Hope it is decent.

It is just something that I though would have been cool if they had an episode about Inuyasha's past. I have no clue how many chapters it will be, this was a spur the moment thing.

A Look in the Past

Inuyasha and Kagome were walking alone in the woods. They had just eatin a great meal that Kagome had cooked up and this was the first time Inuyasha didn't complain, a new record!! After the dinner Inuyasha asked her to take a walk in the woods with him. It was obvious that he was planning on going somewhere but she couldn't tell where. As they walked along, she noticed a caterpillar squirming along the path and she stopped to watch it. Inuyasha noticed her attention averted to something so he stopped to look.

"Look, this caterpillar looks sooo alone" Kagome said in a low sad tone.

"That's alright; they don't have feelings so they don't care." Inuyasha said, not really caring about the bug to begin with.

"But everything has feelings Inuyasha, that's like saying demons or half demons don't have feelings" she blurted out.

Inuyasha turned away quickly, not liking her analogy of comparing the caterpillar to someone like him. "So what if it did have feelings what would it be thinking right now?"

"Uhm" Kagome pondered for a minute and then responded with, "I bet he is afraid right now."

"How come?"

"Cuz he has to find food to stay alive but as he squirms along, he just gets hungrier and hungrier. And now he has some strange beings breathing on him and he feels that he can't protect himself."

Inuyasha just let out a "humph"

"Oh yeah, what do you think he is feeling?"

"Nothing, it is a damn bug" Inuyasha was getting frustrated at her.

"Come on; just think of if he could feel. What would he feel right now?" By this time Kagome was just playing with him

Inuyasha looked at the squirming little guy and then with a solemn look in his eyes he said, "I would say he is alone in the world. He has no family and no home to go too. He just goes through life with uncertainty around every corner. No one will even talk to me…" He stopped abruptly and Kagome notice why but she didn't know what to say.

"Inuyasha you have never told me about your childhood have you?"

"There's nothing interesting to talk about that's why."

"But just now you seemed upset. Are you sure there is nothing you wanna talk about?"

"There is nothing to talk about! My mom died when I was eight" 'and it was my fault' he thought "and then I went through the rest of life trying to survive with everyone and everything hating me." Inuyasha yelled and then looked away quickly; he tried to not cry as he remembered his mother's death quite clearly in his head. It would play over and over again every day.

"Inuyasha I have been with you long enough to know something is bothering you from this. If you don't wanna talk I understand but when you are ready I wanna hear about your past and everything that happened." She said in a calm voice

Kagome then got up from kneeling with the caterpillar and put it on a nearby tree. "Its not that I ever had a problem with anyone, it was always them that had a problem with me." Kagome heard Inuyasha say.

"I mean from a small child I was never liked I would get picked on and tossed around. I mean I was a one year old and the villagers were threatening to kill me. I was innocent and they claimed I would kill everyone."

Kagome turned around after putting the caterpillar on the tree, "Inuyasha, why don't you tell me about your mother, I bet she loved you."

"She can't love me."

"All mothers love there children Inuyasha."

"How could she love me when I was the reason she died?"

Kagome heard a small sniffle from Inuyasha and she hugged him, "Would you like to tell me what happened?"

As they sat on a rock, Inuyasha still looked at the little caterpillar as it climbed onto a branch and held itself upside down, it was obviously making a cocoon next to two other cocoons. "It is a long story though."

"I will have forever to listen to it."

"Well it all started when I was eight…."

(flash back)

"Inuyasha, Inuyasha!!!" a lady called out. She had black hair and wore the most beautiful clothing possible.

"Boo!!" A small little kid jumped out at her.

She would pretend to be scared whenever he did this, "Oh, don't sneak up on me when you do that." She laughed a little and put her hand on his head rubbing the little dog ears on his head.

"Sorry mom." Chuckled Inuyasha "but I was bored and had to find something to do" He let out a toothy grin.

"Well go try and play with the other kids instead of giving me a heart attack."

"Buuuut mooom, they don't like me at all."

"Just be nice to them and in time they will see that you're not mean."

"Alright" Inuyasha bounded towards the village where the kids were playing.

