The new double partner
Resume: Yuushi is now going to play singles, and Gakuto decided to forget his long one-sided love towards his now ex-partner. It is then that Hiyoshi declared himself to him. Mainly Gakuto's POV, Hiyogaku and some hints of oshiato (one-sided of oshitari)
Disclaimer: I don't own Prince of Tennis or its characters.
Author's Notes: some cursing…oh and if you are sensitive to guy x guy sex, please don't read this…
AND THIS CHAPTER WASN'T CORRECTED! (;;) sorry about the several grammar and other type of mistakes that will probably be found on this fic…
Back to gakuto's POV.
Warning/s: yaoi (guy x guy explicite content… not as much as I would like… but my vocabulary has many flaws..)
Chapter six – the camping trip
'Am I being too self conscious?' I slightly looked to Hiyoshi that was reading some martial arts book while we were on the bus, everyone was kind of scattered in the bus, since it was so big that we had plenty of space, some were sitting in pairings (like Shishido and Ootori) and some were isolated (like Yuushi and Atobe), but that didn't meant much since they often went to other seats so that they could talk to other colleagues.
Hiyoshi had sit next to me, but since I ignored him in the beginning he left me alone for the time being.
But the fact that he wasn't talking to me or interacting with me in some way, but still having his presence wasn't helping my mood.
I looked to him now, studying how his eyes were moving has he read.
'So the gekokujou freak knows how to read, huh… But what can he find interesting in a book about martial arts… don't he already learn it all…'
He took his eyes off the book, and turned in my direction.
"Huh." I grunted, he was looking to me, with a surprised look to have found me watching him.
There was about 5 seconds that we stayed with those stupid faces looking to one another, but my red blushing took effect after that and I turned the look away with embarrassment.
"What?!" I asked, trying to get out of that situation in some way.
Hiyoshi smiled.
"Nothing… just wondering why you were looking at me…"
"Is it forbidden now?? Gekokujou freak… Don't give me that smirk! I was just questioning what can you find useful on a martial arts book if your family runs a dojo…"
"Oh" He looked to the book he was reading, smiling softly "Although most of the information is crap, there is sometimes good hints on attacks, and I can take some ideas since in martial art there is a need of being creative sometimes in order to become stronger…"
"Tsk, I though creative wasn't in your vocabulary, since you are always saying Gekokujou this, gekokujou that…" I teased him so that I could relax, he looked to me in a superior look of his.
"At least I don't go around jumping like a rabbit all the time…" He started to read his book again, but I grabbed his collar and pulled him to me.
"Try to repeat that!" I said pissed of.
"Hum…" He made a face as if he had understood something, then smiled with his full teeth's "I am glad that you are like acting normal again… You seemed strangely self-conscious around me…"
I once again found my face real red.
"You were watching me…" I said.
"Is it that bad to be concern with the person you like?" Hyoshi said it so bluntly that I was unable to respond, I turned to the window, avoiding his eyes.
"What is it… that you like… about me…" I ended up asking to him, not daring to look to his face, but I could feel him looking at his book, without reading it.
"I wont tell you." He answered, I looked to him, he had his normal bored face, as if he didn't owned any explanations in the world.
"Grr, why not? It's my business you know!!" my blush was gone, I was now looking to him upset.
"Why do you want to know?" he asked in return.
"Because…"
'I cannot say that's that if I know what he likes about me maybe I can figure out if I like him in return or not… It was just a stupid dream anyway… I don't feel anything!!'
I once again turned my look away and showed him my back.
But without a notice his arms surrounded me and his chest touched my back, he puts his chin on my shoulder.
My heart starts beating like 10000 per second, I am almost afraid that it jumps out of my chest.
"Huh… Huh… Let go you idiot!!" I feel a shiver on my spine as his breathing touches my skin on the backbone, I try not to show any of what is going on with my body, but it's hard enough don't start breathing more rapidly.
"There are a million reasons and at the same time none…" He said to my ear, I unconsciously felt aroused with his voice, he was saying those things calm and confident, not like the first time that he had declared at me, that he only showed calm but he was nervous on reality "But… what matters is that I love you, so much that just being able to be by your side makes me more happy that I ever been in my life…"
I got to my limit, blushing a lot from those words I turned around and pushed him away.
"D… don't say those things… in such a forward.. way… If you do that… I don't know…"I closed my mouth so that I didn't say more, I got up and went to the seat next to Yuushi, didn't looked to Hiyoshi's face the whole time we were on the bus.
But although I didn't looked at him, I knew that his face was probably in his book again.
The one that was more surprised with all this was probably Yuushi's, he was looking to my red face and my hard breath in astonishment, he had many times saw my temperament and my blood to rush to my head, but it was probably the first time that he saw me in such confusion.
