The Person I've Become - A Season Two Lathan Story
Sometimes the only way to find yourself again is through those closest to you. Slash, Scottcest, all that fun stuff. You don't like it, don't read it.
Disclaimer: Sadly, I own nothing except the concept.
Chapter One //
Lucas Scott was lost.
So much was happening at once and he wasn't sure how much more of it he could take. It was bad enough that he was recently diagnosed with hypertrophic cardiomyopathy, (or as the doctors had called it, HCM) a little present that Dan had given him, but now he was living with his estranged father so that his mother wouldn't find of his condition and so Dan would pay for this medication.
But that was only the top of the list. Nathan was going crazy now that Haley had left with Chris Keller on a tour. He spent most of his time drinking into a stupor and skipping his classes. Most of the time Nathan didn't even show up at school, leaving Lucas worried that he wouldn't pass junior year.
His mother was dating her college professor, Andy, and had begun to spend more and more time with him. Peyton was dating Jake, Brooke was with Felix. Hell, even Keith was dating someone. Lucas had tried to date Felix's sister Anna for a little while, but when it turned out that Anna was really a lesbian, Lucas broke it off.
Lucas was suddenly beginning to feel very alone.
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It was a Friday night as Lucas sat in the bedroom that Dan had given him. Faint light came in through the window while he lay on his bed, eyes closed, trying to get his mind to stop wandering for a damn minute so he could possibly sleep. Sure it was early but the day had been stressful and all Lucas wanted do was get some rest and forget the day's happenings.
Letting out a loud gruff, Lucas turned slightly onto his left side and opened his eyes. His mind would not stop racing and it was beginning to piss him off.
Normally in time like this, Luke would call Haley and they would just talk. But Haley was no where near and wasn't answering her phone or returning his calls. Lucas chalked it up to her being busy with the tour, but in some respects was feeling a bit abandoned. His best friend had left without so much as a goodbye and was never near when he needed her.
Lucas shifted again, his long legs stretching down along the bed frame as his mind wandered again. This time he fell to Nathan. He was really taking everything hard. After all, he had given everything to Haley and she just walked away. Lucas worried about his little brother. His behavior was irrational and getting to be a bit dangerous.
Luke thought back to a couple days ago when he had went to go check on Nathan. He had looked horrible and the apartment was covered in beer bottles and other containers of various alcoholic beverages. He tired to get Nathan to join him for a game of one on one on the Rivercourt, but Nate wouldn't budge. Instead he declined, mumbling something about not caring about basketball and shutting the door in Lucas' face.
Lucas was worried, genuinely worried about Nathan, and kind of felt like there was nothing he could do to help. But there had to be something. Even if he was just there to talk, it was better than just sitting around worrying.
Picking his coat up off a chair, Lucas made up his mind to go see Nathan and to let him know that he wasn't completely forgotten. Mainly because Lucas was beginning to feel the same way and maybe he could bring Nathan out of this funk.
Lucas rushed down the stairs and slipped on his shoes just as Dan walked into the foyer, "Where are you going Lucas?"
"Out," was then followed by the front door shutting as Lucas exited the house and watched to his car.
Lucas wasn't exactly sure where to find Nathan at this hour. He had checked the apartment to find it empty, much to his dismay. This meant that Nathan was out drinking himself silly and who knows what that could lead to.
He had begun checking every bar he could find, each one of them another dead end road. Finally Lucas found his little brother at a seedy bar a few miles outside of Tree Hill. Through a bit of flirting and a miracle, Lucas made it past the front doorman, which freaked him out a little that flirting had actually worked. The things he learned from Brooke.
Lucas found Nathan sitting at the bar, nursing a golden liquid in a small glass. Lucas took the barstool next to Nathan's. The bartender walked over and Lucas just ordered a beer. He was a little wary that the bartender might as for id, but seconds later a cold beer was placed in front of him and the bartender walked away.
Lucas sat silently and took a sip o his beverage before speaking to Nathan who either was ignoring him or didn't realize he was there.