He watched as they had sticks and were pretending to hit each other with them and defending each other off with them. Inuyasha looked excited and quickly found a decent looking stick and came over to them, "Can I play?" He asked holding out the stick, "I already have my weapon of choice, hehe"

"My mom said to never play with you." One of the boys said. "She said 'never trust him no matter what'"

"But I just wanna play." The hanyou said looking more distraught then ever.

The boy looked around to see if anyone was around, "Well I guess if my mom isn't around then it should be fine."

The boys started fighting him with there sticks and all of them were laughing and having fun. Then one of the boys hit another boy and he fell down, laughing hysterically. As they surrounded him, the kid was screaming (in a playful way) "Nooo, don't hurt me. I don't deserve to die from the likes of you." As they got closer, the kid's mom came out and screamed.

"Get away from my child you half breed. Don't you dare hurt him."

Inuyasha looked up, he didn't know what this term meant but it seemed to be his nickname from a lot of the villagers.

"Mom, we were playing" The kid said as he stood up and brushed him self off.

"I told you time and time again to never play with that thing. One day it may snap and then what, you will die. I don't even know why they keep it around. Besides what would your parents say if they found out you were playing with this half breed"

"Sorry" The kids said in unison, looking ashamed.

Inuyasha was puzzled, snap? Why would he snap on them and kill someone? He knew he had claws but having them and knowing how to use them were two different things. He left after that scene deciding to never go back to play with them again no matter what his mom told him to do.

"Mommy." Inuyasha called out when he got home. The house smelt of her cooking and it was the best smell ever.

"Hi, how was your playtime? You were there longer then usual. I assume you were good." She let off a huge smile at him.

"I didn't get into any trouble, the kids let me play with them today, until one of there parents came out and told me to leave. She said that I may snap and kill them all if I play with them. Can I ask you a question?"

"Sure" She knew what was coming next, it was the same question that was always asked when he met one of the villagers. She didn't want to ever answer it but she knew she would have to one day.

"What's a half breed?" He looked so puzzled as if this was the secret to life.

"That doesn't matter, how bout you eat some stew for now, and then I made you a special dessert for your birthday."

His ears perked up, dessert was his favorite and he knew from the smell what it was. But he still played along with his mom, "what is it?"

"Hehe, your dessert is your favorite of all of them."

The stew was very salty, which was the way he liked it. (This would explain why he likes ramen so much) and the dessert was a cake like food and it was so delicious and good.

"Mom, can I go out for the night and sleep outside?" Inuyasha loved to sleep out under the stars.

"You should know you can't tonight hun."

"Oh, hehe, I almost forgot. Tonight is the night of no moon." Inuyasha laughed

"That's right and no one is going to get my baby when he is vulnerable." She smiled and playfully hugged him.

Inuyasha loved it when she called him 'her baby' and sometimes she would say 'her pup' which meant even more to Inuyasha since he was part youkai after all.

As the night came, Inuyasha transformed into a human. He loved it when he was human; it seemed like the only time he could be like everyone else. The only thing was he was forced to stay inside because even though the village knew the night of his vulnerability, demons didn't and his mom wanted to keep it that way.

"Mom can you tell me about daddy before I go to bed?"

"Sure thing hun."

He loved the stories about his heroic dad who would always save the day and seemed so awesome that he only wished he could see him. As he jumped into bed and pulled a small sheet up, he looked over at his mom as she was just walking into his room. "Tell me the one about when he first met you!!!!"

"Alright, I was a young girl"

"But not to young" Inuyasha jumped in, he knew the story from heart and always listened intently to it.

"Who's telling the story here mister?"

"Sorry" a small chuckle came from both of them.

"As I was saying…. I was walking through a field of wild flowers in my garden when the most handsome guy came out of no where and we talked for hours."

"Tell me what he looked like!!!"

"Well lets see, he has a dog demon and had a huge furry thing hanging from him, sorta like your brother Sesshomaru. And he had the most beautiful markings I could have ever seen on a guy. When he walked he had the smoothest walk ever imagined and he never missed a beat with his motions."

