep voice was quiet, but commanding.

"Roxas will be a fine member. He is stronger than you take him for, all of you. Just you wait."

The members' tune changed immediately with Xemnas's decree.

"Roxas, huh?" Came an eager voice matched with a magnificent head of pink hair. "I'm Marluxia."

"Nice to meet you, Marluxia," Roxas said politely.

"Nice to meet you, too! He's cute, Xemnas. I like him!"

Roxas met all the members, and was fondest of Marluxia and Axel. He told Axel in confidence that Saïx and Xigbar frightened him, at which Axel laughed loudly.

Roxas didn't have a room yet; Naminé had yet to draw it, so Axel just took him back to his. The walls were the same pristine white as the rest of the castle, luminescent under the bright light of Kingdom Hearts. Most everything else, he noticed, was black. Sheets, pillows, nightstands, lamps, everything was black. A small fire extinguisher lay used next to the closet.

"Do you have many fires here?" Roxas asked.

"Nah, that's kinda just a…just a me thing." Axel replied, running a hand through the back of his hair.

"You cause fires?" He was worried, started to back himself against the door.

"C'mere, kid. Hold out your hand." Axel said softly, luring Roxas back over. He held his hand out as was expected, and Axel lit a blossom of flames in his palm. The boy initially screamed, dropping his hand, but Axel put it back in place, holding it steady. "Trust me."

The flames licked his fingers, but the burning never came and Roxas smiled to see himself controlling something so dangerous. The redhead watched him with gentle green eyes, tipping his hands to catch the flames and toss them back into the boy's.

"How do you do that?" The blonde said, still grinning broadly. He was but a child after all, Axel reminded himself. Just 14, and such a little thing at that. Look but don't touch, look but you can't touch.

"We here all have certain…elements that we control. Mine is fire."

"What about the rest of them?" He demanded.

"Well…hmm…let's think. Um, Xemnas doesn't really have an element per say, but he has these crazy powerful lasers he uses. Xigbar, he's number two, you're gonna have to remember this someday, he controls gravity and he has this amazing gun. Xaldin, I'm going in order here, he controls wind. Has these spears, don't make him mad. Vexen…damn…creepy guy, really. Don't like him much, and he can freeze you solid in seconds! Lexaeus, the big strong guy? Controls earth, rocks and all that stuff. Zexion, he has that pretty blue-grey hair, remember? He can sense things, like where people are, and he can duplicate himself as well as turn into others. Saïx…how do we explain this…he's just crazy. Stay away from him at all costs. Eight is me, and you know what I do. Nine…Demy. That'll be Demyx to you, you can be sure. He plays the most wonderful music, and he can do a lot with water. Lack of confidence, but he tries, poor kid. Luxord controls time, Marluxia controls plants, I keep telling him the pink hair is a little much, but 'it matches his scythe' so whatever. Larxene…scary girl. Electricity is her thing, and she gets angry easily. Marluxia's best friend, she is. You get in with him and you're probably in with her. Then…there's you."

"And what do I do?" Roxas asked, brain still trying to remember all the members that Axel listed in such quick succession.

"Dunno," Axel said, flopping down on his bed. He stared at the ceiling, avoiding Roxas's blue eyes. He knew what he'd probably do, and that was why Xemnas prized him so highly. Roxas cautiously lay down next to him, sharing the pillow as he too looked upward.

Axel looked over as the boy closed his eyes. Green eyes looked over the tiny body, the perfectly flat stomach, the thin arms, the soft hands. Look but don't touch, Axel. He's scared enough without you groping him, now isn't he? Demyx would have been another matter entirely. When that boy needed comforted, he wanted your hands all over him. Maybe…maybe Roxas needed something like that, too. He ran a gentle hand over Roxas's shoulder, and the boy broke down in tears. Not was he was expecting, but he could work with it. He pulled the boy into his arms, tucking Roxas's head neatly into the crook of his neck. He moved closer to Axel, who rested his head on top of his blonde hair. Warm hands massaged his back as his mouth moved closer to a small ear.

"It'll be okay, kid. You'll be alright." It was easy to say, but would not be easily true. A boy his age and size would need protected from the horrors of their world, and Axel was only too willing to play the knight this round. So Axel watched his charge sleep, a prince among peasants in this castle, blissfully unknowing and innocent. There was a knock on the door, and Axel softly laid Roxas's head on the pillow as he answered it.

"I wish to see Roxas in my rooms tonight." Xemnas commanded, and then exited. There was no denying a direct order from the Superior.

Let the initiation begin.

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