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Summary: The end of all things starts with admitting what you deny.
Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto and nor do I know how a court hearing goes or how rape victims cope with their experiences...
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Kiba sat on two seats of the couch, Shino occupying the only one left. Neji sat cross-legged at the coffee table, with open text books and loose sheets of paper spread across any available surface, with Naruto pacing back and forth doing his best to answer the history questions that were being fired his way.
It was already late and the small group of friends were only able to get through English and only just started to scratch the surface of history. Naruto sighed and sat down at the other side of the coffee table from Neji.
"I think I should probably start making my home. I'll see you guys tomorrow." Naruto and Neji packed up the sheets and books.
"I'll walk you home, Naruto." The elder teen offered.
"Its okay, Neji, you don't have to go out of your way..." Black hair shook in a wave as a pale hand rose to stop any further objection. Naruto swallowed before bending back down to pick up his school bag. Shino and Neji exchanged looks.
"Hey, Naruto," Kiba spoke up at his friend's nudge to the ribs. "My house is on the way to yours, mind if I join ya?" The blonde teen opened his mouth but was cut off. "Great! Let's go!" And Naruto was promptly grabbed and pulled by the arm outside of Shino's house.
"You guys don't have to worry about me, alright? I can take care of myself." Kiba gave him a sceptical look.
"It's late and dark. Hell, I'm getting Goosebumps already..." Blonde hair swayed as the teen shook his head in disbelief. Normally he would start poking fun at the brunette but tonight he felt too drained.
'I always feel drained. I always feel like I'm about to drop from exhaustion but when I finally close my eyes my heart races and I start to panic. The only time I can get to sleep these days is if I am sleeping with Sakura in my arms. It seems like she is the only one who can keep the nightmares away. Even Sasuke... he brings out the worst of the nightmares. His touch scares all hell out of me...'
Kiba risked sideway glances at his companion and frowned at the lack of vibrant blue eyes and healthy skin. Big, dark, bags, which pronounced his pale looking skin, where under his dull eyes and his hair, also, looked like it was dying.
'And now? Even Neji is reminding me about... about that man. Why do so many people have pale skin and black hair? It's not fair! I don't want to keep seeing him in my friends anymore! I want to forget...'
Naruto gave a start at hearing Kiba's voice. His friend smiled and patted his back.
"You're home, Uzumaki." The blond looked up and saw his house.
"Did we walk past you house?" The Inuzuka laughed and pushed his friend up to his door.
"I'll see ya tomorrow!" And Kiba walked off. Naruto laughed.
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Naruto lay in his bed, sweat bedded and ran down his forehead as Naruto's body twisted and contorted rapidly, the bed sheets managed to wind themselves and knot around his legs, constricting and cutting off some circulation as a cold breeze entered through the open window.
Naruto... The word echoed in the blonde's head. Naruto... Naruto whimpered in his sleep and his breathing started to become erratic.
Naruto awoke in a darkened room. The floor, made of uneven stone that was obviously worn down over time where he lay, was matched by walls made of the same stone. With a chill of fright, and a skip of his heart beat, Naruto noted that there were church pews on either side of him and scatted roof tiles littered the floor.
The flapping of wings caused the teen to look up and see a black object blur across the night sky, framed, as it were, by the jagged teeth of what remained of the roof. Naruto's breathing became harsh and painful, heat and panic arose and started to consume him and pain resonated in agony from the constant increasing of his heart beat.
Erratic thoughts rushed through him as an unnatural chill set deep into his bones, denial and disbelief flittered through Naruto's mind as he slowly stood and looked around. Sighting the door, Naruto rushed towards the rotting door and had placed his hands on the rough and weather-worn wood when a whispered voice Naruto had paralleled with his nightmares floated to his ears and froze his very soul.
"Naruto..." A whimper escaped the blonde teen. "I want you-"
"No!" Naruto screamed and tore through the church doors and out onto the dirt pathway. A rock tripped him and his ankle burned like wildfire. "No. No. No." Naruto whimpered and started crawling, trying to stand but failing numerous times.
