I'm Not Him
Part 3
Disclaimer: Aya!!! I don't own Digimon!!!
* Author's notes are in asterisks and I tend to swear sometimes so if you don't like it read the no swearing version. *
~Matt's POV~
Tears were pouring down Sora's face. It pained me so to see her crying, but I knew it was because of that damned Tai. Well perhaps it was partly my fault…
"Tai I never knew…" Sora said tears still coming down her face.
"I guess I just couldn't gather up the courage to tell you," Tai said. Oh how ironic he has the crest of courage.
Sora just stood there speechless, so was Tai; as for me I was somewhat sickened. I feel guilty for feeling this way but I cannot help it, it was Tai who confused things for me, for us. I might as well break the silence…
"So what the hell are you going to do now? Are you going to freaking kiss him and forget everything that happened yesterday?" I asked.
"What the hell?" Sora asked me.
"Oh you know what I'm talking about. You just don't say "I never you felt that way," to someone and cry without doing shit," I said. How predictable Sora will go back running to Tai and I will be alone once again…
"Matt, even though I'm pretty damn close to killing you, you're still my friend even though I don't like to admit it. Not even I would stoop to such a low like taking someone else's girl. I'll leave you two to discuss things and work things out…" Tai said with tears now forming once again in his eyes. Thanks Tai, now maybe Sora and I will still have a chance.
Tai walked off into camp…I saw Sora's eyes never left him until he was out of site. His tears were shown on the dirt ground.
"Sora we need to talk," I said. Well duh! God what's wrong with me?
"Well I kind of noticed that Matt," Sora retorted.
"What will become of us?" I asked her.
"I think you know the answer to that question…" Sora replied, not even looking at me. I guess all along I really did now the answer. I guess I just wanted to hold on to the chance that we could have actually been together when all along at the back of my mind I knew that Tai would have Sora in the end.
"Yeah I but…but this isn't fucking fair!" I yelled.
"I'm sorry Matt but I guess when I said I chose you over Tai, I thought that I was just his thing for now and that tomorrow it could be someone else but after I learned that Tai had loved me for so long already it brought back the possibility of us," Sora explained.
"So what you just decided to take me because Tai may not like you for a long time? Oh great so I'm just your substitute for Tai? I'm your second string? I'm your last resort?" I asked her.
"Matt I'm sorry I hurt you," Sora said almost near tears.
"So I am those things, and probably more. Whatever Sora I hope you and Tai are very happy together and are very happy that you broke my heart," I told her and walked off.
"MATT!" Sora called. I just ignored her; here I go once again alone. All because Sora felt sympathy for Tai because he spent six years chasing her. All because Tai had to be there when we kissed, all because I'm not Tai. Yeah, because I'm not him and I'll never be him.
"Matt?" I heard someone call I turned around to find Tai. Great he was really the person I wanted to see right now.
"Yeah what the hell do you want now ass hole?" I yelled.
"A few minutes ago you were on top of the world looking down on me and now your acting like it's all my fault that you don't have Sora. Don't you think that after all this time I deserve her? I can finally say that fucking struggle was worth it!" Tai exclaimed.
"But still…" I whined.
"Matt I'm sorry but you know I've dreamt about me and Sora being together when I was seven years old. I even dreamt that we were old and had 20 grandchildren pulling at what was left of my hair and trashing our house," Tai told me.
I was speechless…I couldn't even imagine marriage with Sora let alone growing old together.
"When I saw you two kissing it ripped my heart into pieces. My plans, my dreams, my future were all completely destroyed. There are plenty of chicks out there that are just as good, maybe better than Sora but that's not very likely," Tai said.
I couldn't help but laugh, I did feel somewhat better. "Thanks Tai, I'll see you later," I said. I walked towards camp and took a seat by the fire. I could see Tai and Sora's shadows in the trees they were kissing. Perhaps Tai is right; there are lots of chicks out there, just not in the Digiworld.
"Hey Matt, are you okay?" someone asked me. I turned around and saw Mimi.
"Yeah, why wouldn't I be?" I asked her.
"I know," Mimi replied.
"Oh, yeah I should be fine. I should have known that those two were inseparable. Oh sorry," I said.
"What? Why?" Mimi asked.
"I know," I answered her.
"Huh? Know what?" she asked me.
"That you like Tai," I told her.
"WHAT?!" Mimi practically screamed.
"You don't? I always thought you did," I told her.
"I don't like Tai!" Mimi whined. I haven't noticed it before but Mimi was kind of cute. In an irritating sweet way. I guess it's not such a bad thing that I'm not Tai.
