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Promises

"You promised me that you'll always be there for me

You lied

You promised me that I am your heart

You lied

You promised me that you would never leave me

You lied

You promised me that you would never break my heart

You lied

You promised me you would never betray me

You lied

You made so many promises and yet..

YOU FUCKING LIED!!!

I shouldn't have believed in your promises"

Poem by happygirl24 aka Zeldagamefan

In the middle of the night two people where make love to each other. Heavy breathing and panting could be herd in a small apartment bedroom. Names were being called and voices telling each other 'I love you'. Ichigo could tell that Orhime was close to her climax so with one finale push he sent her over the edge. Orihime screamed Ichigos' name and that had pushed him to his limit and he came with a grunt.

He rolled off of her and went straight in to the bathroom. He wanted to wash the sweat and body fluid off of him as soon possible. In truth he hated having sex with Orihime, yes sex not love making. No he only wanted to make love to one person and that person was Abarai Renji. The red headed death god always infested his mind with thought of them being together.

He loved him with all heart but society would never allow them be together in a loving way. It was wrong to be gay in the twenty first century. So Ichigo decided to live a lie. Only one person knew the truth about his feelings and that was Rukia. She knew it was wrong for Ichigo to keep lying to Orhime about his true feeling but, Rukia promised not to say anything.

Ichigo came out the bathroom feeling clean of the sin he put himself threw earlier in the evening. He hated lying to Orihime but a man has needs and she was doing a good job of filling them. He hated everything about this relationship if you can call it that. He moved his eyes to the sleeping figure of Orihime and shuddered at the thought of them be happy and in love. He was not in love with her. But he did love her as a friend but can they still be her after she learns the truth? Maybe not but he did make a promise to be with her weather he liked it or not. No Ichigo was not happy. He'll be happy in the arms of the one person he loved the most. Renji.

After getting dressed he left Orihime's apartment and started the long walk back to his apartment. He knew that she didn't like to wake up with out him there, but he didn't care.

He made it back home in one piece, but as soon he put the key in the lock the door opened there stood his best friend and roommate Rukia.

"So I take it you another hot night with Inoue?" She asked with a smirk on her face

"Yeah if you can call it that"

Ichigo walked to the kitchen to grab bottle water out the fridge and walked to Rukia and sat down on the couch. Rukia sat down next to him so they can have a talk.

"So when are you going to stop this charade with Inoue huh?"

"Rukia must you do this now? I'm tired and I want to go to bed" Ichigo said while taking a drink

"Yes. Because I'm worried about you. I love you Ichi and I don't want you to be stressing your self out about this and I know you care about Inoue some what. And yes I know about the promise you made to her but that was a year ago. I know you love Renji more than her and you really need to stop playing with her heart."

"I know I know but sighs you don't know how hard it is to be gay in this world. People are always looking down on you like some disease. You show any PDA to your lover and you can't walk down the street without some weird religious freak in your face saying that I'm going to burn in hell because I'm gay. It sucks living in this world and I don't want to have a relationship with some I love in a world like this" Ichigo said while trying to hold back tears

"You think I don't Ichi? I do know how you feel sweetie. But have ever thought of how Renji may feel about this?"

"No"

"Well maybe you should go talk to him. He hates the fact that you and Inoue are 'together'

"Yeah I should but I don't want to hurt Inoue"

"Ichigo you already are by living a lie with her you need to tell the truth"

"I will. Maybe after I talked with Renji"

"Good well I'm off to bed me and your bother are going to get breakfast in the morning. Do you want to come with?"

"Maybe I haven't seen Kaien in a while"

"Ok then see you in the morning'"

Rukia gave Ichigo a small kiss on the cheek and went to bed. Ichigo went into his room got in the bed. He stared into the ceiling thinking maybe it was time to stop living a lie. He always knew that Renji loved him. It was about time he lived his life the he wanted and not the way society saw fit. Yes tomorrow new a life will begin and hopefully with his true love by he's side. With that Ichigo turned over and went to sleep think that 'yes a new life'

Well just to let you know that this is a AU story and a yaoi (my first one) and please if you don't like yaoi fics then don't read after the first chapter and please let me know what you think so far please read and review thanks