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(A/N: Sorry for the long wait, I just been having some serious writers block and I keep deleting everything I do because I know I can write it better but I reallly hope you enjoy it because it was the best I could do on this writers block stuff. Thanks everyone who reads the story and I hope you continue reading!)

Chapter Seven: Where Does It Hurt? Part 1

Where does it hurt
Tell me 'cause I understand
The words of the heart
Beating like wings in my head
We can't hide
We'll never lie
I'll always see into you

Brooke stood at the side of the exterior wall which was Tree Hill High, she leaned against the wall deep in thought not even minding that the wind was blowing her hair out of place. She could feel the tears threatening to fall from her eyes as she looked off into the sky, it's been two days since she had miscarried but she assured everyone she was fine to come to school and she will be going to therapy as promised. She thought she was okay but she was far from fine even though she convinced everyone else she was, if there was anything that Brooke could do, hiding her pain was on of them. She tucked some of her hair behind ear and continued staring of at the sky, she felt her tears cascading down her face rolling onto the floor.

Brooke wrapped her arms around herself, "Brooke?!"

She heard a deep voice calling out her name which startled her, Brooke wiped her tears against her sleeve and immediately putting on a fake smile. Her broody boyfriend appeared from the corner and smiled when he finally found her, she picked up her book bag which was lying on the ground and walked to Lucas cuffing her arms around him.

"Hey boyfriend!" she said in her cheery manner.

"Are you okay?" Lucas immediately asked catching her off guard.

"What?" Brooke tried and play confused, she loved how Lucas knew when something was wrong with her because it showed that he knew her. She also hated it because she would have to end up talking about her feelings and end up breaking down in front of him which she hated to do. "I'm fine Luke."

"I'm not buying it, Brooke." Lucas stared into her hazel greenish eyes. "You wanted me to let you in but now it's time that you let me in Brooke, don't be afraid to cry in front of me and don't be afraid to be vulnerable because it doesn't make you weak, Brooke. I love you."

"Ditto." Brooke avoided his eyes.

"Why are you so afraid to say you love me?" Lucas questioned her. "You said it before, in the hospital when you said you never love anyone as much as you loved me."

"I can't Luke," Brooke winced a little as she gazed into his blue eyes. "It hurts to much."

Tears began to fall from her eyes, Lucas pulled her into a hug and she began sobbing into shirt. He rubbed the back of her head as he began to feel his shirt become damp in the area that Brooke was crying, she was crying a lot and even though that what he wanted her to do, he hated to see his pretty girl cry. She pulled away her eyes were red and still watery, Lucas kisses her lips for comfort. Brooke deepen the kiss as she slowly leads Lucas to the wall forcing him against it, the kiss was getting hot and heavy, neither one of them daring to pull back. Brooke slid her hand under Lucas shirt threatening to take it off, she felt his hands on top of her removing it from his shirt.

Brooke pulled back stunned and a little hurt, she couldn't help but think that her boyfriend didn't even want her body anymore but who would considering she killed their baby. Lucas saw the tears beginning to take form in her eyes again as she threaten to walk away he pulled her back into his arm and gave a her simple kiss on the lips. It wasn't as heated as the first one but more gentle and soft, he rested his head gently against her forehead.

"Don't you want my body anymore?" Brooke asked softly.

"Brooke, I love you," Lucas placed a hand against her face. "Of course I want your body and I want make sweet love to you until the end of time but the next time we have sex I want us both to be in love and I want it to be special for both of us." Lucas kissed her once again. "Okay pretty girl?"

"Okay boyfriend." Brooke smiled resting her head against his chest.

I've been there too
I've wasted myself
And you were there for me
So whenever you crash
Wherever you land
That's where I'll be

And for every endless midnight
There's a sky full of broken stars
And there'll always be a place for you
Inside my arms
Where does it hurt

Brooke sat on her bed with pins and needles, she began to pull out some cloth, she needed a way to get her head off of everything and she usually found comfort in making new outfits. Rachel walked into the room with her book bag over her shoulder, she headed towards the bathroom but immediately backed up when she saw Brooke, "Back away from the pins and needles!" She knew it was wrong to make jokes out of it but she couldn't help it, everyone been so moody over the last two days.