"You sure are with a good face, Gakuto" He commented.
"Oh shut up" I quickly replied, looking to the opposite window to regain my cool.
"Sensitive aren't we…" He smirked, looking to his window, we had been friends for such a long time that he knew exactly when he should leave me alone and when I needed advise.
We arrived after a while to the training camp, Atobe's holiday's mansion of that area was as surreal as ever, being big enough to have the two hundred members of the tennis club… But it was just the regulars that had been invited.
The maids and employs of the house went to fetch our stuff, so since we didn't had anything to do Sakaki's started to talk about our training in there.
"I decided to make a "win pass loser stop" tennis game, witch is if you win you go on playing if you lose you will get out of the game… There will be only one match at time and it will last all tomorrows day."
I started to pray that I was only selected in the end of the match, I could beat one match but two in a row was a very unlikely thing to happen.
But luck wasn't definitely on my side that day.
"The first ones will be…" sakaki took two papers out of a box with all our names in it "Gakuto Mukahi"
I dropped my face, but quickly got it up.
'No matter, I'll win the first one at least!!'
"And Yuushi Oshitari." He ended taking the paper.
I look in shock to Oshitari, which smiled to me.
"Let's make it a memorable game, shall we? As a goodbye to our doubles play…" He extended his hand, I smiled.
"Yeah, but I'll win at the end." Shook his hand, showing more strength that I really felt within me.
I couldn't sleep, I couldn't stop thinking about everything.
Did I loved Hiyoshi? Would I be able to win over Yuushi?
I turned around on my bed again.
"Fuck, I got to get some air…"
I got up, since the temperature was cool, I walked to the outside on my yellow pyjama's, the wind blowing on the cloudless night sky made me fell a lot better, I looked towards the stars, trying to forget my mind turmoil.
Then a sound caught up my attention.
"Plonk… Plonk…"
'…Tennis ball!?' I recognized the sound, going slowly I turned the corner to see who was playing at that hour of the night.
To my surprised I saw Hiyoshi.
"Huh? What are you doing here so late, Gekokujou freak?" I asked out loud, he stopped playing when he saw me coming, with a small smile appearing on his lips.
"Training…" he responded.
"Well, you should sleep, otherwise you will end up too sleepy tomorrow to play…"
"What about you?"
"Couldn't sleep thanks to…" I shut my mouth before finishing the sentence, but with him looking to me waiting for an answer I ended up saying the other reason why I was unable to sleep "Yuushi…"
"Hummm…" he responded in an annoyed face "Concerned about tomorrow's game?"
"Yeah, something like that…"
"Well, you will just have to beat him…"
I looked to the ground, getting sort of depressed.
"I… am not sure if I can do it…" I ended up confessing, looking intently towards the ground "I mean, he was… he knows my play better than anyone…"
I felt ashamed of sharing such thoughts to someone, I had felt this type of pressure before, and sometimes my will had been shaken off a little… but my pride had always stopped me from sharing such fragile thoughts with anyone.
'But why I am saying this to him?'
Hiyoshi looked surprised, even thought I wasn't looking I for some reason could picture his slightly more open than usual eyes.
Then I heard his breath, a little more long than the others, and knew that he was going to answer.
"I don't think that is true… because he never looked to you with attention…"
I got my face up.
And that same face darkened, as my fury arisen.
"You know… that's not exactly improving my mood…" I ranged my teeth together "I know my play isn't like Ore-sama, but I think I am still worth watching…"
"But you never really showed you best." He was now back to his individual game against the wall.
"Are you saying that I don't try hard!? Is that what you are accusing me off!!"
"No, you played as you liked but never tried to improve yourself or get some kind of strategy of your weakness and strengths, you never tried to improve on them because you always felt the security of your partner warming your back" he said this in a calm voice, the ball jumped high and landed on his hand "and the main reason for your behaviour is because you always felt, deep down, that you weren't capable of doing it, you didn't think you could hold the pressure of a game where the main chance was your ability's and not Oshitari-sempai."
I had my eyes wide open and my mouth was open and dry, my mind was unable to find the words to such accusation…
Mainly, because, deep down, I had always avoided that subject, I had too much pride, so I had never admitted those things, not to anyone, not even to myself I had ever accepted that true.
And there was I, being stripped of my pride, being submerged on my inner fears.
"What… are you saying…" my voice trembled.
"Mukahi-san… Oshitari-sempai… cannot know what he has yet to see…"
"So, you are saying that I am weak!" I felt raged tears wanting to fall down, but I held them, instead I showed my angry face.
