--Bark at the Moon--
Its an ironic thing to have 'love' permanently inked on your forehead when you've never experienced it--at least not truthfully. My father used me as his guinea pig, and bound me to this lifeless sleepwalking. My mother cursed my existence with her very last breath. My uncle, who claimed to love me, who taught me what love meant (at least in the sense of words) tried to assassinate me. He was asked to murder me by my father when they thought that I was no longer under his control.
I was isolated. My siblings grew together as if I didn't exist. They weren't supposed to come anywhere near me--Temari and Kankuro were taught, like the rest of the village, to fear me because I bared the incarnate soul of a demon. I was evil. How could it be, that, now, they rescue me. How is it possible that they could love me, after robbing them of their parents, after causing them so much dread. I can feel something that I cannot describe inside of me...something much different than the desperate whispers of Shukaku. It's strange to bleed, to be so...dethroned. I've been brought to this place by a boy who's lived a similar life to my own. His optimism, his vehement protection made me slightly nauseous. We both cast the shadow of a demon, and yet, unlike me, he lived with acquired friends...important people. He lives to prove that he is not a monster, that is how he validates his existence. When I was feeling an emotion, whether that be the vice-grip pain in my chest, or simple anger...I would kill. Once wasn't enough. No challenge, not enough of the pleasing red tone in the sand.
Uzumaki Naruto was a challenge that I faced, and could not accomplish. Kankuro whispered to Temari about humbling experiences after he had thought that I passed out that day, after I apologized. It was a strange idea to want to achieve something one moment, and something completely it's opposite in the next. I still live to validate my existence, to be recognized. I do so by having learned to protect my village, as Kagekaze. I know that I earned this position out of people's fear, I know that they use me. But one day, even I could be respected. That's what I thought.
When I woke up, I found that a horde of people...a few with the most important roles were not even from my own village...stood around me. They had risked their lives trying to save me. While I am beginning to understand fondness, it is still a foreign subject to me. Females were clawing at each other to get a position closer to me--how alien.
Naruto had come. He respected, of course, with jealousy, all that I had accomplished here. I am the Kazekage. Suna is under my protection. I have... important people, now.
Ozzy Osbourne - Bark at the Moon
Screams break the silence
Waking from the dead of night
Vengence is boiling
He's returned to kill the light
Then when he's found who he's looking for
Listen in awe and you'll hear him
Bark at the moon
(laughs)
Years spent in torment
Buried in a nameless grave
Now he has risen
Miracles would have to save
Those that the beast is looking for
Listen in awe and you'll hear him
Bark at the moon
Hey, yeah
Bark at the moon
They cursed and buried him
Along with shame
And thought his timeless soul had gone (gone)
In empty burning hell--unholy one
But he's returned to prove them wrong
so wrong
oh yeah, baby
Howling in shadows
Living in a lunar spell
He finds his heaven
Spewing from the mouth of hell
Those that the beast is looking for
Listen in awe and you'll hear him
Bark at the moon.
Hey, yeah
Bark at the moon
Hey, yeah
Bark at the moon
Whoa Whoa Yeah,
Bark at the moon
(howls)