A Mind's Dark Abyss: Haven or Prison

( A/N This fan fiction takes place when Shuichi was raped by Taki. I've kind of extended it in a way...making it so Shuichi has been staying at Yuki's house for about four months …and Yuki hasn't declared them as lovers yet…This fic travels more into how Shuichi felt and what the experience did to him… that is if I get it right lol… I hope you guys enjoy it... :)

buchouslvr: thank you for the wonderful idea... i hope it lives up to what you thought it would be :)

Thank you Cappy!!! My wonderful beta and friend!!! (L) )

At first he didn't understand. He probably did, deep down somewhere, but his mind wouldn't let him figure it out. Taki smiled at him and his eyes flashed dangerously. Then the door slid open and Shuichi could see three men standing there. His eyes widened and he looked at Taki again.

Taki chuckled darkly and slowly rose off the floor. The men came into the room and smiled lustfully at Shuichi.

"Time for a little fun," Taki hissed as he grabbed a handful of Shuichi's hair and painfully yanked him to his feet.

"Let me go!" He screamed, and got a fist to the stomach in return.

Shuichi doubled over in pain as he tried to breathe. He felt a hot breath on his ear as Taki whispered, "I'm going to enjoy this more then you can possible imagine." His tongue flicked Shuichi ear and Shuichi couldn't help but shudder away from the touch.

Taki chuckled once again, and each of Shuichi's arms was grabbed as he was hauled into the hallway.

Thoughts were running through his head as he tried to think of a way out of this. He breathed slowly, as the ache in his stomach slowly dulled. Each of his arms were held in a vice grip as he was dragged now to the door of the apartment.

The man who wasn't holding him asked Taki, "Why can't we do it here? I don't want to wait any longer."

Taki's eyes met Shuichi's and he smirked as he replied, "This is going to get messy, and I don't want to have to clean up afterwards."

Shuichi started to struggle against the men who held him. They were strong but not as fast as he was. He was able to squirm one of his arms free and punch the other man in the nose to get his other arm free. He started to run and had his hand on the door knob. But there was four of them and one of him. He was pulled to the ground, three strong bodies holding him down so he was facing up at Taki. One man held one arm; the other held the other arm and the last man held both his feet.

"You won't get away with this," Shuichi screamed, and as he said it he realized just how corny it sounded. How many times had he heard those exact words in American movies?

Taki's eyes slowly travelled up his body before meeting his eyes again. His smirk never left his face as he moved closer and closer to Shuichi. He looked down on him and slowly lowered himself onto the squirming boy. He straddled Shuichi and put his hands on either side of his head, slowly lowering himself down. Shuichi flinched away but there was no where for him to turn, no where to go.

Yuki I need you.

Taki's lips were a mere inch away from his, his eyes still locked on Shuichi's. He leaned forward the rest of the way but turned at the last moment, his lips once again beside Shuichi's ear. Taki moved his hands and they slowly found there way up Shuichi's shirt and they started roaming across his chest.

"If you behave yourself," He whispered, "I promise to leave Yuki alone."

He knew he had Shuichi when he felt the boy go stiff under him.

"If you behave," he said again, "No one will ever have to know that Yuki is gay. No one will anonymously send a tip to the local newspapers. Yuki's life…and career won't be ruined."

His hot breath engulfed Shuichi's ear as he whispered once more, answering what Shuichi had just said. He knew it was true, the young boy had stopped struggling and Taki could taste the salty tears that now streamed down his face.

"I've already won." And once again Shuichi could feel Taki's moist tongue on his ear, as it slowly swept down his jaw bone and his neck.

Taki sat up slowly, relishing in the fear and anguish in the young boys eyes. Shuichi tried to hold back the tears now; he wasn't going to give them anymore satisfaction.

Shuichi closed his eyes and allowed him self to be dragged out of the house. Allowed him self to be put into the car that waited outside for them. He tried to make his mind blank, hoping to escape into his mind before they started on him. The darkness was slightly comforting; in his mind he didn't have to feel the two men who sat on either side of him. He could ignore the way the one on the right moved his hands over Shuichi's chest. He could ignore how the one on the left leaned over and ran his tongue down Shuichi's neck. And he could ignore Taki's dark laughs, hinting that there was more to come. Much more then he could ever imagine.

Instead he filled the darkness in his mind with the memories of another. He could remember his golden hair, and the gleam of his eyes. The way he looked at Shuichi when he thought he was asleep. He remembered the way his hands pulled Shuichi close to his body after they were done making love. The same arms wrapped around his shoulders, pulling him closer to him. The rare smiles that seemed to come more often then the cold glares. As they drove to there destination Shuichi focused on Yuki, his only thoughts were of his Yuki.

I'll protect you Yuki. Don't worry I'll protect you.

As the car stopped Shuichi was roughly dragged out of the back, he took comfort in the fact that he was protecting Yuki. No matter what they did to him, he would never regret saving Yuki's career. He would never regret stopping Taki from hurting Yuki.

By now they were in a different place. It looked like a basement but Shuichi had no idea where he was. He opened his eyes and saw a small bed and a door at the end of the room. He could see two of the men outside the door and Taki stood silhouetted in the light coming through the door. Their eyes met again.

"Have fun."

The door closed behind him and Shuichi was left alone with the man. This was the one whose hands had roamed carelessly under Shuichi's shirt. His eyes shinned with lust as he slowly advanced on Shuichi.

Everything that he had convinced himself started to fade as the man took a step forward. Shuichi's back was to the wall now and he couldn't look away from the man's hungry eyes.

Help me Yuki.

(A/N and that was chapter 1…Poor Shuichi, in such a horrible position. He will protect Yuki to the end. But he's the one who needs to be protected. Please review!!!