Hiyoshi them turned to me, looking piercingly to my blue eyes.
"No, you are strong! You always were!" I saw my reflection on his eyes, as they seemed to swallow me in his words "But you were always too afraid of showing your best, afraid of realizing your fears as a reality."
I felt the wind blowing, making my hair wave, my eyes startled.
I had always had…
A pride that could take anything.
A self-love that couldn't be beaten.
But, this was the first time… that I had heard "you are strong" that had made me really believe in it.
Many had said that to me, and I had always responded, "Who do you think you are talking to?" in a boastful way.
Because those had been always compliments.
Hiyoshi was saying has it was the crude true of the universe.
I felt my heart vacillate.
'Since when…
Does his words…
Make me feel this way…'
I had always felt that I could do anything with Yuushi at my side.
But for the first time, I felt that I could also do anything on my own.
I found myself startled with my own feelings, Hiyoshi still holding his stern face.
"Off course I am strong!! Why wouldn't I be!" I talked myself out of it, regaining my composure "I just said those things to relax you for tomorrow, I know perfectly that I can beat him."
He walked towards me, smirking, going in the direction of the house.
I was holding a cocky look myself, looking at the opposite direction of his location.
He then stopped by my side, still facing the house.
"Off course that if we face each other I'll win, little jumping bunny." He continued walking towards the house.
My complete body frozen, and then melted with the fire of my anger.
"Who the hell looses to you, Gekokujou bastard!!" I ran after him, trying to punch him, unfortunately he was able to keep walking and still evade my hits.
As I went to the bed, I felt tranquil and warm.
I thought of Hiyoshi, and how he saw right through me, the way I had been feeling lately towards him.
'I can't… understand… why can't I hide anything of him… is like he…'
'Can… read my thoughts?'
My wet dream flashed through my brain, I felt my head heat up, drowning it on the cool pillow.
'I hope he can't… I mean… well, in all the martial arts movies…'
I started to remember that in some the sensei was able to hear the thoughts.
'THAT'S FICTION FOR CHRIST SAKE!!'
I calmed down a little, pouring water on my face, looked to my face at the bathroom mirror.
I looked towards my reflection and made sullen eyes.
And asked the question.
'What do I feel for Hiyoshi?'
My face went red.
"ARGGG!! This isn't the way!! I am not a freaking schoolgirl virgin!!" I elevated my hands to my head, messing my hair while I was going to the dark room again.
Has I returned down to my bed, I slightly slapped my face.
'Okay, let's try to think this rationally… The things I don't like about him!!'
'… He is a gekokujou idiotic bastard with a cocky smirk even to his sempai and is always manipulating me in an supremely irritant way… He is so annoying that I just fell like hitting him every time that I see him but am unable because of his freakness!!'
'He is mainly a freaking moron! And say everything out loud like he was just a kid, he, always making fun of me in his own perverted way…'
'…'
'He doesn't feel most of the time human at all!! Now that I think about it, his grandfather was surprisingly similar… maybe they are all aliens!!'
I jumped from my bed with my hand towards the sky.
'Yes!! That explains everything!! He is an alien coming from the Gekokujou planet to learn the earth gekokujou and someday turn everyone into his gekokujou robots…'
'… I think I should just get some sleep… I am not thinking reasonably anymore…'
I turned in the bed.
'And what do I like about him?'
I felt my heart warm as I the issue appeared.
It was then that I realized.
There wasn't a specific thing in special. It was his whole person that made my heart feel numbly warm.
'I like Hiyoshi…'
It was clear, the feelings, and the emotions I felt, and was able to fell at ease, my head was clearer now.
'But I won't say it!!' I refused, as a simple childish revenge plan that I had the need to have, I couldn't give him more cards that he already had on me.
((okay, once again sorry about the delay, and the errors, and thank you if anyone is continuing to follow this in spite of this many sorry's I ask for.
The fic is really reaching it's end, probably only one more chapter to go or so, I think it's until now the more "personal" fic that I ever written, which is really stupid because at some point my own feelings, well, let's just said that when I was writing the fic I kind of had a sort of similar fate as him with Yuushi, and there was times that as I wrote I cried with it has I was discharging my own feelings and sorting them out.
Well, not that is a brilliant work or anything, I started writing it as a relaxed writing, never expected to reach a personal level.
So when I say goodbye to the fic, I'll probably end up crying for missing it, well, actually I am a cry baby XP no way to run away from it.
Well, anyway, just probably one more chapter to go, thanks a lot to those that are reading this, well, and the reviews, each and every single one of them made me enjoy continuing writing it, and made me extremely happy, really many thanks.
Well, that's all (gosh, I wrote way too much as a note…))