He Was Hers and She Was His

A/N: This was gonna be a LEJP but DMHG worked as well but I couldn't write that one right so it's back to a LEJP! So here it goes!

"I think I know why you won't go out with me," James said.

"Do enlighten me," Lily said but James missed the sarcasm.

"Well you've spent you six years hating me thus creating your ego and I've spent three years trying to get you to go out with me and that's my ego so you're afraid to go out with me 'cause you'll lose your ego and mine'll get bigger. So that's why you won't go out with me," James finished proudly.

Lily stared blankly at him before turning back to her Charms assignment, knowing that he had hit the nail on the head but she wouldn't give him the satisfaction of knowing that she liked him-a lot-but was afraid of losing her ego just to be with him. Afraid of becoming just another face in a sea of people. Afraid of being tossed away like an old bit of parchment. Afraid…Afraid of everything.

"You know you can create a new ego. One that doesn't involve hating me," James said quietly knowing what Lily was thinking.

"That's just it: I can't. I'm the know-it-all-mudblood-that-won't-go-out-with-James-Potter. You can't run away from something like that but you, your Hogwarts-golden-boy-a-pureblood-the-one-every-girl-wants-but-can't-have-because-he-only-wants-the-one-he-can't-have. You can give it all up and have one night stands with half the female population here. You can leave it all behind. I can't."

"You can. Choices are what make up life. You can choose who you want to be. A know-it-all. A Quiddich star. A teacher."

"But I never chose to be a mudblood…or to be in love with you," she whispered the last bit so quietly that James almost didn't catch it.

"I never chose to be pureblood or to be in love with you either."

Lily looked up through her eyelashes at him, "You really mean it?"

"I've meant it for three years why would I stop meaning it now?"

"Because…after all I've done…after all I've said…you can't possibly love me."

"You were the only one who didn't throw themselves at me. It intrigued me. Taught me that the things you want in life never came easy. I want you. I love you. You're the reason I haven't dated in three years…I need you…damn it Lily you're my everything," James put his head in his hands.

"…I need you to…James."

"You really mean it?" James took his head out of his hands.

"Yes. You were my ego then why not now?"

A/N: It ends here! This was again random thoughts that were swirling around my head during a 20-25k hike that involved me falling down in the mud, falling down hills covered in boulders, bruises, cut up ankles, hurting my everything and jumping of 5m cliffs into water where its sort of dark so that anything could've been in it. SO MUCH FUN! That was half sarcastic…