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Jay was laying on the bed with Marco on his chest, holding him. Right now he can't believe what he did. A guy who he's made fun of for most of his years in high school, and he just had sex with him. Jay was so confused now he doesn't know what to think. Is he gay, bi, or what, because this is the first time he's ever done something with a guy, and he had to admit, it felt a lot better than when he did it with Alex, Emma, or any other girl for that matter. What if his friends find out about this. Jay would lose his reputation and everything and he couldn't let that happen. Not when he's like the most feared guy in the school. He has to put an end to this now before it gets out of hand.
Gently he took Marco off of him and placed Marco's head on a pillow so it wouldn't wake him up. When he slipped out of the bed he heard Marco slightly groan which caused him to look back. Marco had rolled over to the spot where Jay was just sleeping. It seemed as though Marco likes body heat when he sleeps. Jay just smiled at that. Marco looked so adorable right now. There was nothing Jay wanted more than just to go hop right back in bed with him, but he knew if he were to do that he would be leading Marco on, and he doesn't want to hurt him, especially after Marco was just getting out of a relationship with a guy he's been with for a long time.
Quickly Jay went back to what he was doing and put on his clothes piece by piece, slowly because he didn't want Marco to wake up and see him leaving. If he were to stay there, and Marco caught him leaving, Jay wouldn't be able to resist taking his clothes right back off and jumping in bed with him, because he felt guilty for doing this already.
Jay was still confused as to why he felt bad about fucking and leaving. He's done this to so many girls, but why is it that he feels bad about doing this to Marco. Of course if his friends heard about this they'd probably beat him up, but then again, since when does he care about what anyone thinks, and who would even try to beat Jay up even if he was gay. Jay was known for doing some dangerous stuff so who would dare mess with him. He still couldn't take that risk though. It would be too much on not just him, but Marco. The guy was just getting out of a relationship for crying out loud, and he doesn't need another one so fast.
Finally all of his clothes were on. He took one last look at Marco, and couldn't help, but to walk over there and place a gentle kiss on his forehead before he left the room. Marco looked like an angel just laying there. That must make Jay the devil since he was leaving him there alone. Jay snuck out the door and got in his car. He made sure turn drive slow until he got out of the neighborhood, since he did not want to wake anyone with the loud driving.
Marco woke up to feel that he was in bed alone. He couldn't believe it. Just a moment ago Jay was here, and now he's gone. Marco didn't even hear him leave. It wasn't that it mattered, but he could have at least said goodbye before he left. Maybe he was still there. He might have just gotten up to go to the restroom. Marco slowly got out of bed in just his boxers.
He went down the hallway call, "Jay, Jay you here anywhere," he shouted, but got no answer so he assumed that he must have left. He went and looked through the window of his house just to make sure. Jay was gone since his car wasn't in Marco's driveway anymore. Marco just hopes Jay got home safely with driving at that time of night. It was almost 3:AM and they had school in the morning, but Marco isn't worried since he's already gotten enough sleep.
Marco went back to his bedroom and laid down, and just stared at the ceiling for awhile. He can never remember when he's ever had such a great time. The movie and everything was great, but the thing that stuck out to him the most was that him and Jay had sex. That was a little weird, since Jay was suppose to be straight, but Dylan said he dated a few girls before he came out, and Marco had even dated Ellie. Maybe that's why Jay would make fun of gays so much. He was probably so insecure about himself that he thought he could hide it by making fun of other gays.
Whatever reason it was, Marco didn't care. He was just happy that he had someone that showed him that there's more guys out there than Dylan. Maybe Jay was the one he was meant to be with. Why else would he have broken up with Dylan and met such a nicer guy who treats him a whole lot better. A guy who would make him smile just by talking. Marco couldn't wait until school started. He had to talk to Jay about what occurred. Hopefully Jay is feeling the same way Marco feels.
That day when Marco went to try to talk to Jay, he got the shock of his life. Jay was ignoring him for some reason. At first Marco thought that Jay didn't hear him or notice that he was there, but when he tried to sit next to Jay in first period, Jay would just move away from him. Marco felt hurt. Just last night he and Jay were in bed together and they had a good time at the movies. Now Jay is not even acknowledging that Marco is here and now he won't even talk to him. Marco just went and sat back in his desk and put his head down like he did the day before.
