I don't know what to do

I don't know what to do. I am just so frustrated I mean everything is making me angry. What happened to Will, what happened to Josh, these circumstances where I can do nothing to help only make me even angrier. It's not fair. I lost Elyon my best friend. She went everywhere with me and now I feel like I am loosing the gang.

Irma doesn't even argue with me anymore, I have no clue how to help Will, Hay Lin is just lost right now, and Taranee seems so distant. I don't understand why I can't do anything to help the ones that I love. I don't know what to do.

Should I sit here and let Will and Irma work things out, and let them get closer and become even more distant or should I butt my head in and risk loosing it all. I mean it feels like they don't want me.

This feeling carries on at home. Mom is to busy with work, Dad too. Lillian can't be bothered to care less about me and Caleb broke up with me about a week ago.

I feel like I need a cliff notes of the last month because I am so far in over my head that I can't even move because of the pressure, or lack of. I was absent from school yesterday and no one noticed. I mean I am trying so hard to keep what little ties that I have after loosing my best friend and now I am loosing everything else. Nothing is mine. No I don't have anything.

How cay I have anything. My family that could care less, my friends that don't even notice when I am gone. I used to be the center of attention the center of the world and now I feel like Pluto after it was told it wasn't a planet anymore.

Ever since Jake died everything has just been so hard with everyone and I don't want to die but I don't know what to do. I mean I can get over the fact that no one notices me I am not that shallow and self centered no one notices me at home, but Elyon needs to come home. Just for a day I would do anything to have her just for a day to talk to. Just to see that she is alright. I keep having nightmares and all guardian duty has been put off for the past week and it is so hard that I don't know what to do.

Well I didn't know what to do. But my family is off on a trip with Lil and I am home alone and I think that I am going to sneak to Meridian and see Elyon. I want to know that she is ok I really don't care what happens to me.

It's three am now and I am sneaking though I don't know why to the alley behind my apartment. There it is! The swirling blue portal to Elyon. The bridge to the one person who makes everything ok again as all best friends do.

Elyon's pov

I feel worse now than I have felt in months. Seriously who becomes a princess only to get sick. Cedric has been bringing me Advil from earth and other things to make me feel better but I can't breath and I have a high fever. I thought that I was getting better for a short period of time when I stopped eating but then my brother began to feed me and I got worse again.

I sometimes wonder if Cornelia was right about him but I haven't been able to speak with her in ages. I would give almost anything to go back to her. She would always sneak over to my house to be with me when I was sick and we would watch cartoons.

I'm stuck in my room with my queen sized bed and the curtains down so that the room feels dark, hot, and horrible. Well it felt that way but then a breeze wafts in. I didn't leave the window open and when I lift my stiff neck I see none other than the blonde idol herself. My best friend Cornelia. She always has had insane timing. Trust her to show up when I am sick.

"Elyon!"

She is putting an ice cold hand on my head and it feels so good. Now she is sitting next to me brushing my bangs out of my face whispering that it will be alright. I think that I might have to high of a fever because there is no way that she was able to make it past all the guards. This has to be an illusion.

"Elyon you need to come back to earth if only for treatment. I can take better care of you at my house than can be taken care of you here. Trust me. I wont force you to leave without your permission. I won't force you to stay on earth. Just listen to me though. If you stay here you will die."

"Cornelia."

I miss her. If this really is her I want her to take me home for a little while. I can't leave this world for long but I feel terrible and I want to go with her just for a little while. I miss her and it is true that if I go with her I stand a higher chance of living.

I try to nod and squeeze the hand that she is holding and she lifts me up with ease. When did she get so strong? When did she get so strong? She is carrying me through Meridian sticking to the shadows so no one notices us. When she reaches a portal she slips through and we are in her apartment before I can blink. She has me on a couch with a Gatorade in my hands and a blanket over me. It feels nice to be here. When I get better maybe we can talk about what has been going on but as of right no I don't know if I can handle anything.

Taranee's pov

I think that after everything that has happened the troubles are beginning to slow down . Something is telling me that things are going to begin to get a lot simpler. I don't know if I can fix everything but I think I can handle Hay Lin. That is where I am going right now. To tutor her in science.

She is the one that has lost herself in the fear that she will loss every one. She doesn't cope well with loss and everything that has happened to her is getting to be to hard on her. I think that If I don't step in here she may loose herself.

This chapter is all about how the girls are dealing and helping one another and where they are helping one another. IT should forshadow a couple of things. ANYWAY

What is wrong with Elyon?

1.Is she sick?

2.Has her brother been poisoning her?

3.Is it cancer?

Who knows. Maybe you should vote?

What's going to happen bewteen Will and Irma?

Is Elyon going to respond to Cornelia positively?

Next chapter Matt will finally come in to play...teehee...teehee...secretly i don't want Will to be with matt...teehee...wonder what will happen.