"What!?"
"You heard me Sakura. We are moving."
"Again!?"
"Yes."
"But mom I…"
"No buts Sakura. No go to your room and start packing."
"I'm not leaving. You always do this to me! I just started to make friends again and now you are moving me? It's not fair!"
"I don't have to be fair. I'm your mother. Now go pack."
"I know. I can live here with TenTen until I graduate and then…"
"No. You are moving with me and that is final. We are leaving in two days so go pack."
"Fine." I turn and storm up to my room. It is happening again. One thing is wrong with this place and now we have to move. I have probably lived in seven different places during my freshman and sophomore years of high school. Now I'm a Junior and I was hoping that we would stay in one place for the next two year. I guess I should know better.
I walk to my closet and stare at my clothes. I leave out two outfits. One is a jean mini skirt with a pink tank top and the other is a light green and brown plaid mini skirt with a emerald green tank top. My other clothes I pack into the boxes that are stacked on my floor. I am an expert packer by now and I finish packing up my closet quickly. I then begin to take things off my walls. I finish that quickly also and then decide to take a break. I look in my mirror at how I look. I am wearing a back tank top with a pink cherry blossom on it and pink sweats. I guess it will do. I grab a pair of flip flops and head downstairs.
"And just where do you think you are going?" Asks my mom.
"To see TenTen." I say as I slam the door. TenTen lives on the other side of town so I decide to drive rather than walk. I get into my black Mazda3 and start the car. And the music begins to play. I let out a sigh. The perfect song to describe how I feel every time we move:
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
I reach TenTen's house. I turn off my car and walk up to the door. I ring the doorbell and hear an annoyed "I'm coming" from inside. To my surprise Neji answers the door.
"Oh Sakura. What are you doing here? Are you okay?" He says as he spots that I am on the brink of crying. I can't hold it in any longer and fall into the arms of my friend. I begin to cry into his chest as TenTen walks around the corner.
"Sakura what's wrong." They both ask in a concerned voice. I just continue to cry. This is the hardest part, saying goodbye.
"Sakura…Oh Sakura…" TenTen says as she strokes my head. I finally stop crying and lift my head from Neji's chest.
"Let's go inside." He says in his calm demeanor. I follow them into the living room and I sit down on the couch. "Now tell us what's wrong."
"I'm…I'm moving."
"What!?" TenTen gasps.
"Yes I know. My mom found some stupid reason for not liking this town so we are moving onto the next one. I just…came to say goodbye."
"But you can't leave…what about our plans for the dance and your party?"
"I'm sorry TenTen but my mom won't change her mind. I don't know anything about what town I am going to live in or anything. You two can go to the dance together. After all you are together aren't you?" a small blush crosses Neji's face but he quickly hides it.
"I suppose we are." I lower my head.
"Eight." I mutter under my breath.
"Huh?" TenTen asks.
"This is my eighth time moving since freshman year." To tell you the truth this is the only place I've ever actually liked. Every other place I was just used or rumored about."
"Sakura I am so sorry."
"TenTen it's fine I'm used to it by now." I stand up. If I don't leave now, I am going to start crying again. I walk over to the front door and Give them both a hug. "I promise to keep in touch. I'll miss both of you so much. I linger on TenTen's hug slightly ad when I let go, I give them both a fake smile. "Who knows? Maybe you can even visit me sometime, that is when I find out where I'm going." I turn and walk to my car. I pull out of the driveway and don't look back, it will only make it harder.
I reach my house and walk straight u to my room. I see while I was gone my mom finished packing up my room. I let out a sigh and walk into my bathroom. I turn on my shower and get in. The warm water feels heavenly on my skin. Showers always make me feel like everything is getting washed away. I become lost in thought as the water pours over me. Ever since my dad died we have been moving constantly. I guess that mom is just scared to get settled in one place. I run my hands through my pink hair that reaches to my mid back. I turn off the water and wrap up in a towel. Tomorrow I have to go clean out my locker, but now I just need to write and get some sleep.