Author's Note: Hey all! So, once I tallied up to see what people wanted, and Memories won. So, that's what this chapter is going to be. But, a LOT of people also wanted Angels, so I'll probably put that song in later. Happy reading!
Memories
Within Temptation
Edward's Point of View
"Is it time for presents?" Emmett asked, acting as if he were a seven year old human. He was running in circles, grinning. Rosalie finally reached out to stop him, and had him sit in one of the chairs.
"Will saying yes make you calm down?" Jasper asked, rubbing his temples. His excitement and hyperactivity is giving me a headache…
"Yes." Emmett struggled to compose his face. Finally! Today has been so boring, what with Edward too depressed to do anything fun, and everyone else avoiding me. Now, we can actually do something!
I sighed.
I had thought that I was doing better about hiding my depression. It had been a year after all; I had thought that I should be better at hiding my emotions from everybody (excluding Jasper, of course). Apparently, that wasn't the case.
It wasn't exactly like she was something I could easily forget, though, vampire memory or not. Every single day I regretted leaving her, and every day I battled with myself over whether or not to go back to her and beg for forgiveness. Only one thing stopped me from doing that; the human mind was like a sieve. She had probably either forgotten about me, or lost all feelings towards me.
" Alice," Emmett said, bringing me from my thoughts. He handed her a small, flat box. It looked exactly like every single present with her name on it.
It was a big shopping spree.
Her fourth one.
Of course. Every year, Alice gets shopping sprees, Emmett gets some fancy electronic device, Rosalie gets some sort of make up, I get CDs, and Jasper gets war novels. Carlisle and Esme usually give each other some sort of jewelry.
It was the same every Christmas. I didn't know why I couldn't miss this one. I just wanted to get back up to my room and be alone. I didn't do very well around the others, lately. Especially not Jasper. And he was sitting far too close to me. This, of course, meant every two seconds he was either shooting me sympathetic glances or sending peaceful waves through the air.
Apparently, it was time for me to receive my presents, because the next present landed in my lap. I looked up at Emmett, who was grinning. This, too, was 'tradition'. Emmett got giddy every Christmas, as if he became mentally seven.
"Gee, I wonder what it is," I said tonelessly, pulling off the red wrapping paper, along with the tag saying 'Merry Christmas from Emmett and Rosalie'. Inside, 'big surprise', was a CD.
The band was 'Werewolf.'
I raised an eyebrow.
"Interesting CD choice," I said. Emmett laughed. Rosalie kept her usual scowl in place. I skimmed over the CD. The band was from Washington. Forks.
The CD case cracked.
"Edward?" Jasper said, concerned by the sudden bombardment of emotions he was sensing.
"Very… interesting… CD," I repeated, focusing on staying in one piece. The rest of the event passed in a blur. When it was finally over, I gathered my CDs, the one by 'Werewolf' on top, and rushed up to my room. No one took that as anything different than the usual. Once I got to my room, I examined the CD more carefully. It took me a minute, but I finally found the artists' names…
And swore.
'Vocals: Isabella Swan.'
I swore again, my eyes raking over the CD more anxiously. On the inside cover, there was a dedication, in fancy blood red writing.
'To the vampire who broke my heart and left me for dead.'
"Emmett!" I yelled, not sure what to feel. Emmett, along with Alice and Jasper, appeared outside my door. "Where did you get this CD?" I demanded, my voice harsh with more emotion than I had ever had since we left. This surprised everyone.
"Just a local music store," Emmett said, taken aback.
"What's wrong?" Alice asked.
"Do you know who the lead singer is in this band?" I asked them, holding up the case.
"Some random freak obsessed with werewolves?" Emmett guessed. I shook my head.
"How would we know? We…" Alice trailed off, her eyes going blank for a moment. When her vision ended, her mouth fell open. "Oh my God," she whispered.
"Who is the lead singer?" Jasper asked.
"Bella," I whispered, her voice burning my throat a little on the way out. I hadn't said her name in almost eight months, and it sent a spasm of emotions through me. Jasper tried, pointlessly, to calm me down.
"That can't be right," Jasper said. At this point, the rest of the family was outside the door, their eyes wide with shock.
I opened the case, placing the CD gently in my music system. I took a slow, deep breath, before pushing 'play.'
A guitar started up a steady beat, the bass playing the counter-melody. And then she started singing.
Memories
Memories
Memories
In This World You Tried
Not Leaving Me Alone Behind
There's No Other Way
I'll Pray To The Gods: Let Him Stay
The Memories Ease The Pain Inside
Now I Know Why
All Of My Memories
Keep You Near
It's All About Us
Imagine You'd Be Here
All Of My Memories
Keep You Near
The Silent Whispers
The Silent Tears
Made Me Promise I'd Try
To Find My Way Back In This Life
I Hope There Is A Way
To Give Me A Sign You're Okay
Reminds Me Again
It's Worth It All
So I Can Go Home
All Of My Memories
Keep You Near
It's All About Us
Imagine You'd Be Here
All Of My Memories
Keep You Near
The Silent Whispers
The Silent Tears
Together In All These Memories
I See Your Smile
All The Memories I Hold Dear
Darling You Know I Love You Till The End Of Time
All Of My Memories
Keep You Near
It's All About Us
Imagine You'd Be Here
All Of My Memories
Keep You Near
The Silent Whispers
The Silent Tears
I was frozen. My entire body had gone into lockdown, and, as the next song started, I picked up the CD, turning it to the back. All of these songs were either angry or sad songs, I realized. I remembered the dedication. 'To the vampire who broke my heart and left me for dead.'
She was angry with me. Murderously angry. Part of me tried to reason that she had full right to. But I wasn't listening to that voice. I only wanted a chance to explain myself, to make everything right.
But how could I do that if she's so angry with me? She hates me; she wouldn't let me anywhere near her.
I'd have to try, I decided. I would find her and explain everything, make her understand. At least then she would know all the details.
Alice grinned.
"I'll buy the tickets," Alice said.
Author's Note:
Yay for Edward's Point of View!
Don't worry; there will be longer EPOV in the next chapter. My cliffy side just begged me to stop here. It will continue in the next chapter.
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