Ok, this is my first fanfic. Please forgive me if it is crap. Please R & R!!!!!

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters you can find in the Twilight series by the wonderful and awesome Stephenie Meyer. However, if (and I will, its me we're talking about after all) I make characters that aren't in the wonderful book series by Stephenie Meyer, they are owned by Moi!!! So please, don't sue me! I warned you all!!!

Me: Hey guys guess what!!

Edward and Bella: What sighs in exasperation

Me: I'm writing my first craptastic fanfic!!! No more torturing Caila and Hope and Magnus and Alli and David and Bethany (my very own characters)

Bella: And that means to us….

Edward: Bella! It means she gets to control us!! You remember what she did to poor Hope (I made her get taken away from her parents at the age of one, put her through some very traumatic situations and then I'm going to tell her her parents are alive and they're vamps)!!! Imagine what she's going to do to us!!!

Edward and Bella: run away as fast as Edward can run

Me: Damn that boy's fast!

Takes place during New Moon Choices

I looked at the ocean. What had taken me here? Why was I standing on the brink of death? I could jump. Even though He didn't care about me, it didn't mean I could kill myself. Sure I'd been tempting the hallucinations. Sure I'd broken Charlie's only rule for me; no riding on a motorcycle, never mind driving one. Sure I'd tempted death herself tons of times in the few months He had left me and Jacob had come into my life. But I couldn't leave my life. What if he actually loved me? What if he changed his mind? I couldn't leave him. And what about Charlie and Jake?

I slowly stepped away from the cliff edge and gasped.

The hole in my chest ripped open and tore at me, leaving me gasping on the ground. I tightly clutched my sides, attempting to keep myself together without much success. I sat there for however long until Jacob came up beside me and tried to help me.

Even though the wind was whipping my face and my tears were lost in the rain running down my face, I couldn't move, couldn't loosen my grip on my torso. What if I fell apart? What if I went insane from all the pain?

But none of it mattered.

I had almost jumped off the cliff into a hurricane. A hurricane.

Honestly, Bella, what were you thinking?

I gasped as a whole new wave of pain hit me as I heard Edward's voice.

Stay with Jacob. Let him help you. And don't ever try something like that again.

I tried to make sense of the words, but couldn't. Why would He tell me to be safe? Why was he concerned with whether I was alive or not. He didn't love me anymore! He was probably in Australia right now, doing whatever it was he was using to distract himself.

Jacob had wrapped his arms around me, still trying to get me to stand up. But it was a futile attempt. If I let go of my stomach, I'd fall apart in two. I couldn't. I just couldn't let go.

After a few more attempts Jacob gave up and grabbed me in his arms, picking me up and carrying me effortlessly to his car.

I vaguely remembered hearing the door close, then open again for Jacob to get in on the drivers side.

After hearing the low thrum of the car's engine, I lost consciousness and everything in my world went back.

Ok everyone. My first fanfic. Please read it and review it. Just, please, don't tell me its crap. I already know it's terrible, mainly because I prefer writing about my own characters. But, I promise, as I continue getting used to writing for Bella, I will get better. So yeah. I will update ASAP, but my top priority is finishing the book I'm writing and then the short story series (I have to finish the two I started and then start and complete the fourth). So yeah. Please! I want five reviews before I post the next chapter (if I finish the next part any time soon, which I doubt….). So yeah. R & R please!!!!!!!!