Slipping inside my mind, I part my lips and let him slide his tongue into my mouth. He is soft, and warm, and when he kisses me my lips itch with the tingle. And he licks, and sucks, and me, I'm powerless, but happy.

He should stop, he's getting his thrills by making me squirm closer to him, or wiggling with the discomfort of my shrinking pants. I don't stop him though. I want this, want him to perpetrate me, because somehow during this kissing, I feel this overwhelming sense of emptiness growing in my belly, and heading south. Fill me up, thats what I need. If he were to play in me, he might eradicate that emptiness. This stranger... I want him to be so deep in me that he is searching for my core.

"Roxas, Roxas, Roxas," he whispers into my mouth, "Remember me, I won't stop, I'll do whatever it takes for you to remember me."

And we kiss and kiss, and kiss, then with desperation he finally does stop, and presses our foreheads together. "Please remember me..."

I lightly press my lips to his chin, silently giving him permission to violate me.

Whoever you are, Axel, I won't fight this. Break me open, help me remember you. My vision is fading, my groin is burning, all is disappearing... I've felt like this before, I think I disappeared once... More, more, more, I give into the frenzy of kisses. We begin again.

Promise me that all things too good for this world can live on in other places than just my heart. Don't let them be forgotten.

Axel, if the darkness exists to keep us apart, then I'll generate the light.

♥

Generator

Chapter 1 - Roxas' POV

The closest thing I think I could compare it to is waking up in someone else's bed, and feeling, for a split second, that terrifying realization that you have no idea where you are. Yeah, it's like that, but it's everyday. I just don't know much about who I am, or even where I am. Instead of worrying about it, though, I just decided to go with it, and see where it takes me.

I do know some things, thank you. I know that there's this girl in my memory, somewhere deep, a girl I used to be in love with. I can see her face, and her bright blonde hair framing it. I don't remember her name though. I know that this isn't the first time that I've had amnesia, because there's a glimmer of a false town, and friends, even if I can't exactly place them. The one person I remember perfectly is Sora. My Somebody, because I, I shouldn't exist. I guess I'm still inside of him, living on. Or maybe I'm dead? Or actually alive somewhere...?

When I'm scared, or sleepy, or just zoned out in general, a voice calls me, says "Roxas, Roxas, Roxas" in repetition. I don't know who it is, but they comfort me. I know they're real somewhere, and I need to find them. I need to quench this curiosity. That voice is the answer, I'm sure, because if it wasn't for it, I wouldn't have remembered that Roxas was my name. As soon as I heard it though, I knew. If he, whoever he is, talked to me, everything would come back to me, I'm sure.

Maybe I'm selfish, but I can't help but feel sorry for myself. Who has to suffer amnesia more than once? Looking down at my chest, I sigh. I, of all people, don't have the right to be selfish when all around me people care for me and help me, all for nothing, since I'll never be able to repay them. I'm lucky. I'm lucky, and so goddamned stupid to be selfish and unsatisfied. I may not be scared, but I'm in need of answers. I'm too restless not knowing things I have already forgotten before!

But this is the last night wondering what things will be like if I find the owner of that mysterious voice, because I'm leaving to meet him. I will meet him, I'll do whatever it takes to remember him.

Whoever you are, I'm coming to you.

♥♥♥

...tbc...