Disclaimer: I don't own any characters from twilight and I don't own the song.
A/N:
Hi everyone, please review because I have never done a song fic before. The only reason I did one now is because I was listening to old songs I loved when I was a teenager and I heard this and thought of twilight.
So this is what I imagine the scene to be like if Edward had come back of his own free will just because he missed Bella. Bella isn't as healed as she appeared to be when she started getting closer to Jacob- she's still a mess. Pretty much everyone is a heartbroken mess, so please enjoy! Lol
The Italics are their thoughts; this whole reunion is silent apart from at the end. Sorry if that's a bit weird.
Please review so I know if this is any good :)
The song is Konstantine by Something Corporate. There are a few versions apparently but the one I'm listening to is slow and only has a piano playing in the background.
Edward
I race through the trees praying I'm not too late. Please be waiting for me. I realise how wrong my thoughts are considering how I left her but I'm desperate. She is the one aspect of my existence that I need to be constant. Without her I'm nothing.
I reach her home but the lights are off with no sounds from within. Neither she nor Charlie is present. I feel agitation at first, wondering where she might be. Should I look for her? Exhaustion that I didn't know I could feel, takes over as I decide to wait. Standing at her porch, the rain begins to fall as my tears would if they were possible.
I hear the sound of her heart beat before I see her. Thump Thump, Thump Thump. The sound is dull, as though it's struggling with the task. Then I see her. She's exiting the woods; her head slumped towards the ground in an act of protection from the rain. Looking up she sees me and stops. Our eyes lock and I'm sure I know her thoughts. She's so broken. I can see it in her eyes.
Bella
I can't imagine all the people that you know
And the places that you go
When the lights are turned down low
And I don't understand
All the things you've seen
But I'm slipping in between
You and your big... dreams
But it's always you in my big dreams
I stop in front of you and my mind is assaulted with past images. There are so many things I think of when I look at you. I remember the first time I saw you; my dark saviour. I remember your dreams for me and how you would pull me into your fantasy of life. I remember the awe I feel whenever I am in your presencebut mostly I remember the hurt you caused me when you left. I remember how you stood in front of me with such a cold look in your eyes. Did I do that to you? How can my love harden something that already feels like stone? I listened as you told me you never loved me and I felt the split form in my heart. It ran in a jagged line, emphasising how torn you made me. You were all I had ever wanted, all I ever needed. My only dream was you.
And you tell me
That it's over
I wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clover
And your restless
And I'm naked
You've got to get out
You can't stand to see me shaking
No, could you let me go?
I didn't think so
I watched you walk away from me, as though you were desperate to get away. Your eyes darted to anything but me as I cried openly for my lost love. You wanted to leave; I knew you couldn't bear to see me in such a desperate state. At the time I thought it was due to embarrassment, now I see the truth. You were setting me free but in the process, you walked into a prison. How could you think of leaving me?
And you don't want to be here in the future
So you say
The present's just a pleasant
Interruption to the past
And you don't want to look much closer
'Cause you're afraid to find out all this hope
That you had sent into the sky by now had... crashed
And it did because of me
You said you would forget me. You said I would forget you but that didn't happen. You said I was just a distraction to your existence for a while but deep inside I knew that wasn't true. I know you don't want to be here, with rain falling from your face in the place of tears. I know your scared that I will reject you now; I can see it in your eyes. I can see your pain at coming home...at leaving me in the first place. You think you have ruined my future; ruined my plans by coming back, when all you have done is complete me. I'm empty without you.
And then you bring me home
Afraid to find out that you're alone, no
And I'm sleeping in your living room
But we don't have much roomTo live
Edward
I had dreams that I would learn to play guitar
Maybe cross the country
Become a rockstar
And there was hope in me
That I could take you there
But dammit you're so young
But I don't think I care
And if I hurt you then I'm sorry
Please don't think that this was easy
I left because I thought it was right. I left for you. There were so many things I wanted to show you...so many things I wanted to do for you. You are my world. I didn't want to take your future so I left. The thought of causing you any pain crippled me. I wanted to protect you from hurt. I didn't imagine the amount of hurt my leaving would cause.
