A/N: Hi, this is story has 3 chapters. They are all song fic thingos. These are my first ever song fics so please be nice and review. I will post the next chapter soon the other two chapters are already typed up.

Disclaimer: I do not own the characters Kate, Tony, or Gibbs. I do not own NCIS and I do not own any of the songs or artists used in this fic. No infringement intended.

Chapter 1: When It Was Me

Kate and Tony had dated years before they either of them started NCIS. It was one of the few relationships that had ever lasted more than a year for either of them. They dated for almost 2 years and were going to get married when they ended it. Tony and Kate were put into witness protection against his father and Kate couldn't handle it. So she left. She always regretted the decision she'd made though. Tony got out of witness protection 3 years later and joined NCIS while Kate had a secure job in the Secret Service. They didn't have any contact till that day on Air Force One. Tony looked the same but Kate didn't. It had been 5 years and Tony didn't recognize Kate with long brown hair and even her facial features had changed slightly. Her name had also changed. After her father was put away for murder Kate took on her mother's maiden name. She changed from Caitlyn James to Caitlyn Todd. Kate knew who Tony was however Tony was oblivious to the fact that he had almost married this woman. Kate quit her job and joined NCIS. She said it was because she had a relationship with a co-worker. That wasn't true; in fact she hadn't had a proper relationship since she left Tony. It was really because one day she hoped to pluck up the courage to tell Tony who she was and rekindle the flame.

Instead of finding courage however, she found discouragement as every day Tony would come in talking about a woman.

She's got green eyes and she's 5'5"
Long brown hair all down her back
Cadillac truck
So the hell what
What's so special about that
She used to model, she's done some acting
So she weighs buck of 5
So I guess she's alright if perfection is what you like

She shouldn't really be jealous of this girl or girls as it had been her choice to leave him in the first place but she couldn't help but feel heart broken. She really did love him, she always had and always would.

Ooh, ooh, and I'm not jealous, no I'm not
Ooh, ooh, I just want everything she's got
Ooh, ooh, you look at her so amazed
I remember way back when you used to look at me that way

Tell me what makes her so much better than me (so much better than me)
What makes her just everything that I can never be
What makes her your every dream and fantasy
Because I can't remember when it was me

She was sitting at her desk as Tony came in bragging about his latest girl. He was saying about how great she was and how happy he made her. She knew that it wouldn't last with this one because it never did but he would keep going till he found the right one again. It had been 5 years since she had dated Tony, which wasn't all that long but she couldn't remember him saying he felt that way for her. She knew he had but she just couldn't remember.

And now you don't feel the same
I remember you would shiver every time I said your name
You said nothing felt as good as when you gaze into my eyes
Now you don't care I'm alive
How did we let the fire die

She really wanted to tell him but she couldn't work up the nerve. She was slowly remembering what it felt like to be with him. It was absolutely amazing. He was absolutely amazing, everything she had ever wished for. Now though, he probably didn't even care about her. She knew that he wouldn't feel the same way about her now as he had then, not with all the woman he could get.

Ooh, ooh, and I'm not jealous, no I'm not
Ooh, ooh, I just want everything she's got
Ooh, ooh, you look at her so amazed
I remember way back when you used to look at me that way

What makes her so much better than me (so much better than me)
What makes her just everything that I can never be
What makes her your every dream and fantasy
Because I can't remember when it was me

She could remember how his skin on hers made her feel. How his breathe on her neck and his soft butterfly kisses on her collarbone made her stomach do flips. But she still couldn't remember what it was like to have him say all these nice things about her.

That made you smile
That made you laugh
Even if it makes you happier than you have ever been, oh me
That was your world (me)
Your kind of girl
Nothing about me has changed
That's why I'm here wondering

She wondered if she could ever pluck up the courage to tell him. She wondered if she could ever make him smile and make him laugh like these girls he talked about did. She wondered if she would ever be the centre of his universe again. She might not be his type now but she hadn't changed and she had been his type back then and she hoped he hadn't changed to much either.

What makes her so much better than me (what makes her so much better than me)
What makes her just everything that I can never be
What makes her your every dream and fantasy
Because I can't remember when it was me

Every night she went to bed with the same thought, 'What makes all these girls better than me and how can I be better than them?'