Hi, so I guess I've been gone for a while... Don't worry I have my reasons. Let's just say those reasons have to do with douchebags, boyfriends, heartbreak, and eating disorders. Yep. But don't worry about it! It's all life experience and I'm good now! Also I'm updating, which hopefully you enjoy!

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Heaven wasn't all it was cracked up to be. Max was alone and without clothes. She was bewildered among the nothingness. Max was surrounded by clouds, but they weren't the usual, wet clouds that she was used to flying through with the flock. No, these were like huge cotton balls. It was the most comfortable thing that she had ever lie on. There was nothing in heaven, though. Every so often she would see another being, but they could never hear her when she called out. These beings were awfully white, almost transparent. Their cheeks were hollow, their rips jutted out at awkward angles, their eyes large and black, and their hair straggly and thin. Max called them the heaven-ghosts. They walked around as if in search for something... Was it God? She hadn't seen him either. Did he exist? Or was Max not in heaven at all?

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The doctors had ushered Fang and Nudge into the waiting room, where Iggy and Lissa already stayed. Fang didn't see why they kicked him out, he wanted to know how Max was doing. He deserved to know. But even he was too weak to put up much of a fight while they escorted him out.

So now the four of them were sitting in the waiting room silently. Nudge, Iggy, Lissa, and himself. Lissa was passed out on a chair, Fang was dreading when she woke up and he would have to speak to her. It was a given that he would have to explain everything to her, there was no going back after what she saw. But he was regretting asking for her back. He didn't want her. He didn't need her. He didn't love her. He was just looking for a reason for Max to say 'I'm jealous.'

Fang sighed. Max might never even get a chance to speak again. He slumped in his chair, ran his hands through his hair, rubbed his temples, then buried his face in his hands.

"Please God, if you do exist, please let Max be alright." Fang murmured.

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Nudge was speechless. She had so many thoughts in her head but she couldn't think of anything to say. Did that make sense? No, nothing made sense to her at this moment. She was devestated that Max would do this to herself, but she was also jealous of her because of Fang. Why? Why did Nudge like Fang? And why was she thinking of a boy when her friend was near death? There were so many questions that Nudge had but she had no answers.

She brought her knees to her chest, hugged them, then cried silently.

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Fang noticed Nudge crying, he stood up and sat down in the chair next to her. It was his job to make sure everyone was okay. He put his arm around her shoulders and held her close.

"Listen Nudge- Uh, I mean Monique, Max is going to be okay in there." Fang said, trying to convince not only Nudge, but himself.

Nudge leaned into Fang, disgusted with herself that she was happy that Fang was holding her. It was such a terrible situation and she couldn't help but feel contentment.

Nudge continued to let the tears flow. Fang held her face in his hands and then wiped her tears. He held her even closer now. He needed the comfort just as much as she did.

Nudge closed her eyes. She was absolutely exhausted.

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Iggy couldn't believe what was going on. One minute he was basically cuddling with Max, the next lying on the floor in a puddle of saliva, then the next being told that Max was near death. It was one of the most awful days that Iggy could have imagined, only made worse by the fact that he was now confused with his feelings as well. When him and Max were alone in his room it just felt so... exciting and new. But when him and Ella were together it was something different altogether. Him and Ella felt right, like they were two pieces of a puzzle, as cheesy as that sounds.

Iggy really wanted to see her, Ella that is. He had almost forgot about her since Nudge had started playing the jealousy game. He missed her so much. It was really strange how they had only been apart for a couple days but it felt like so more to him. Did she feel the same? Or was he just being overly sensitive?

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Max was getting bored. Would she have to spend an eternity in this so called 'heaven'? There was nothing to do! No internet, no TV, no friends, no family, no Fang... No, Max would not let herself miss her life. That would lead to sadness, and what kind of heaven had that?

Max lay down. She really did wish she could see her family one more time.

"Wait a minute," She thought aloud, "Maybe there's something under these clouds..." She dug through all the clouds that were beneath her. She dug for what seemed like hours, then she saw a crack of what looked like blue sky. She peered in a little closer then suddenly the clouds gave way and she fell through. Max screamed as she plummeted through the air. Then, she remembered something important. Wings.

Max whipped open her wings and flapped them furiously until they caught the wind. Something seemed odd to her though. These weren't her usual wings, these ones were pure white, no flecks of color anywhere.

Max looked below her and saw the hospital where Valencia worked. She flew down to hopefully catch a glimpse of her mother. She walked into the hospital doors and no one seemed to notice her. She was a naked girl with snow white wings on her back, and nobody even gave a double take. No one seemed to bump into her either, it was like there was an invisible force field around her. She took advatage of this power and walked straight into the emergency room where she knew Valencia would be working.

Max noticed something odd about the waiting room. Quite a few members of her flock were there...

"Oh no! Is someone hurt? Is it Gazzy or Angel?" Max worried to herself. She immediately started checking the rooms to see if anyone was hurt.

In the second room she checked she did find someone she knew, but not who she expected.

Max looked at herself on the hospital bed, she was covered in blood. Is this what Nudge and Fang had to see?

Max looked at Valencia, "I am so sorry for putting you through this," Max saw a doctor rubbing the defibrillators together, Max looked to him, trying to stop him. "No you don't have to do that, you don't have to save-"

There was an intense jolt of electricity, and then... Nothing.

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That's all I can think of, I hope you liked it!