To both of us
And then you'd bring me home'
Cause we both know what it's like to be alone, no
And I'm dreaming in your living room
But we don't have much roomTo live
I pray that you will forgive me. Take me back into your warm embrace and stop the cold of my body. That's why I came, because I need you.
You step towards the door and I enter your home. There is no one else here, just the two of us; the way our world always is. You walk away from me to the comfort of your own room as I stand praying for your answer. I can hear you crying from above. The sound of your sobs echo in my heart as I realise what I did to you.
Konstantine is walking down the stairs
Doesn't she look good
Standing in her underwear?
And I was thinking, and I was thinking, no
But I've been drinking
And it doesn't get me anywhere
You come back to me, broken and fragile. I hunted before I arrived and still your scent is intoxicating. My only wish is to take you in my arms and to hold you; memorising your smell and the feeling of your skin against mine. To have an angel in my arms again.
My Konstantine came walking down the stairs
And all that I could do
Was touch her long brown hair
And I've been thinking, It hurts me thinking
That these nights when
We've been drinking it doesn't get us anywhere, No
Bella
This is because I can spell confusion with a K
and I can like it
It's to dying in another's arms
And why I had to try it
It's to jimmy eat world
And those nights in my car
But the first star you see, may not be a star
I'm not your star?
Isn't that what you said
What you thought this song meant
Everything's so confused. I feel momentary guilt at my relationship with Jake. I know I'm too empty for it to have been anything more than innocent but I wonder how you would feel to know that we have become so close. Would you care that I died over you in Jakes arms time and time again?
You are still as droplets of water fall from your lashes. Wiping my tears from my own face, I walk to you and lift the towel that I hold. Carefully I lift it to your face, soaking the damp from your perfection. Your face turns into my hand, pushing forcefully into my cupping palm. You look straight at me and see the emptiness inside. I'm sure you can see straight through me but the blank look on your face indicates otherwise. Don't you know that I want you?
Edward
And if this is what it takes
Just to lie in my mistakes
And live with what I did to you
And all the hell I put you through
I always catch the clock it's 11:11
And now you want to talk
It's not hard to dream
You'll always be my Konstantine
I will do anything to have her back. I will grovel, beg and plead forgive if she will give me a chance to explain my motives for leaving. Being with her; I am suddenly aware of everything and nothing at all. She consumes all my senses, but she alights a flame within, making me feel as though I live again. A new world of possibilities open when I am with her.
Her heat burns my skin as she reaches my face. I welcome the burn, the feel of her warmth. I can hear her heart shudder in her chest and I briefly wonder whether it's awakening now. Can it hear mine calling?
My Konstantine
They'll never hurt you like I doNo,
They'll never hurt you like I do
No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No
We stand silence embracing each other's pain and you continue to wipe the wet from my skin. I know that I'm your biggest threat. The one you should fear but I am unable to stay away. I want to warn you again but I'm too afraid you will agree. I'm content to just be in your presence. Please tale me back.
This is to a girl who got into my head
With all these pretty things she did
Hey, You know that you keep me up in bed
It's to a girl who got into my head
With all the fucked up things I did
Hey maybe baby, you could keep me up in bed
My KonstantineSpin around me like a dream
We played out on this movie screen
And I said,
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
God, I miss you
Bella
I search your eyes for an indication of acceptance. Is it possible you want me once more? I'm battered and bruised and unsure if I will ever heal but I still believe that your love is the only cure. Please save me from myself. My movements are stopped by your hand pressing against mine. You hold it to your face as tears fall from my dead eyes. I see your mouth open and wait for a sound but there's nothing. I feel more afraid than ever now. Please don't crush me again.
"I missed you."
And then you bring me home
And we'll go to sleep but this time not alone, no no,
And you'll kiss me in your living room, I know
I know you've missed me in your Living room
Cause these night I think maybe that I miss you in my living room
We don't have much room
I said, does anybody need that room?
Because we all need a little more room
To live
My Konstantine
You whispered the words so softly I'm sure they couldn't be heard above a soft breeze. Suddenly you reach forward and as I fall to your body my heart rejoices in my chest. When your lips touch mine I feel free. I feel like I'm finally home. I finally feel alive.