Disclaimer: Sailor Moon is copyright Naoko Takeuci; story copyright me.

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There are times when I hate her. She's got everything - beauty, innocence, a man she'll be with forever, and one day she'll have a beautiful daughter.

Jadeite... my heart breaks at the mere thought of him.

I can still feel his touch, even though the last time we were together was over a thousand years ago. I miss him so much. Tears drop from my eyes.

I miss his eyes and his face and his laughter and his smile... I miss everything about him. I miss the way he used to look at me.

When Beryl kidnapped him and turned him against me, I thought I would die. Instead, I stood there, eyes wide, gaping in disbelief as my friends battled around me. And then, all of a sudden, the other three generals were there also. One look at my friends and I knew they felt like I did.

I remember his cruel laugh and his taunting voice as he asked me why I didn't attack. I, in reply, hoarsly whispered that it was all a dream, it was all a bad dream..

All of a sudden, Kunzite struck us each with a beam of energy as his friends watched. Princess Venus was the first to recover, with tears in her eyes. Her fiance had attacked us. She commanded us to fight them.

Poor Venus... she didn't have time to recover before her leadership duties made her tell us to fight.

So we attacked them. In the end, they killed us.

At night, I have dreams of Jedite and I, from years before the Silver Millennium was destroyed. The memories are all I have left of him.

Maybe it's better that way.