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Chapter 8

I didn't wake up until the next morning which was surprising to me. Gohan was lying next to me, arm limply around my waist. I wiggled out of his warm embrace and headed towards the shower. Today was the morning that Goten was leaving. I don't know what excuse he came up with to let Chi-Chi know that he had a good reason for leaving a week earlier but it most have been amazing.

I was out and dressed by the time Gohan had woken up. He mumbled a good morning and proceeded to get in the shower as well. Things weren't as tense as yesterday and I figured that he had gotten over it. I hoped that he had gotten over it.

"Hey Gohan, do you know what time Goten is supposed to leave this morning? I wanted to say a quick goodbye." I yelled over the running water as I combed out my hair in the bathroom mirror.

"He said that he was leaving around 9:30 to head off down there since you know, we live in the middle of nowhere." I laughed weakly at his attempt at a joke.

I moved my charm bracelet aside so I could look at my watch. 9:20. Crap. I raced out the bathroom, out of my room, down the stairs and flung open the front door. I arrived just in time to see the taxi pull away from the house. My shoulders fell and I heard loud sobs coming from the house next door.

I walked over to Chi-Chi, feeling the tears prick the back of my eyes. I had never even gotten to say goodbye a final goodbye.

As soon as she saw me she engulfed me in a hug, weeping into my shoulder, causing the sleeve to dampen.

"It's okay." I cooed to her. "He'll be back. He's not dead." I felt a tear slip. I was trying to convince myself more than her.

"Videl," She said after calming down, "He wanted me to give you this." She took a letter out of her apron pocket and handed to me.

I looked at it for what seemed like hours, looking at my name that he had so finely written on the front. Was it safe for him to write me?

"Are you gonna read it aloud?" Chi-Chi asked excitedly. I started to panic for a second.

"I would but I better go tell Gohan we just missed Goten." I said, telling her a lame excuse. I almost sighed with relief as she nodded her head as if I were dismissed. It probably didn't matter that much now, but she would prod me later to tell her what the letter said I was sure.

I stuffed the letter into my pocket and walked over to my house and into the front door. I was planning on making it through the house to the back door as soon as I could but Gohan had different plans as he came down the stairs as soon as I rushed by.

"Did Goten leave?" he asked, eyebrow arched.

"Yeah right before I got to him." I said tugging on the sliding door that led to the yard.

"Aww man." He said, seemingly disappointed. I shrugged and told him I was going to check on my garden.

As soon as I had cleared the door and made sure the coast was clear I ripped the letter from my pocket opening it quickly and reading the contents.

Dear Videl,

I know we won't get to say goodbye to each other before I leave tomorrow morning but I think it's somewhat better that way. Please don't be sad too much or dwell on me being gone, I'll be back when I feel like the time is right. I just want to let you know that I don't feel regret for anything. I know how pitiless and selfish it sounds but I am glad that we did what we did. I know there's no hope for us. I will always love you know matter what though. I don't want to ruin things between you and your family. Tell Pan I'm sorry again.

Love always,

Goten

P.S. I bought a present for you. Go to the exact tree in the forest where you followed me to that night.

A soft stream of tears was flowing down my face. Did I really love Goten as much as he had claimed to love me? I turned around and started to walk towards the woods, moving away sticks and small plants that were getting in the way. I small beam of light landed on the tree and under it I saw a tiny shimmer of silver. I walked over bending down and picking it up.

It was a small present wrapped and I undid the ties as if they were the most precious kind of material. A small jewelry box came into view. When I opened it I saw the most precious charm I had ever laid eyes on. The charm was in the shape of a crescent moon. I couldn't help but gasp at it. It was gorgeous with its diamond and silver that decorated it. The suns rays hit it, casting almost tiny rainbows. I was crying harder now and I sob ignited from me. I leaned on the tree, sliding to my knees and resting my head on the trunk.

How could I let Goten get this deep? I could I let myself get this deep? I didn't love Goten nearly as much as it seemed he loved me. Don't get me wrong, I loved Goten but I in love with Gohan. Goten would always be special to me. I guess that's why I was trying to fasten the charm on the bracelet through blurry eyes. I couldn't let him go just like that. I still wanted him in my life. My own thoughts were confusing my brain and making my head hurt. Why couldn't I just make up my mind?

I yearned for Goten's touch and that's when it happened. I realized that I wanted his touch more than anything. The good Videl was leaving at that point in time and I that I am now was taking over.

I had to keep repeating to myself that I love…lust Goten but I'm in love with Gohan.

Everything was a mess and I could feel myself slipping.

They both completed me and I was gonna have both of them if it took everything in me. I was a changed person from that point on.

A/N: Aww this story is over, our at least this part. I am writing the second part as a sequel and a whole new story. I already have the title and everything. It's kinda stupid but it's… And Deceitis Another Word Videl. (I'll Change it if I come up with something better,)

So yeah that won't be out for a little while maybe I warn you now. I tried to not leave it off at that big of a cliffhanger so you wouldn't be jumping out your pants.

Thanks for all the reviews and sticking with me through everything (you know not updating for a month and stuff) I love you all :) I got more reviews I ever expected to get and these were all good, unlike some from my other stories.

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