"Oh shut up slut!" Brooke joined her laughing as she continued sewing. "What are you doing back so early I thought you had a project to do with Haley?"

"Yeah but she was getting all hormonal and bitchy so I left." Rachel shrugged dropping her book bag on the floor and climbing into her bed. "Aren't you doing a project with Luke?"

"I'm going by later," Brooke concentrated on making the dress. "What do you think we'll be doing after high school?"

"I don't know," Rachel yawned, she never really thought that far. "I don't really know, I been thinking I'll pack up and leave Tree Hill and maybe travel the world?"

"How about you come with me to New York?"

"New York?" Rachel looked at Brooke confused, was she serious? "What are we going to do in New York?"

"Start my fashion line," Brooke explained, she's been thinking about this for quite some time. "I wanted you to be my co-partner since you're all good with numbers and crap like that."

"Yeah cause everyone knows Brooke Davis skanky ass can't count for shit."

"Screw you Gatina!" Brooke laughed throwing a pillow at her. "What do you say?"

"What about Luke?"

"If I have dreams I'm taking him with me," Brooke smiled. "I don't know what he wants to do at this point but I'm hoping that even if we split up that we can still be together, but this is what I really want to do and I don't think Lucas will stop me."

"So we're in this for the long hall, if you have dreams I'm chasing them with you!" Rachel smiled as she jumped up to hug Brooke.

"I love you Rach!" Brooke laughed. "Clothes over Bros?"

Brooke held out her fist as Rachel pounded it, "Chicks over Dic--" Brooke quickly covered her mouth and began laughing.

Brooke walked into Karen's Cafe hoping to find Lucas but instead she found his five month pregnant mother, Karen Roe. She slowly approached the counter, she knew she was going to have to stop avoiding the woman at some point. Karen was pouring some coffee into a mug and handed it to one of her coffee, as she saw the brunette walking towards her she put on a smile, Karen loved Brooke and thought of her as one of her own. She loved their conversations because Brooke was the daughter she always wanted but never had and she also reminded her of a younger version of herself.

"Hey Karen." Brooke smiled simply waving her hand.

"Hey honey," Karen continued smiling. "How have you been holding up?"

"I'm okay," Brooke shrugged. "I been trying to hang in there but some times it seems hard, but I have Lucas. I'm sorry that I didn't tell you about the pregnancy, I was scared that you wouldn't like me anymore and just think less of me." She began rambling.

"Who am to think less of you Brooke?" Karen placed her hands on Brooke's. "I had a baby around your age, I am not the one to judge you Brooke and I love you, I've consider you as one of my own."

Brooke had tears rolling down her eyes, "Thank you Karen, for being the mother I've never had."

"Anytime Brooke," Karen reached over and hugged her. "I've been wondering where Lucas was would you mind getting him from home? He probably still sleeping from when he came back from school."

"No problem."

Lucas was on his way out the door, he overslept and was late for his shift at work, he had to rush to catch up with Brooke who he promised to meet there. He opened the door and saw his blond ex standing in front of him, she looked nervous as if she been standing there for a while, he looked at her confused as she shrugged and gave off a smile. "Peyt, what are you doing here?"

"Um...I kinda wanted to see you," Peyton walked into his room as he just looked at her confused. "I guess I've been feeling kind of lonely since you left me for Brooke and I understood that she had the baby and everything and I didn't want to get in the way of that and I'm sorry for being here right now but I'm not over you Luke."

"Peyton," Lucas shook his head. "You can't keep doing this, I love Brooke!"

"I know Lucas," Peyton cried out. "But I guess what I really just need is some closure, I don't want to hurt Brooke and I really want to give our friendship a shot again and I guess what I am trying to say is that I'm always going to love you Lucas but you're always going to be in love with Brooke and I'm always going to be in love with Jake."

"Jake?"

"Yeah, that's kind of why I'm here," Peyton smiled. "I'm leaving for Savannah tomorrow."

"What about graduation?"

"I'll be back," Peyton was sure of this. "I going to graduate Luke, I just have to turn in the final projects and all my teachers said that would be enough to pass. So I guess this is goodbye Lucas."

"You'll be good Peyton Sawyer," Lucas hugged her. "Tell Jake I said hi."