Jay saw that Marco was upset again, and he really felt sorry for him, but then again he can't let people know that he just did it with Marco. He knows Marco probably won't tell unless he wants him too. So Jay is pretty positive as long as he avoids Marco that little thing that happened last night will be kept secret.
After seeing that Marco wasn't going to chase after him anymore Jay went back to the his normal seat next to Ellie and Alex who seemed to have their attention all focused on Marco. Jay was sort of getting jealous that even if Marco is happy or sad everyone gives him all the attention. Just once he would like all the attention on him.
"Hey what's up guys," Jay said sitting down in his chair. He decided that he would pretend like he didn't know what was going. That was probably the best thing to do right now.
Ellie turned around and frowned at him. "Jay what the hell did you do to Marco," she asked.
"What do you mean what did I do to him," Jay asked innocently like he hasn't spoken to Marco in a month. They were just together last night
"You know what the hell I'm talking about," Ellie said her voice getting louder. She was getting more frustrated by the minute. Jay was always known for playing stupid when he knows exactly what is going on, and right now Ellie is getting fed up with it. "He comes in here all happy as a clown, and then you come in and he chases you around like a lost puppy while you ignore him, and then he goes back to being depressed."
"So, I don't know why you're asking me," Jay shrugged. "Why don't you ask him what's wrong?"
"Because I'm asking you," Ellie said even firmer. "I know you two hung out last night, so what happened and you better not skip over any details Jay or I promise you I will take the razor that I use to cut myself with to cut off your dick."
"Relax, Ellie," Jay said. "Nothing happened okay," he rolled his eyes. "All we did was went to the movies and then I took him home and that was it."
"Anything else," she said.
Jay was really debating on whether he could tell Ellie about him and Marco. Ellie is known for keeping secrets, but will she be able to hold on this one. No Jay couldn't trust she would. Especially since she's best friends with Alex, who is dating Paige, who is the sister of Dylan who is Marco's ex-boyfriend. If they heard about that, Jay is sure that Dylan wouldn't be too happy even though Marco and him are not together. Jay isn't scared of Dylan its just that's he's already been in enough trouble, and this is his last chance to finish school ever since that whole thing with Rick. The principle said if he caused anymore trouble, he would be expelled for good and there would be no chance he could come back to school.
"Nope, nothing else happen," Jay lied.
"You better not be lying to me Jay," Ellie warned.
"I'm not," Jay was quick to say. "You can go ask Marco if you don't believe me."
Ellie just rolled her eyes at Jay not wanting to hear his voice anymore for the day. There was something going on that Jay isn't telling her, and she's going to find out, even if Marco doesn't tell her. Ellie was surprised that Alex hadn't entered the whole thing, but Ellie looked over to find her asleep on the desk. Her and Paige must have really had some fun last night. Ellie doesn't even want to thing about it. She's straight for crying out loud and the thought of her with another girl just makes her want to vomit.
Marco decided he was finally going to confront Jay on this whether he liked it or not. He was tired of Jay not talking to him, and not even acknowledging his presence. Not only did he do that in first period but he did it in their lunch too. It was Jay who came and talked to him and asked him to the movies, and then it was Jay who kissed him first, and if thats something that he is afraid of then he's not much different from Dylan. Jay could have at least said hi to him and Marco would have been happy about that, but Jay wouldn't do it, so now Marco is fed up.
It was after school and Marco figured he better go find Jay before he leaves the school. Marco remembered exactly where Jay's locker was so he could talk to him. When he finally got over to where Jay's locker was, he found Jay standing there loading stuff into his backpack. Marco figured he better hurry up and get over there before Jay sees him and takes off without so much as a 'go to go' or 'what's up'
Marco went right up and leaned against the lockers next to Jay's and waited to see if he was going to say something. When he didn't Marco felt it was necessary to start the conversation. "So Jay, what's up with you not talking to me, are you mad at me or something," Marco asked. Jay didn't say anything. He just continued putting stuff in his back pack. "Was it something I said or did last night that you're not talking to me." Still Jay said nothing. It was like Marco wasn't even there. Once again Marco was getting the cold shoulder from someone he thought loved him. "You know what, I thought I saw something in you Jay, but I guess I was blind. You're nothing but an asshole who just uses people to get what he wants and then dumps them." With that said Marco began to walk away from him.
