I didn't mean to kiss you. Our friendship had grown so deep that it seemed the most natural thing to do.

I didn't mean to fight with you. I will always regret every punch that I threw and every insult I spat… you deserved better… you still do.

I didn't mean to fall in love with you. You were my friend… my best friend and I don't know how that changed.

I didn't mean to lie to you. When I said I would finish with Sarah I really meant it… but when it came to it I just couldn't go through with my promise.

I didn't mean to make you my dirty secret. I wanted to tell everyone that I loved you… but I was never brave enough to take that step.

I didn't mean to hurt you. I wanted to be the lover you deserved, I wanted to be someone you could be proud of, I wanted it to be the two of us forever… but I was too much of a coward to fight for you.

I didn't mean to leave you. I dreamed that we could make it together… but I woke to realise that I couldn't keep you as long as I tried to hold on to my lies.

I didn't mean to break your heart. I wanted to keep it safe with mine but instead I broke them both and I don't think that either of us will ever be the same again.