"It's a little early to be drinking the hard stuff isn't it Nate?" His eyes looked over at the brunette who had finished the drink in his hand and was now toying with the glass.
"Depends on what you define as early." A monotone voice replied, eyes still staring straight ahead. There was a silence between the brothers for a few seconds. Finally Nathan turned his head and looked Lucas dead on, "What are you doing here Luke?" He asked as he motioned the bartender to fill his glass again.
Lucas took another sip and shifted on his seat so he could look at Nathan better. "I was worried about you Nate. You haven't been yourself lately. I just wanted to know you were okay and not dead in an alley somewhere." His eyes fell down to the bar that was filled with scratches.
"Sometimes I think that would be better than what I'm feeling now," was the reply Lucas got before Nathan drained the rest of his drink faster than Lucas wanted.
Nathan looked over at Lucas once more, almost as if he was studying to see if he was telling the truth. "Well, it's nice of you to come all this way Lucas, but I'm fine. You can go now."
The bartender made his way over and filled Nathan's glass once more and stood in front of the brothers. "Should I leave the bottle?"
"Yes, No," Nathan and Lucas said at the same time. Nathan glared over at Lucas, but the elder never lost his resolve. Lucas eyes left Nathan's to meet the bartenders as he shook his head.
"No, he's good for now. Thank you."
The bartender's gaze fell to Nathan but Nathan said nothing, so he took the bottle with him and walked away from them.
Nathan looked over at Lucas angrily, "What the hell was that for Lucas?"
Lucas laughed and shook his head, "Don't you think you've had enough tonight Nate?"
The alcohol was building in Nathan's system. Sure, he had developed a tolerance to it, but with all he had had tonight, it was all building up and rushing through his blood system. He could feel the affects working on his body, not that he would let Lucas know that. "I've only had a few tonight."
Lucas huffed and turned fully so that he was facing Nathan head on, "Yeah, and how many before then Nate? How many other bars did you hit up before I found you here? How much did you drink at home when you should have been in school, huh Nate?"
Nathan continued to glare in Lucas' direction. "You still had no right to do that." His speech slurred as the alcohol in his system seemed to be taking full effect now that Nathan had stopped drinking.
Lucas watched Nathan and shook his head, "Nathan, you're wasted, c'mon you're done. We are leaving."
"I'm not drunk," came an unsure voice as Nathan raised the glass to his lips, finishing his god knows drink of the night. He had came down to set the glass on the wooden bar in front of him, but it slipped and fell to the floor below, the glass exploding on impact.
Lucas looked down and shook his head as Nathan started to laugh and started to call the bartender over to fetch him another drink.
"No!" Lucas said loudly as he pulled Nathan's hand down and pulled him off the barstool, "Come on, we're going home." The bartender looked at broken glass and then at Nathan. Lucas gave his apologizes and paid for the drinks and the broken glass as he linked an arm around Nathan's shoulder and walked him out of the bar.
It was hard at first, Nathan was resisting Lucas as hard as he could, but because of being wasted, gave up quickly. The door to outside opened and a chilly breeze swept over the brothers as Lucas continued to shuffle Nathan over to his car.
Within a couple minutes Lucas had Nathan by the passenger side. He opened the door and motioned for Nathan to get in. Nathan had an idea of his own however. He just stood there as Lucas walked over to the driver's side. Looking up, Lucas noticed that Nathan was still standing outside the vehicle.
"Get in the car Nathan." Nathan looked up and laughed as he continued to defy the elder Scott. Lucas was getting frustrated with Nathan in this moment, "I said, get in the fucking car before I push your ass in it." Nathan continued to laugh, but finally slide into the seat, leaving the door wide open.
Lucas shook his head and rubbed his temples before opening his own door and seating down and shutting it. He looked over at Nathan who still had the door wide open. He was trying everything in his power to piss off Lucas so that he would just leave him here and he could drink the night away.
Lucas' gaze fell to his drunken brother, "Are you going to shut that?" Lucas asked as he nodded towards the door.
