Authors Note: Hey guys. This is my first Kingdom Hearts fan fiction...well my first fan fiction period so try and be a little gentle? I openly accept constructive criticism but at least be nice about it. No flamers...well...unless of course you're Axel...but thats beside the point. This is only the first chapter, but I want to know if I should continue. Sorry its kinda short, but its just sort of a prologue. Rated M for language, Shounen-Ai and later chapters.
In this story, Roxas, Sora, Namine, Selphie, Tidus, and Kairi are 15(as in the game), and Wakka and Riku are 16(as I assume is about correct).
Disclaimer: OH YEAH! I totally own Kingdom Hearts! That why there's so many make-out scenes. No. really though, if i DID own Kingdom Hearts...there would be a lot less game play(not that it doesn't rock 'cause it does) and a lot more Yaoi/Shounen-Ai videos.
Well...hope you enjoy!
Roxas POV
I like it on Destiny Islands. I'm glad I ended up here after this whole mess.
Don't get me wrong, I mean I do miss Twilight Town. I miss Olette and Pence and Hayner. I miss sitting on the ledge of the clock tower eating sea-salt ice cream. I even miss Seifer and his gang. Not because I was particularly fond of them, god knows I wasn't with all the trouble they gave us, but it's still weird to not even have them around anymore, and that so much of my "life" wasn't even real. When I really think about it, it's hard to believe I'm not depressed, and that I can even stand not being there. But there's one thing that makes it all bearable:
HIM
Even before I met him, I knew. All those dreams. I'd toss and turn in my bed thinking about him. Every night. And in the morning, I'd feel completely rested. He's why I left Organization XIII in the first place. I wanted to meet him. I needed to. We're practically the same person. He is the other me, I am the other him. He is my somebody. My Sora. And no one can ever change that. No one can ever take that away from me.
I love him. I can't. But I do. I really do. But I cant help it. An endless number of times I've stared at him not realizing I was doing it. Countless nights I've spent lying there staring at the ceiling...wanting...wishing...for him to be mine. But I know that it can never happen. Four little reasons for my life to be so full of misery.
Reason Number One: Riku
I don't have a problem with Riku personally. I understand him. He loves Sora. No one understands that better than I do. But Riku deserves Sora a lot more than me. It's unbelievable how much he did for him. He entered the darkness and turned into someone horrible...all for Sora. And what have I done for him? I tried to kill his best friend that's what. But it was because I was fueled by anger and jealousy. At that point I already knew how Riku felt about Sora...I had seen all of Sora's memories...and I could tell right away...Riku really loved him. And when I came in contact with Riku, I felt like I wanted him gone. But then, I couldn't kill him. I couldn't do it. I thought about how Sora would feel having his best friend taken away from him like that. I also found out something that I can barely wrap my head around. I found out why I'm here. Riku. He created me. He is the reason I exist, and the reason I can even love Sora in the first place. I owe so much to him. And I still don't like him. Because he has Sora. He confessed to him when we got back, and Sora accepted. I knew it was coming, but I still felt more horrible than I ever had in my life. But how could I even object? They had been best friends forever, and it seemed that to them I was just the new kid.
Reason Number Two: Kairi
One things for sure: Kairi is not very fond of me. And the feeling is mutual. Kairi reminds me of Olette during her fangirl days. She scared the shit out of me. At one point we thought we had to tie her to a rock to get her to stop squealing and jumping around hitting things(including us). Even worse, she was a Yaoi fangirl. On my end, there's nothing wrong with Yaoi, I mean, I myself am madly, uncontrollably in love with another guy. However, she tried to create Yaoi where Yaoi wasn't meant to be created(ex. Roxas/Hayner). That was one of the most awkward months of my life. But I wont get into that. Back to Kairi. She is not quite that extreme of a fangirl, but it's enough that shes a Riku/Sora fan. She just loves rubbing it in my face too. Yes, that does mean that Kairi knows how I feel. How? You ask. Well that leads me to...
Reason Number Three: Namine
I really do like Namine. Not in THAT way, but I would have to say that I consider Namine my friend. The one downside to having Namine here on Destiny Islands with us: She's a girl and therefore, has also become friends with Kairi. Which wouldn't usually be too much of a problem, except for this: In addition her wonderful drawings, Namine also writes in a journal. A journal that Kairi just so happened to find and read(apparently girls don't hide those things anymore). And thus, Kairi knew more about me than I had ever planned. I'm very glad that neither of them have told Sora or Riku anything, but I think it would be better if they just didn't know.
And of course, Reason Number Four: Roxas
Sometimes I hate myself. I'm too much of a chicken. I mean, Riku was able to confess to Sora, why cant I? At the moment, I don't even know the answer to that question. Every time I think I might be able to, I look into those big, blue eyes of his, and I can't speak. I never thought I'd be a cliche kind of guy. But Sora really takes my breath away sometimes. I-I've never felt this way before...