Songs About Me
DG32173
DISCLAIMER: I don't' own Naruto. I don't own the songs I use. I do own the little chapters written around the songs, so don't steal them.
RATING: T for language
CHAPTER SUMMARY: Sakura had warned him if he didn't change his ways she'd leave him. Sasuke didn't believe her then but now he wishes he had listened to her…
GENRE: angst
PAIRINGS: Anti Sasu/Saku, hinted Dei/Saku at end
SONG: She Wouldn't Be Gone
ARTIST: Blake Shelton
SHE WOULDN'T BE GONE
Red roadside wild flower
If I had only picked you,
Took you home, set you on the counter,
Oh at least a time or two
Sasuke sees the red wildflowers on the side of the interstate fly past and wishes he had picked some for her every so often. He might not be driving around the county looking for her.
Maybe she'd have thought it through.
He sees the sunset in his rearview mirror and remembers how his pink-haired angel loved just sitting and watching it. Maybe if he took the time to sit and watch it with her more often.
Yellow sunset slowly dippin' down in the rearview,
Oh how she loved to sit and watch you,
I could have done that a whole lot more.
He slams his fist on the steering wheel, making sure not to hit the horn.
If I hadn't been so stubborn,
Been so selfish,
Thought about her more,
Thought about me less
If only he hadn't been so stubbornly selfish and thought about her more and les about himself.
Joked to make her happy,
Held her when she cried,
A little more of that, maybe I...
He remembers how he used to joke with her early in their relationship just to make her laugh and smile. If only he had kept that up. If only he held her when she cried over the deaths in her family. She came from a huge, tight-knit family and knew every member of her extended family by voice and name.
Wouldn't be drivin' like hell,
Flyin' like crazy down the highway,
If only he had done more to keep her, he wouldn't be driving like hell all over the damned county, flying down the highway. He grabs his cell phone and calls her mom for the sixth time. "Hello?" her mother asks.
Callin' everyone we know,
"Have you seen her?" Sasuke asks.
"I'm sorry Sasuke, but I'm cooking dinner, I have to go," the woman says hurriedly, hanging up.
Stoppin' any place she might be,
Goin' any place she might go.
He sees another place she might be and stops to look around the park but doesn't see her. He gets back in his car and heads for the bridge. She always loved skipping rocks there, trying to outdo him. But she's not there either. He calls another number, this one Naruto's. "Yo!" Naruto says.
"Naruto, do you know where Sakura might be?" Sasuke asks.
"Eh, sorry Sasuke. I gotta get to work, I'll talk to you later," Naruto says, hanging up.
Sasuke curses. All her friends and family are avoiding talking to him.
Beatin' on the dash,
Screamin' out her name at the windshield,
Tears soakin up my face.
If I'd have loved her this much all along,
Maybe, maybe, yeah maybe,
She wouldn't be gone.
She wouldn't be gone.
He beats the dash, screaming her name brokenheartedly. Tears are streaming down his face. If he had loved her this much all along, she probably wouldn't be gone.
She warned me it was comin',
Said if I didn't change she was leavin'.
I just didn't believe
She would ever really walk out.
"Sasuke, if you don't change, I will leave," she says to him. "I don't know what happened to the Sasuke I loved, but you changed."
God I believe her now.
Called her momma,
Cried like a baby to her best friend,
If they've seen her they ain't sayin',
They ain't sayin'.
He hadn't believed she would really walk out on him. God he believes her now! Her best friend and mother aren't saying if they've seen her. None of her friends or family are. Naruto had told him that it is his fault he lost Sakura when he first found out that Sakura had walked out.
Now I'm cursin' like a fool,
Prayin' it ain't too late,
All I wanna do is fix my mistakes.
Find her; beg her, for one more try,
Until then damn it I'll...
He is cursing like a fool while praying it ain't too late at the same time. He just wants to fix his mistakes, find her, and beg for one more try. He has a feeling she's given him more chances than he was told and won't come back.
be drivin' like hell,
Flyin' like crazy down the highway,
Callin' everyone we know,
Stoppin' any place she might be,
Goin' any place she might go.
Beatin' on the dash,
Screamin' out her name at the windshield,
Tears soakin' up my face.
If I'd have loved her this much all along,
Maybe, maybe, yeah maybe,
She wouldn't be gone.
Even his own brother had told him that he should've treated Sakura with more love and respect. Ha! Itachi talking about love and respect?! If this wasn't so important to him, he'd have laughed his ass off at the irony. Deidara knows his number by heart, since Naruto says Sakura called him all the time to tell him of all their fights and her broken heart. Deidara isn't picking up no matter how many times Sasuke calls. Deidara told him once that Sakura was a lot more precious that Sasuke took her for and that the brunette would lose her if he kept this up. Sasuke had merely brushed it off as jealousy, thinking Sakura would never walk out.
I wouldn't be beatin on the dash,
Screamin' out her name at the windshield,
Tears soakin' up my face.
If I'd have loved her this much all along,
Maybe, maybe, yeah maybe,
She wouldn't be gone.
He drives by Sakura's old house before she moved into his home. No one's there. She had kept it in her name, but now there's a For Sale sign. Sakura said she'd only sell it if she had no choice or wanted to get away. Obviously, she wanted to get away. As he gets back on the interstate to go by Deidara's, he sees more of those red wildflowers.
Red roadside wild flower,
If I had only picked you,
Took you home, set you on the counter,
Oh at least a time or two,
Maybe she'd have thought it through.
When he reaches Deidara's, he sees the bedroom curtains open. He slips up to them and steps back in horror at what he sees. Sakura and Deidara are curled around one another, asleep. Both are naked and the messed up sheets tell that they obviously had made love. Sakura had really left him…