The End
I'm sorry that was an extremely gay ending…
Part 3
Disclaimer: Aya!!! I don't own Digimon!!!
* Author's notes are in asterisks and I tend to swear sometimes so if you don't like it read the no swearing version. *
~Matt's POV~
Tears were pouring down Sora's face. It pained me so to see her crying, but I knew it was because of that damned Tai. Well perhaps it was partly my fault…
"Tai I never knew…" Sora said tears still coming down her face.
"I guess I just couldn't gather up the courage to tell you," Tai said. Oh how ironic he has the crest of courage.
Sora just stood there speechless, so was Tai; as for me I was somewhat sickened. I feel guilty for feeling this way but I cannot help it, it was Tai who confused things for me, for us. I might as well break the silence…
"So what the hell are you going to do now? Are you going to freaking kiss him and forget everything that happened yesterday?" I asked.
"What the hell?" Sora asked me.
"Oh you know what I'm talking about. You just don't say "I never you felt that way," to someone and cry without doing shit," I said. How predictable Sora will go back running to Tai and I will be alone once again…
"Matt, even though I'm pretty damn close to killing you, you're still my friend even though I don't like to admit it. Not even I would stoop to such a low like taking someone else's girl. I'll leave you two to discuss things and work things out…" Tai said with tears now forming once again in his eyes. Thanks Tai, now maybe Sora and I will still have a chance.
Tai walked off into camp…I saw Sora's eyes never left him until he was out of site. His tears were shown on the dirt ground.
"Sora we need to talk," I said. Well duh! God what's wrong with me?
"Well I kind of noticed that Matt," Sora retorted.
"What will become of us?" I asked her.
"I think you know the answer to that question…" Sora replied, not even looking at me. I guess all along I really did now the answer. I guess I just wanted to hold on to the chance that we could have actually been together when all along at the back of my mind I knew that Tai would have Sora in the end.
"Yeah I but…but this isn't fucking fair!" I yelled.
"I'm sorry Matt but I guess when I said I chose you over Tai, I thought that I was just his thing for now and that tomorrow it could be someone else but after I learned that Tai had loved me for so long already it brought back the possibility of us," Sora explained.
"So what you just decided to take me because Tai may not like you for a long time? Oh great so I'm just your substitute for Tai? I'm your second string? I'm your last resort?" I asked her.
"Matt I'm sorry I hurt you," Sora said almost near tears.
"So I am those things, and probably more. Whatever Sora I hope you and Tai are very happy together and are very happy that you broke my heart," I told her and walked off.
"MATT!" Sora called. I just ignored her; here I go once again alone. All because Sora felt sympathy for Tai because he spent six years chasing her. All because Tai had to be there when we kissed, all because I'm not Tai. Yeah, because I'm not him and I'll never be him.
"Matt?" I heard someone call I turned around to find Tai. Great he was really the person I wanted to see right now.
"Yeah what the hell do you want now ass hole?" I yelled.
"A few minutes ago you were on top of the world looking down on me and now your acting like it's all my fault that you don't have Sora. Don't you think that after all this time I deserve her? I can finally say that fucking struggle was worth it!" Tai exclaimed.
"But still…" I whined.
"Matt I'm sorry but you know I've dreamt about me and Sora being together when I was seven years old. I even dreamt that we were old and had 20 grandchildren pulling at what was left of my hair and trashing our house," Tai told me.
I was speechless…I couldn't even imagine marriage with Sora let alone growing old together.
"When I saw you two kissing it ripped my heart into pieces. My plans, my dreams, my future were all completely destroyed. There are plenty of chicks out there that are just as good, maybe better than Sora but that's not very likely," Tai said.
I couldn't help but laugh, I did feel somewhat better. "Thanks Tai, I'll see you later," I said. I walked towards camp and took a seat by the fire. I could see Tai and Sora's shadows in the trees they were kissing. Perhaps Tai is right; there are lots of chicks out there, just not in the Digiworld.
"Hey Matt, are you okay?" someone asked me. I turned around and saw Mimi.
"Yeah, why wouldn't I be?" I asked her.
"I know," Mimi replied.
"Oh, yeah I should be fine. I should have known that those two were inseparable. Oh sorry," I said.
"What? Why?" Mimi asked.
"I know," I answered her.
"Huh? Know what?" she asked me.
"That you like Tai," I told her.
"WHAT?!" Mimi practically screamed.
"You don't? I always thought you did," I told her.
"I don't like Tai!" Mimi whined. I haven't noticed it before but Mimi was kind of cute. In an irritating sweet way. I guess it's not such a bad thing that I'm not Tai.
The End
I'm sorry that was an extremely gay ending…