Nathan just laughed and Lucas groaned. He then leaned over his brother to shut the door for him. While he was leaning over Nathan, his hand accidently glided over Nathan's jean clan crotch. This got a smile from Nathan as he then spoke.
"Whoa, easy there Lucas, we're brothers remember, unless you are into that sort of thing." A cocky grin was displayed on his face.
Lucas just sat back in seat and looked at Nathan, "Just put your seatbelt on." He then started the car and drove off to get Nathan home.
After about a half hour, Lucas parked himself outside of Nathan's apartment complex. He killed the engine and looked over at Nathan who had been quiet the whole ride home. Lucas was unsure if it was because he was still pissed that he had forced him to leave the bar or if the alcohol had taken full affect.
Nathan sat still, facing forward as his head bobbed back and forth a bit, "You okay?" Lucas asked as he took off his seatbelt.
Nathan turned in Lucas' direction and smiled, "Peachy."
The blonde open the door and closed it, quickly jogging over to the passenger side and opening it to retrieve his drunken brother. "Alright, c'mon Nate, let's get you to your apartment." Lucas spoke as he pulled Nathan from the car and staggered at the dead weight Nathan had become. Once he steadied himself and Nathan, Lucas locked and shut the doors.
The trip to the stairs was harder than Lucas expected. Nathan was to all but dead weight as he was dragged to the stairs, refusing to move on his own, or he was just that out of it, Lucas wasn't sure. The trip up the stairs was even worse.
Lucas had gotten Nathan to move up a couple of steps at a time, but at the speed they were going, it would be morning by the time they actually made it to Nathan's apartment. Lucas sighed and then made a decision. Pulling Nathan up by his legs, Lucas started to carry his brother up the stairs. Though it wasn't easier, it was much faster and fifteen minutes later, they had achieved their goal.
"God, are you heavy!" Lucas grunted as he set Nathan back down and began searching Nathan's pockets for his keys to unlock the door. Nathan just smiled again as he watched Lucas rummage through his front pockets.
"I guess you really are into that kind of stuff." He grinned as Lucas looked at him deadpan.
"I'm looking for your keys jackass, so that I can get you into bed." Lucas replied snippily as he checked the rest of his pockets.
"Oh, so you wanna get me in bed? Why Lucas, I never knew you wanted me in that way. I'm kind of flattered." A sloppy smirked was planted in his face.
"Shut up," Lucas snapped, a little tired of Nathan's gay quips. Reaching in Nate's back pocket he finally found his keys, "Got them." Slipping the key into the lock Lucas opened the door and pulled Nathan inside the apartment.
Lucas fumbled a bit in the apartment trying to get Nathan to his bedroom, his brother deciding to become dead weight again. Finally Luke got Nathan to his bed.
As soon as Nathan hit the mattress, he body feel over, his head landing on a pillow, as he laid in the fetal position. Lucas pulled his legs down and had begun to remove his shoes and socks when Nathan suddenly spoke in the darkness. "Lucas?"
Luke set the shoes and socks down at the bottom of the bed and moved closer so that he was kneeling in front of his brother, "Yeah?"
Nathan just sort of stared at Lucas for a minute. His facial features shown in the moonlight expelling in from the window, "I just wanted to say thanks. You didn't need to come to find me tonight but you did anyway and got me home safe. If you wouldn't of shown up, who knows where I would be. Thank you."
Lucas smiled down at Nathan, "It was nothing. You're my little brother; it's my job to take care of you. I was just worried and wanted to make sure you were safe."
The smile continued on his face as he saw Nathan smile. He then watched as Nathan slowly lead up towards him and before he knew it, Nathan's lips were on his in a small, but passionate kiss. The kiss broke and Lucas just started down at Nathan before he leaned down and captured his brother's lips again and his mind went blank.
TBC
This story is AU with references to the show slightly. Next chapter is coming up in couple of days. I already have the next few ones mapped out in my mind, all I need to do is write it down. Also, if you could write me a review. It helps me know what your thinking and keeps me going on with the story. So if you want more, you gotta review. Thanks!