"I wish I could have seen him"

"You are supposed to be falling asleep young boy. As I was saying he was so handsome and he came up to me and told me I was so beautiful and that he would love it if I came with him to his castle and spent the rest of our days together…" She looked down at her sleeping son. "You never go through the whole story when you are a human" she laughed as she kissed his forehead. "Love you my boy."

She went into the other room to clean before she went to bed. "Lady Izayoi please open now. It is me, Kira and I have some bad news." Kira was there only friend in the village, she knew that Izayoi and Inuyasha weren't bad and on many occasions she would get scorned for talking to them.

Izayoi quickly opened the door. "What's wrong?"

"It's the men from the village they are planning on killing Inuyasha tonight, while he is vulnerable."

They heard the villagers slowly move around the hut, as they saw people holding fire, bows and arrows and swords.

"Kira get out now. If they catch you in here they will kill you too. Now go. We will get out in the back way."

"Alright. Just please be careful."

"I will, and thanks Kira." As Kira slid out Izayoi went to wake her sleeping son.

"Inuyasha, please get up." Izayoi whispered while shaking him slightly.

"Whats wrong mommy?" Inuyasha said groggily.

"Get over here; remember the escape route I told you about for emergencies like fires?" She said as she unlatched a secret back door in Inuyasha's room. She never actually planned it for fires, it was always meant for if something like this ever happened.

"Yes mommy, you said to go through that latch and run as far as I could."

"That's right." She said starting to cry. "You are going to use it tonight and run far far away."

"What about you mommy? Aren't you going with me like we planned?"

"I have to stay here and see if I can calm the villagers down and keep them here." She grabbed her sons clothes and quickly dressed him and then handed him the left overs she was going to throw out. "Hun, if I don't come and get you go out and find a place to live. And on no occasion, no matter what you hear or see, DO NOT COME BACK." She then hugged her child, knowing this would be the last time she would see him.

"Mom, where will you go?" Inuyasha asked confused

"I told you I am going to try and calm the villagers down while you run." Tears streamed down her face. "You must live for my sake and yours. This food should last you for a day or two."

"Mom" Inuyasha was so scared, he didn't know fully what was happening but he didn't want to leaver her.

She then jumped up and pushed open the secret door, "Run now Inuyasha, while there is still time. Remember don't stop for anything, just keep going."

Inuyasha started walking out and turned around to see his mom as she closed the latch, then he heard her screaming. "Let me go, let me go." Izayoi was screaming at them. Inuyasha then decided to run. As he ran, he fell several times scrapping his knees and his face. When he was way up on the cliff that over hung the village he watched in horror as his mom was beaten several times. He could only imagine why and no other time did he wish he had his youkai powers more then right now.

As his mother lay motionless on the ground, the people went inside and came out looking mad. 'Were they really looking to kill me too?' Tears formed even more as they grabbed his mother and just tossed her into the woods like a sack of potatoes. "Mother" Inuyasha squeaked out. As he contemplated going back to help her, he remember what she said, 'never come back for me.' He sat there crying for a while till he fell asleep under a big tree.

(End Flashback)

"Wow, you had a rough eighth birthday then." Kagome said she didn't know what to say.

"Yeah, I guess you can say that. I never could live down that day. It was my fault that she died because I wasn't strong enough to help her."

"No it wasn't Inuyasha. She told you to live; she said to not come back. You did exactly what she wanted and you even made a few friends."

Inuyasha watched the caterpillar finish the last bit of his cocoon. "Maybe but still, my life didn't get any better from that point."

"Would you like to go on and tell me the rest about your childhood?" Kagome persisted

Inuyasha looked at her confused, "why do you wanna know so badly?"

"I am glad that you could open up to me that you could sit here and tell me everything that happened in your past. There is so much that I don't know about and I feel that you may do good to tell someone."

"Hmph, if you want me to continue I guess I could. But we are going to be late to the camp tonight so we may stay out here for the night."

"That's fine with me." Kagome smiled at him.

I know I left it open and I may have more to add to this at some point. I did this more as a test. I think it came out kind of cute, but you can tell me I guess.