Jay was starting to feel awful about this whole thing. He had to tell Marco something. He didn't want Marco to think that he just used him, and then dumped him. This was strange. Why did he care if Marco thought that, but when another girl would say that to him he didn't even give a damn. As a matter of fact he would just laugh at what they said.
"Marco wait!" He called as he slammed his locked and went after Marco. He could see that Marco wasn't about to stop since Marco just kept going so he knew he had to be the one to catch up with Marco. "Marco," he said grabbing Marco's arm and causing him to turn around. "Look I'm sorry I ignored you, but can we talk."
"What makes you want to talk to me now," Marco snapped. "You've ignored me for the whole day, so maybe I should show you how it feels," Marco said. He jerked his arm away from Jay and continued down the hall.
Jay shook his head and ran after his again. This time he grabbed Marco, ignoring his protest, and pulled him down into an empty hall where no one could hear them. "Marco, I had a great time with you last night," Jay smiled. "But," he said with a change of tone, "I really don't think we should go any further."
"What are you trying to say?" Marco asked almost in tears.
Jay took a deep breath. This was hard for him to tell Marco this. "Marco, you're a great guy, and I had lots of fun with you, but I really don't see myself in a gay relationship. I'm straight Marco, and if I were to go gay than all my friends, and everything that I have would go down the drain."
"So you're saying that you don't want to be with me, because you're afraid of what everyone else will think," Marco replied back coldly.
"Marco please-"
"Don't Marco please me," Marco interrupted. "You know, I bought into all that stuff you told me yesterday, about how I was going to find another guy and how Dylan was a douche for treating me the way he did, but you know. I don't see much of a difference between you and Dylan, except Dylan wasn't worried about what other people thought of him." With that said Marco began to walk away. This time he wasn't going to listen to anything else Jay had to say.
"Marco," Jay called after him. "Marco! Marco!"
Marco continued walking away ignoring the calls that Jay was giving him. He began to feel the tears coming down his cheek The only time he's ever felt like this before and had someone calling for him like that was when he broke up with Dylan and now Jay was treating him worse than Dylan was. Marco felt like maybe he was just not meant to be with anyone. Maybe he should just be single for the rest of his life. Every guy he talks to ends up hurting him in the worst possible way so why even try to be with any guys if that's how it'll always end.
Marco walked passed everyone who tried to say something to him and went straight outside to the parking lot. At least he didn't need anyone taking him home since he could drive. Angrily he opened the door and got in and slammed the door right behind him. He took a minute and let his head rest on the steering wheel as he cried. His world was coming down and there was nothing he could do about it, and right now all he wanted was just to run away and never come back. Get away from this school since all it does is cause him grief and pain.
As soon as he felt he was done sobbing he inserted his key into the ignition, and pulled out of the high school parking lot. He left the school pretty late so it was pretty dark out, and right now Marco had a hard time driving in the dark. If things couldn't get any worse it started to rain hard. Marco really just blew the rain and it being dark out of his mind. He really just wanted to get home. He hit the gas pedal hard so that now he was going almost 80 mph. It might have been dangerous but with the day he's had, things just can't get any worse. Next thing he knew hail started to pour down. That wasn't going to stop Marco from getting home as fast as he can. He kept his foot on the gas and continued going that same speed. The hail finally got so bad that Marco couldn't see where he was going. He didn't think to even slow down. He thought fast and turned on his lights. When he could see clearly he saw that he was about to collide head on with an 18 wheeler. Marco was going to fast and he couldn't stop. The only thing he could door was swerve and next thing he knew he had crashed into a tree.
Jay was sitting at home reading a magazine trying to take his mind off of things, but so far it wasn't seeming to work. Right now all he could think about was Marco. He felt so stupid for leading him on like that. Maybe Jay needed to own up to who he was and stop trying to hide it. Jay knew he was gay, and he needed to accept the fact and hopefully his friends would too. He loved Marco and he doesn't want everything to end like this.
