Prologue

The monitor ran blank; there was just a single beep. I was dead. If I was dead, then how come I felt so alive? Why did I feel pain and burning? Heaven had to be better than this.

Chapter 1

Have I died yet?

BPOV

"Thanks for dinner, Dad." I said.

"No problem." He answered. Charlie and I needed some time to forget what had happened. Renee and Phil had drowned. They were in open water sailing without life preservers. The boat started to take in water and that was the end of their lives. Charlie was heartbroken and cried myself to sleep almost every night.

"Dad, you really should watch the road." We were coming home from one of the very few restaurants in Forks. It was an attempt to cheer us both up.

"I'll be- " were his last words. In the blink of an eye, our car overturned and we were rolling downhill fast. Once we stopped I tried to get Charlie to move, but he remained still. I screamed and tried to yell for help. When I realized that I was covered in blood and had an atrocious headache. If I didn't find a doctor soon, I would die on the side of the road. I started to drift away into a deep sleep when I heard a velvet voice.

"Bella! Bella, can you hear me!" The voice asked.

"Alice, help me!" he shouted. Alice opened the door while he inside the car and onto his lap.

"Edward?" I mumbled once we got into the car.

"Yes, Bella. It'll be okay. We're going to go see Carlisle. All you have to do is stay awake." He answered.

"You don't have to do this." I muttered.

Once we arrived at the hospitable, we ran in to see Carlisle and he quickly inspected me.

"Can you help her?" Edward asked anxiously.

He thought for a moment but then replied, "No I can't. If you want her, than you'll have to change her. By the looks of it she lost a lot of blood, fractured her skull, broke her tibia, and might of done something to her neck. She is in a lot of pain as of the moment and you're not making anything better."

"She's not a dog, Carlisle!"

My heart rate started decreasing.

"Edward!" Alice screamed.

Slower and slower.

"Something must be done." Carlisle said in a slightly louder voice.

Slower and slower.

Then he stormed out of the room. The monitor ran blank; there was just a single beep. I was dead. If I was dead, then how come I felt so alive? Why did I feel pain and burning? Heaven had to be better than this.

EPOV

I stormed out of the room. I could take it. My Bella was dead, cold and hard, like me.

"Edward, is that you?" a familiar voice asked. I looked up to see who it was, and I couldn't believe my eyes.

"Ebony?" I said. My eyes were lit with joy and my voice was filled with confusion and amazement.

"Ebony Scarlett Crimson." She replied proudly. "And this is my mate, Trenton Nate Jackson."

"Nice to meet you." I replied dully.

"What's the matter Eddie? And why are you in the hospital?" Ebony asked.

"My girlfriend just died and I could ask the same about you."

"I stopped by your house and Emmett told me you-. Wait your girlfriend is what!"

"Yeah and now's not a good time, could you come back later?"

"I don't know, I'm quite thirsty; but I love this shade." She replied pointing to her crimson eyes.

"You will not hunt here!" I replied through clenched teeth.

"Fine. I'll give you two days." And with that, her and her mate left.

"Edward?" Alice asked as soon as they left.

"Forget it Alice, I don't want to talk."

"Was that Ebony?" she asked me through her mind.

"I said I don't want to talk." I briskly walked out of the hospital, got into my car, and drove home. When I walked inside, the rest of the family stared at me. Jasper tried to calm me down and told me that it was killing him -literally- when I was like this. Every possible emotion was stirring through me and I couldn't control it. I stormed into my room to find that James Blunt's Goodbye My Lover was on. Perfect.

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

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Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when i wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

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Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

It finally hit me then. I would never get Bella; I would never get the chance to change her; and I would never get to hold her again. The song described me perfectly. Except that I can't sleep or have kids, but other than that.