Peyton hugged him back smiling, she slowly pulled back and kissed him. Lucas who was taken by surprised pulled away, "What the hell was that?"

"A goodbye kiss I guess."

"That's funny Peyt," they heard a voice by the door. "Just when I thought I could trust you two again you pull a stunt like this, well you know what? You two assholes can have each other because I am so done being the girl who always end up getting the short end of the stick!" Brooke turned around to leave when she felt Peyton grab her arm.

"Brooke it's not what you think!"

Peyton fell to the floor as Brooke's hard fist collided with her face, "I'm so sick and tired of all your crap Peyton," Brooke said as tears rolled down her eyes. "I trusted, I thought you were my friend and I was willing to give you another chance and you kiss my boyfriend again!"

"Brooke calm down!" Lucas tried to approach her.

Brooke glared at him, "Don't you dare come near me, I thought you loved me but once again I was wrong and it's shit like this which make me want to kill myself. I can't do this anymore!" Brooke slammed the door as she stormed out the room causing tears cascaded down her face, she began walking and she didn't know when or where she was going to stop. She didn't even realize that it had just began pouring outside, the rain was hitting her skin hard but she could hardly feel it, all she could feel was the tears flowing down her face.

It was kind of screwed up how history kept repeating itself over and over again and that she was the one who kept falling for everyone lies as usual. She ran a hand through her wet damp hair as she began to breath heavily, she didn't know what was going on with her but she was hyperventilating, she hated the feeling of having her heart broken because it felt like part of her was dying every time it happened. She began hearing splashes of footstep running through the puddles, she knew who it was but she wasn't going to give him the satisfaction of turning around but the fact that she had been walking slow wasn't helping.

Lucas stood in front of her almost as wet as she was, "Brooke, what are you doing?"

"Lucas please," Brooke tried not to sound vulnerable but her raspy voice was definitely giving it away. "Why did you let her kiss you again? Would you have even told me that she kissed you if I never saw?"

"Honestly no," Lucas said to Brooke's surprised, she began to walk again as he trailed behind her. "I wouldn't tell you because I wouldn't want to hurt you Brooke, I love you and I care for you to much to let you go through so much pain again. Can you please stop walking and let me talk to you for five minutes?"

Brooke turned around crossing her arms, "You have five minutes."

"I don't like Peyton anymore Brooke, I love you," Lucas grabbed Brooke's hand slowly. "I even told her to leave after you punched her, I can't control Peyton's feelings for me but one thing I can control is my feeling for you. I'd do anything for you Brooke even if that means standing out in the rain devoting my love to you for the second time. I love you Brooke, how else am I suppose to say it?"

"Why don't you show me Luke like I've been asking for the past couple of months!" Brooke yelled at him in frustration.

Lucas grabbed Brooke from the back of her head and pulled her into a passionate kiss, she could feel his fingers roam around her body caressing every single part of her. This kiss wasn't like all their other kiss, there was something more genuine and sincere about this one. In the one kiss Lucas said everything that he had to say not with his words but with his actions, the amount of emotion that he was putting into that kiss made her feel secure for the first time in a long time. Brooke broke away from the kiss, she looked into his blue eyes as she she buried her head into his chest.

"You remember when I told you I like the rain?"

Lucas nodded his head, "It was the last time we was out in the rain like this."

"Well I never gave you a reason," Brooke told him. "I like the rain because it's a way of hiding my emotions, when I'm in the rain you can't see my tears and you can't really tell what's going on with me but I think you're finally breaking through. When we was at the wedding and I freaked out on you it wasn't because of the kiss as much as I felt that you didn't get me and it hurt me so much because I loved you and you never really understood me."

"I want you to help me understand you pretty girl," Lucas kissed her on forehead. "I can't imagine my life without you Brooke."

Lucas pulled away from Brooke grabbing her hand, he set himself on the ground standing one knee looking up at Brooke, "Brooke Penelope Davis, will you marry me?"

(A/N: Hope that you all enjoyed this chapter and I hope I can have another one up for you by this weekend and we will find out Brooke's answer to Lucas sudden question and I hope that you stick around for more and thank you for reviewing everyone and I hope that you will continue to review!)