I Got Over You Chapter 1: Never were the best for me, a grey's anatomy fanfic

Ok. This is my first Grey's fic. I'm kind of nervous about it. This is my one-shot to the song "over you" by Daughtry, that i turned into a continued story. Review!!

sadly, i don't own grey's. Shonda does :(

Never were the Best for Me

Now that it's all said and done
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house

Meredith sat at her kitchen table reading the paper. She didn't know how to get him off of her mind. She was broken. She opened up to Derek and told him that she wanted him and no one else, and she thought they were happy. She ran her hand down to her round stomach, and felt a slight kick.

"Mommy loves you sweetheart" Meredith whispered to her baby girl. She got up and headed towards the shower. She had to get ready for a 12 hour shift, which is not pleasant for being 8 months pregnant. Her feet were killing her and her back was aching.

The warm water was a relief, running down her body as the scent of lavender filled the shower. She remembered just like it was yesterday. The biggest regret of her life…

"I don't want you to date other people. It may not be enough for you, but I'm trying here so I don't want you to date anybody but me. That's it. Except, I'm scared as hell to want you, but here I am, wanting you anyway. And fear means I have something to lose, right? And I don't want to lose you."

Except for now, the one thing she wanted was to lose every memory. She promised herself, that from now on Derek Shepherd was just a figment of her imagination.

What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
Fell to far, was in way to deep
I guess I let you get the best of me

Everyday that she walked into Seattle Grace was a nightmare. If it weren't for her friends, she would have given up a long time ago. Christina was actually being supportive. A new side, considering she usually didn't do the whole I cry you hold me kind of thing…

She was trying to be healthy for the baby. Delia would be her name. Delia Anne Grey. She could do this on her own. She wanted to give her everything. She didn't want this baby to come into the world just to be with a mom who wasn't bright and shiny.

Every time he was in a room with her she held her breath. Time stopped. She just couldn't grasp that he wasn't hers anymore. The divorce was finalized 7 months ago, and here he was shining those blue eyes for that nurse Rose. The day after she told him she didn't want to lose him, he decided they were ready for a life together.

It was a small ceremony, a few close friends. But it didn't matter, they were in love. She was scared that they had rushed everything but he reassured her they would be fine. They built a house together on his land and started their life together.

How could she have known that less than a year after promising her undying love to her husband, that she would be alone.

You took a hammer to these walls
dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away
There was nothing I could say
When you slammed the front door shut
A lot of others opened up
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me

"Mere, I can't do this anymore. I just can't." Derek explained not being able to make eye contact. She was waiting for those sparkling blue eyes to meet hers and everything would go back to how it was. How had this happened to her?

"Derek, Please don't do this, I can't go on without you, I can't do this by myself." All she wanted was his warm hands, his lips, anything to touch her and make the world stop. "I know I've been busy at the hospital, but I can try harder to be here more. I am an intern! I have to work to make it Derek. What did I do wrong? I cant function without you here…"

"You know I'll always be here, you're my best friend, but I can't do this with you anymore. I can't be your husband anymore. I want a divorce."

She just stared at him. A blank and empty stare. He had said the words she dreaded most. He wanted a divorce.

As she stood up to go to her room, she didn't look back at him once. Not one sign of hurt or sadness. Just emptiness.

Derek sat up in bed. He had another sleepless night again. He was disgusted with himself. He had hurt Meredith badly. He thought that maybe if he married her, they would be ok and happy. But then there was Rose. After their scrub room kiss, He thought he could forget her, a one time fling.

"Baby are you alright, you're sweating through the sheets." Rose asked with a concerned look.

"I'm fine, I'm just hot. What time do you have work today?" Derek asked, not even looking at her while he got up and started to get dressed. There were the nights, where he would start lying to Meredith just see Rose. He couldn't believe the things he did, after going through Addison and Mark. He never though he would have an affair. He had made a mistake. He left the love of his life for a kiss, a kiss that was an accident. He knew what he had to do.

"Oh, I've got a night shift, so I wont see you much today." She said.

"Ok, see you later."

Rose just sat there. She couldn't remember the last time he kissed her bye. It just stopped. The little things she started to notice were making her worry. Maybe it was nothing.

Well I never saw it coming
I should of started running
A long long time ago
And I never thought I'd doubt you
I'm better off without you
More than you More than you know

Meredith didn't know why she had let it go on for so long. The back and forth of this relationship. She should have ended it when he chose Addison over her. But she was stupid.

But things were finally starting to get better. Izzie and Christina had moved in with her, into the house she had built with her husband. But that didn't matter anymore. She had a two week old daughter. She was beautiful, with her Sparkling blue eyes and dark hair.

She had a positive test in her hands two weeks after the divorce was finalized. Two weeks too late. He said that he couldn't handle it. Their child. He was busy and they had just divorced.

Izzie, Christina, and Meredith had just sat down to dinner. They were drinking a bottle of wine and enjoying themselves. It was the first time Meredith had been truly happy in a long time, with the exception of Delia. She knew it would be hard, raising her without a dad, but she had her family, her best friends. She needed her life to turn around.

I'm slowly getting closure
I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting better
And I'm picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together

Derek walked up the familiar driveway. As he neared the front door he heard laughter. He walked to the window and peeked through and saw Meredith happy for the first time in as long as he could remember. He missed her.

He rang the doorbell and Meredith came to the door. Derek watched her face drop as she looked into his eyes. She felt sick. She pulled Delia closer to her chest. What was he doing here?

"Mere, I miss you. I want to come home, to you and Delia. I'm still in love with you. I want a family."

"Derek. You left us. You abandoned your own daughter and just left, for Rose. How could you do this to us? And now you want me back. Seriously, Derek? Seriously?"

"Mere I'm sorry, I made a mistake. I never wanted it to be like this." He cried to her.

"Well Derek, You should have thought about that."

"Mere honey, come finish your dinner." Finn said as he walked to the door and took Delia. "I'll go feed her a bottle for you." He said as he shot Derek a look.

"Meredith?"

"Derek, you can't expect me to wait forever. I've sat here while you have chosen everyone over me. I got over you." She said as she slammed the door in his face. She was done. A New life was starting.

Cause the day I thought I'd never get through I got over you