Finally Jay had made up his mind. Tomorrow he was going to go back to Marco and set things straight. Hopefully Marco isn't too mad at him that he won't take him back. If he doesn't then Jay has a back up plan. He's going to keep begging Marco until he does and Jay isn't afraid to embarrass himself for Marco, especially after the way he treated him.
As Jay was thinking of all this he heard his cell phone ringing. Thinking that it might be Alex trying to say that her and Paige were stranded somewhere and that he needed to come pick them up like always at this time of night, Jay ran over to his cell phone and picked it up. To his surprise it was Ellie who was calling. She probably was about to yell at him for hurting Marco, but Jay felt that he deserved it so he picked up the phone ready to bitched out at
"Yes Ellie," was the first thing he said when he picked up the phone. All he heard was crying on the other end of the phone. That wasn't what he was expecting. Right now Ellie should be biting off his head for what he did to Marco. "Ellie...Ellie," Jay kept calling her. "Ellie what's going on."
"Marco was in an accident," she cried.
"What?!" Jay said a little panicked. "What happened?'
"I don't know, I mean the doctor said that he was driving to fast and he swerved and hit a tree," she explained.
"How is he," Jay asked worried.
"He's in a comma," Ellie said sobbing.
"I'm on my way, " Jay said and hung up the phone. He quickly went to his closet and got his jacket, then got his keys off the rack and went straight to his car. On his way over to the hospital he was blaming himself for the whole accident. If he hadn't of told Marco all of that then maybe Marco wouldn't have been driving so fast and then maybe he would have never got into that car accident. How could he be such an idiot. He didn't deserve Marco. All he does is cause trouble on not just him but everyone else around him. If anything happens to Marco, Jay will never forgive himself for this.
Jay finally pulled up to the hospital. He made sure he wasn't driving too fast. Two people in a comma was the last thing that Degrassi needed. Jay got out of the car and ran into the room. He looked around to see if he could see anyone that he knew, but so far no such luck. He ran up to the front desk to see if maybe he could get some assistance
"Hello ma'am, I'm looking for Marco Delrossi," he said.
"Are you family," the nurse asked.
"No, but I'm a really close friend," Jay said.
"I see," the nurse nodded. "He's on the third floor room 311," she said.
"Thank you," Jay said very thankfully. Quickly he rushed onto the nearest elevator. He didn't pay attention to anyone that could be in there with him. All he was worried about was Marco. He couldn't set his mind on anyone or anything. Right now Jay was realizing that he shouldn't care what people think of him and Marco. Even though its only been one night, he knows he loves Marco and that's all that matters. He's never felt this way about anyone or anything(I know that line is from amazed by Lonestar and I don't want to take credit for it).
The elevator opened up and he knew this was the floor that Marco was on. When he got up there, he saw Ellie, Paige, and Alex all sitting down waiting. He decided to go over and join them.
"Got here as soon as I could," Jay said. "How is he?"
"We don't know yet," Ellie said. "The doctors haven't said anything yet."
Jay nodded and took a seat next to Ellie and waited crossing his fingers hoping that Marco would be alright. If he is Jay will promise to apologize to him and make everything up to him. He doesn't care what the cost is he just wants Marco to be okay. Jay thought that accident should have been him. He deserved it more than Marco.
Soon the doctor came out. Jay, Ellie, Paige, and Alex quickly stood up to hear what he had to say. The doctor didn't look to much like he had happy news. "He's in a comma," the doctor stated which everyone knew already. "And well we don't know how long he's going to be down, but its all up to him to pull out of it."
"Can we see him," Paige asked.
"Yes, go ahead," the doctor said.
All four of them headed back into the room to see their friend Marco with tubes tide all over him. This was a state that they'd never thought they'd see Marco in. A nice guy like Marco never deserved this. They just wish that he would wake up and that this will all be over. Each of them found a seat in the room and decided that they would stay there for awhile. Pretty soon Paige, Alex, and Ellie decided that they had to get home because they had school tomorrow. Jay decided that he would stay. He owed this to Marco for doing what he did.
