Art Replicates Life. Man la vie.

I sit here, at this pale damped table. I am the Ice Prince. But I rule nothing, not even my own life.

I became a Death Eater because it was what was expected of me. My image rules my life.

They think I get along with my family. Hah!

After the fucking stunt my father pulled, by worshipping dear Voldemort, I no longer talk to the guy.

I am seriously considering emancipation.

My mother is suicidal, I watch her cry herself to sleep, trying to keep her alive, when I know it would be best if she just did.

I love her, but I hate to see her pain.

I find myself slowly turning to the only one in the school who knows pain. Harry.

He is just as suicidal as my mother, but listens to me as no one else would.

He tells me to survive, I help him by doing the same.

He tells me in the end, that I can live with him, if I need a home.

He will become my finally.

Potter and I are platonic, both asexual, but needing a friend.

My mother will kill herself, I know this.

I cry myself to sleep, praying she won't, but she will.

I refuse too talk to my father.

I won't tell him of mother's death so I won't have to live with him.

They call me the Ice Prince.

A simple reason why.

I build up a shelter, to keep me safe.

Few can break it.

Some speak through it.

They help me.

They don't want me to end up as my mother, and grandfather before me.

I am alone, but they won't allow.

Those who know me are my saviors.

Even the greatest savior.

I cry myself to death each night, only to be awoken by their love.

I love you guys, my friends. Despite whatever hell I go through called life, you stand by me. The Emo and Nerd stand by one another, because they sympathize the pain. My confidants, my life line. It is because of you I haven't given up. That and prospect of being a teacher [ inner nerdom shown ( tee hee S! ) .

Thank You.

If you couldn't tell, this was written as a catharsis and is dedicated to Sierra [ emo Rochelle [ emo and Melissa [ happy-girl, three friends helping me weather hell. Sierra is Harry, I am Draco.

Love to readers,

The ultimate nerd