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Chapter 1 - Sasuke's Thoughts
-Sasuke P.O.V-
I lay there completely exhausted, not to mention unconscious. I was finally alone, relieved that I've got the chance to unscramble my unsatisfied thoughts. Although I was unaware of my surroundings, before I passed out, I summoned the last of my still-regaining strength to escape the watchful eyes of my annoying comrades in my group Snake. I'd made 100 percent sure that nobody could find me, at least not for another day or two.
So I dream for - who knows how long - about my thoughts.
"Orochimaru, being extremely stupid for granting me the power I've always craved for, then expecting that I'd hand over my body to him as a tool, finally dead.. And Itachi, that unmerciful bastard.. I've finally achieved two of my goals: gaining superb power and avenged my deceased clan. Yet, I lay here unsatisfied. With Orochimaru and Itachi off my damn trail, what can i do with my pitiful life. 'What are you gonna do after you kill Itachi?' - I've faced that question so many times before but I've never really thought of it. Now, I'm here asking the queer question I've avoided so long to myself. Tch, who am I kidding? I already know my own answer. My life will be spent running away from the Konoha shinobi, Team Seven.. Wow, I almost chose the path of living merrily with Team Seven but knowing my dangerous elder brother is out there, I don't know what he'll do if he gets his fucking hands on my friends. Just knowing that his existence is still present in this corrupt world changed my mind entirely, allowing me to choose the path of murderous revenge. And, I know I can't just go home after suddenly ditching it and prevented myself from coming back for so long. Even as I stayed away for almost three years, they still are willing to take me back. But with everything I've done to harm them, it'll be impossible for me to return and face their hospitality. However, I'm a bit relieved that I'm able to see their mature faces every once and a while. I can't even believe that I had second thoughts on spending my life with my former Team. To see Naruto.. Naruto Uzumaki with his reckless actions, noninnocent smile and pig-like manners. His idioticness of a rival, he's just like a little brother.. Then there's Kakashi, a laid-back, lazy and lame sensei.. Always tardy on his own will and not bothering to ever be serious while training; reading his Paradise Romance book. And Sakura.. Sakura? Sakura Haruno, a stubborn, scared and willing-to-do-anything-for-me girl. At least she proved the last part. Even as I pushed her away harshly and told her off all the time she confessed her undying feelings for me, Sakura offered her life to me. She was really willing to throw away her happy life to stay by my side, even is she knows she'll be treated like a rat. She knew perfectly well that she might get heavily injured or even face death yet she'd risk it anyways. Hearing that enlightened me for a moment, and on that day she offered her life, I couldn't help but thank her. I was positive that she was gonna get harmed if I did involve her into my dangerous adventures. So, I had to painfully depart her, growing farther and farther away from her as possible so she won't fall into the dark shadow of regrets as I did. I can't just let her face the same fate as me one day. Nor can I forget the only person who'd truly do anything to stay by my side, worrying if I was alive or not. I'd really like to see her cheerful smile instead of that angry, worried, sorrow expression I always experience when we meet.. If only.. If only I can return to the village.."
My mind went blank for a long moment, searching for a faint hint that causes me to remain miserably unsatisfied after successfully completing my life-worthy goals. I grew irritated, not finding the good reason until the reason approached me, striking me hard, making me realize my problem.
Flashback Moment. - Referring to Episode 4 in the Naruto anime series.
I sat calmly at the first meeting of Team Seven. The day where we first got assembled into the team, having Kakashi-sensei as our team leaser. He asked us to introduce ourselves, barely giving out information about himself. I saw my 12-year old self; it was my turn to talk about myself.
"My name's Uchiha Sasuke.There are many things I hate, and there aren't a lot of things I like. Also, I have an ambition that I have no intention to leave as just a dream... The revival of my clan, and to kill.. a certain man."
Flashback End
It ended, leaving my mind plainly shocked yet I finally understood my feelings.
"The revival of my clan eh? That goal was repeated many times but I haven't really put any thought in it. I've no idea how I'll do that.. So one more major goal still haunts me.. I clearly stated that I'll achieve that goal, to prove to my brother how stronger I seriously am, but it's impossible. I know that I've got to.. Yeah but I can't ever fucking find myself with Karin.. Oh hell.. Nor with Ino. No other girl. Sakura?.. She's been helping be through my goals ever since. The thought of her getting harmed by anyone again kept me from giving up. The hardships I went through so I wouldn't ever forget her ever-showing emotions built up my power. When I think about her, I feel like coming back home so I could hear her now mature voice say my name countless times but in reality I get left with the piercing feeling of regret. I don't think that only thinking of her will help me succeed in this goal. Since I know I can't achieve it... I wish to restore my clan with only Sakura Haruno's person.. Naruto, this is my dream but no matter how hard I work, I'm afraid this one won't come true.. Yet, I can't help but wonder what an interesting dream this is.."
"I find it a little cheeky for you Sasuke."
Hearing the familiar voice heard dangerously close, probably beside me and ignoring my physical pain, I shot my eyes open, hoping it was hallucinating dream.
Sasuke: I'm so effing OOC in this fanfic..
Me: I know that this WAS your actual thoughts; I just, tweaked it a bit..
Sakura: Shut up Sasuke! The next chapter's bout to begin!
Sasuke: Hn..
Me: Oh my goodness.. Lovestruck Konoha shinobi's these days..