Jay got out of his seat and stood over Marco and looked down at him. This was hard for him to take. He wanted to cry, but knew he had to be strong for Marco. "Hey, buddy," Jay said talking to Marco's motionless body. "I don't know if you can hear me, but I just wanted to tell you that I love you, and no matter what anyone says, you'll always be important to me," Jay said. He then got on his knees and took Marco's hand into his and waited. He wasn't going to go anywhere until Marco woke up. Jay knelt there until he finally just fell asleep.
When Marco woke up he realized that he was in a room hooked up to heavy machinery. The last thing he remembers was driving and he swerved. When he looked around he realized that he was in a hospital and his head was hurting like crazy. He must have had a concussion or a comma. More than likely it was a comma. Marco then realized he had a warm feeling on his hand. He looked down to see someone who he never thought would be here. Jason Hogart. Marco smiled when he realized it was him. He was glad to see that Jay cared about him. Marco began to rub the back of Jay's head hoping to wake him up.
Jay feeling a weird feeling on his head woke up and looked up to see a smiling Marco looking down at him. "Marco," he said surprised. All Marco did was smile. Jay got off the ground and pulled him into a tight hug, never wanting to let him go, ever again. He already made that mistake once and he wasn't going to do it again.
Marco was laying on top of Jay playing with his nipples. He was happy that Jay decided that they could be a couple and was loving every moment that he was with him. Marco couldn't think of any other place he wanted to be right now more than Jay's arms. Safe and protected from anything. Marco then looked at the clock and realized what time it was. He quickly began to get out of bed with Jay since he knew he probably needed to be home even though no one would be there and he doesn't want to spend the night by himself, but he didn't want to invade on Jay.
"Please don't go Marco," Jay begged.
"What?" Marco asked confused, not sure what he just heard.
"Stay, I know that you don't want to be home alone so spend the night with me," Jay said.
"Are you sure," Marco asked.
"I'm positive," Jay said.
"Alright," Marco said resting his head back on Jay's chest.
Jay was now driving Marco to school until Marco could get his car fixed. Once they got out of the car they linked hands and walked down the hallway together. Jay didn't care who saw. He had almost lost Marco and now he realizes how important he is to him. He's going to make every second that he has with Marco count no matter what. Jay and Marco made there way to Jay's locker and unlinked hands only so that Jay could open his locker and get set up for the day.
Right as Jay was setting up his friends decided to come over. They didn't know what was going on so they thought that Marco was over here just for the fun of it. "Hey Jay what's up," one guy said giving Jay a high five. "So is this queer bothering you," he said making the rest of the group laugh. "Do you want us to get rid of him."
Jay quickly frowned at them. "Dude shut up and don't talk to him that way," Jay snapped.
"Whoa, calm down," the guy said afraid that Jay would beat his ass. "I didn't mean to make you mad," he stated. "Why are you defending this guy, I mean you use to make fun of him."
"Because he's my boyfriend," Jay said proudly.
"You can't be serious," the guy said.
"I am, and you better be nice to him or I will beat you ass," Jay warned them.
"Will do," the guy said. "Catch you later Jay," the guy said as he left. "You too Marco," he added making sure he obeyed what Jay said and was nice to Marco.
"Thanks," Marco said smiling. No one has ever stood up for him like that.
"Anything for you baby," Jay said. "Now get going or else you'll be late for first period," Jay told him.
"But aren't you coming too," Marco asked.
"Yeah, but I'm going to be awhile, so you go on ahead and I'll catch up," Jay said. Marco was about to walk away, but Jay grabbed him by the arm and turned him around and kissed his hard. He pulled away and let Marco go only to slap his ass seductively. That told Marco exactly what Jay wanted tonight. Marco continue onto class.
Just as Marco left, Alex decided to come over. "Jay we need to talk," she said.
"Sure," he said. "Can we walk and talk at the same time," Jay asked.
"Alright," Alex said not really caring since this was something important. "Look Jay," she said. "I know this might not be a good time to tell you this, but its important."
"Okay, just go ahead and say it," Jay said.
"I'm pregnant,"
Okay so that's my update for the holidays. I'm sorry it was so late, and I had to rush the ending or I wouldn't get this chapter up till Christmas lol
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