Seras never thought she would come this far. But her master had been so mean with her lately... She wanted to hurt him for treating her like scum, like the incompetent vampire she was instead. Saying that he was regretting the decision of her turning. Threatening her to end her life if she didn't drank her blood.
But in sole honesty, she had come to Integra's office to ask her if he would enjoy a present for the Valentine's Day. In the end she just hoped that this could make him become gentler with her. But in the room she just discovered what she took for an awful truth.
Found out that she was just a puppet to his master the puppeteer. After she became alert of his plans, she tried to hate him of all her being. She took a blank page, thought about what she was now, alone and deprived of her humanity.

So as you read this know my friends
I'd love to stay with you all
Please smile when you think of me
My body's gone that's all

A tout le monde (To everybody)
A tout les amis (To all my friends)
Je vous aime (I love you)
Je dois partir (I must leave)
There are the last words

If my heart was still alive
I know it would surely break
And my memories left with you
There's nothing more to say

She write those words, sarcastically signed with a grin "Seras, the worst draculina" at the bottom. She smiles, but blood tears dripping from her eyes. She stands up, her master's Jackal in the hands. She could at least make a perfect thief but Alucard wanted more, he wanted a fledgling capable of morphing, capable of teleportation, he wanted a gifted apprentice that would deserve his knowledge.

"I'm sorry master. I don't want to be used by you anymore. Anyway you hate me." she sent through their mental link, now crying out loud.

Alucard and Integra were having tea at this moment. "I told you already Alucard, I know about your stupid plan, you won't get freed this way." she said as she gave him the "im tired of your emo bullshit" grin.
"Anyway it's still a shame that you declined my offer. Look at Seras. She's no worth to my bloodline. Why won't you..." he stopped dead in the middle of his sentence.

The black gun is now pushed against her chest; she tried to aim for her heart as she reminds herself of his taunts:
"I will end this myself if you continue to deceive me!"
"You are the worst fledgling I ever had!"
"You are tarnishing my name!"
"Me, I, and myself. That's him. Why are you so egoist." she sends him as she finally pulls the trigger after she caught the spot of her beating.

He notices his jackal is missing, standing up in haste, he knocks over his teacup. "What is it Alucard now you're clumsy?" asked Integra feeling that something was wrong.
"Seras life is in danger. I must go."
"So go, what are you..." she starts, but a gunshot interrupts her.
He was sinking in the floor as fast as he could when he realized what she had done.
"I should have told her about my plan! How stupid from me! It's ruined now."

She falls on the ground like a doll. A squirt of blood bursts through the room. Blood splatters all over the table. Strangely the present she had brought for him remains unstained.
Walter was already there calling for the medics when Alucard caught sight of his fledging laying on the ground with a blood spitting hole in her chest.

"Master Alucard! The bullet grazed her heart. We must hurry to the infirmary; she's losing her blood very fast... " Walter said standing up facing Alucard, panicked, but he knew this would come... Alucard jostled him, kneeling down to her sides.
"Police Girl! Seras! Why did you do that!?" he shouted pushing on the wound as hard as he could.

"Why am I still alive...? I didn't want him to see me dying. Why didn't I turn to dust...? Did I missed my heart? Am I pathetic to this degree?" thought the vampire lying motionless on the ground.

She reacted at the sight of her master. She looked at him. She tried to talk but her body won't let her."Master...I see your lips moving but I can't hear what you say... I... I don't want to die." She thought
Feeling her end coming she muttered soundless words as she closed her eyes. If you could read lips, you would have red "I..am...sorry"

Somewhere in the worlds of dreams. She's bringing with her the present. She's about to knock at the door when she feels her master's aura. Alucard and Integra are in the office. Seras is right behind the door focusing her senses to catch a word of what they are saying.

"Integra. My master. Drink this blood, and be mine! We could at us two, kill every freak crawling on this earth."
"What the hell is master saying?"
She takes a look thought the hole of the locker.
She sees him handing her his hand, a bleeding hand.
Integra crushes her cigar in the ashtray, giving the smile she usually gives when Alucard goes nuts.
"The choice is all yours." He adds, smiling madly.

At this moment a betrayal feeling rushes up to her spine. She starts to cry as she starts to run away, the corridor become darker at every step.

She opens her eyes. Tries to speak, the pain in her chest makes her struggle to breath. Her vision is blurred.
She leans on her right to see what's looked like a tube putting on a drip something in her arm.
Then she notices a form in the shadowed background.

Her Master was sleeping on a chair. He looked as pale as she would after two missed meals.
That was the first time she ever felt pity for the man she loved. He looked like he was about to crumble...
Gathering some more strength, she calls for him. But she doesn't manage to make any intelligible sound; the sticky blood in her throat prevents her from emitting any word.
She starts to struggle on her bed, caught in panic.

He opened his eyes, smiles with an expression of relief. She stares at him, with a gaze calling for his help.
He moves to her sides. Takes her hand. Kisses her hand which was now tightly held in his owns.
"Don't bother talking, keep your strengths. Try to swallow the curdled blood in your throat" A sweet but low voice just spoke to her mind.

His words are appeasing. She stops struggling to breath and tries to swallow slowly. Taking a look at him with her now clearer vision.

"You must take back strengths; you have been in coma during two weeks. You are too weak to do anything right now." Again and again the same lecture that she was frail and weak.

"How did I ended here?" she wonders.

"Walter found you lying dead like in your room... In my own entails I felt your life sapping away. So I rushed to your room. I transported you here. And the doctors managed to prevent the mercury from spreading in your body. I think you own them your life." He gently explained, with no provocation nor disdain in his tone for one time.

"But Master... You look so sick, did you stayed here all the time for me? Why did you waited here for me? It's Integra you want. You just used me to make her jealous and turn her into a fledging that would not disappoint you..." she asks.
"I never wanted this Seras... You took it all wrong... What happened is my entire fault..." he replies as her blue eyes narrows of surprise.
"...Seras the only purpose I wanted to turn Integra, was to keep Integra alive, to keep the Hellsing you know alive... When Integra will die the future commanders will lock us in that basement for years, or maybe even kill you as you are weaker than me." he tells with a pitch of sorrow in his voice.

Seras was thoughtless. That was the first time that her master confided her something.
"So you played that gruesome acting just for the two of us... S...so, I have ruined your plan..." Seras mutters, blood starting to run throughout her blushed cheeks.
She turned her back to him sinking her face in the ex white pillow.
"Don't worry, I will find another way to achieve my plan. I should have trusted you and told to you." he replies as he shoves a hand to her shoulder.

Everything he said in the past minutes sounded surreal for her, she was so used to be treated like garbage by him... Is this the real Alucard, the one with this glint of humanity that she saw at Cheddar?
Her throat now clear, capable of speaking. Remembering of the present, she's feeling an urge to tell him she loves him.

"Master, I..." she started as she was turning back his head toward him.

Before she could end her sentence, she felt his cold lips collide with hers, his sugary sent was washing on her. She first tried to resist because this just bolted from the blue to her.
Even if it was. It seemed to her that it wasn't the first time she kissed him. He ended the soft and polite kiss as fast as it started.
"I hated everything about you; tell me; why did I fall in love with you..." Seras thought after her surprise.
"Impossible. It can't be her..." was his only thought at this moment.