"Naruto!" The Uzumaki had reached the cracked pathway when a foot planted itself firmly in the lower of his back. Hands grasped Naruto's wrists and pinned him to the rugged dirt road, sharp rocks pressing and a few cutting into his skin from the continuous struggles he emitted.
"Naruto. Let me finish." Words flitted like maddened butterflies in Naruto's head. "I want you to see me. I want you to know who I am." A soft chuckle reverberated and rattled into the teen's chest. "But... you already know who I am, don't you?"
Tears glistened in the corners of Naruto's eyes as soft sobs hiccupped from his throat. "You always knew, didn't you? You knew since the train that it was me." The blonde's body went completely lax apart from the occasional bounce of a cry. "Naruto... You knew... and you didn't say anything. Didn't tell the police, your psychiatrist... your parents; No one. Why? Why haven't you told anyone who your rapist is? They have DNA, they could easily convict me. After all, the police have never liked me and that quack, Orochimaru, would happily give unprivileged information on me.
"Ever since that incident with my cousin... Yes, the police suspected that it was I that had killed him, seeing as how we were friends." Laughter twinkled and danced like the freelancing stars overhead that mocked Naruto. "They'll lock me away and I'll probably never see you again." A sigh whisked past like a shooting star.
"Kiba would spit at the mention of my name and curse himself for ever allowing me near you. Shino's whole family would dislodge their friendship of my family in support for yours. And Neji? His whole family would also step away from my own and do everything in their power to dislodge my family from their high status.
"So, I ask you. Why have you allowed me to stay free? I heard you pleas while you slept. The nightmares will never leave you but the fact that the one who had caused you such pain in the first place is locked away, unable to touch you, would surely help rid you, or at least ease you, of your pain and suffering, would it not?
"Or, do you hope that the pain would fade and things could go back to the way they were before I could no longer hold myself from you? My love for you is far too strong. Call it obsession if you will, but I would never allow anyone to hurt and I know that I would never have to worry about you cheating on me.
"Naruto... Say my name... Who am I?" Naruto was now outright crying. The hands left his wrists and the teen found himself being cradled into the other's chest. Naruto gripped the fabric of the elder's shirt and drenched it with his tears, the whisperings of reassurances being drowned and drifting away with the tears.
Time flew with the hoard of bats that blurred through the night sky. Naruto's tears dried up and his throat raw and constricted. "I knew..." He whispered. "I knew and... and I hoped that the train ride would be the worst of what happened. I tried to get over it... to... to accept your feelings, but I... it was too much to handle at once. I needed to get away from you... to catch my breath, but you found me. You found me and even..."
Hands framed his face and pulled his head up to face the other's but Naruto refused to open his eyes. "My name?" Blue eyes opened and stared into an otherworldly black.
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"Uchiha, Sasuke"
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--End--
There it is. A number of you seem to have forgotten that when this was a one-shot the pairing was STILL SasukeXNaruto meaning that the pairing WAS and STILL IS SasukeXNaruto thus giving us the impression of Sasuke being the molester/rapist... Which he IS!!
Oh, how it seems to be a rather... unfinished ending... I'm guessing you all want to know what happens afterword. Well, I'll allow you that pleasure! I hope you have all enjoyed reading this!
With more love then there are stars, YaoiSpark
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Four years later, at platform 2, a man dressed in a light grey suit and blood red tie stood tall and confident amidst the crowd. The train screeched to a stop and he walked onto the underground train. People pushed and shoved and the man in the grey suit had to stand sideways, facing a metal pole.
Bodies bumped and swayed, the harsh, but sometimes failing, fluorescent light beamed down upon everyone. Another man's snores echoed through the small compartment and the rustling of a few newspapers chirped every few minutes.
Nearly an hour later, at platform 6, the man stepped off the train and walked out of the station. It was getting late; the sun was nearly completely set, only a peach hue whispered over the far off mountains that could be seen through the gaps of the buildings.
Houses occupied much of the grounds on either side of the street apart from a few apartment complexes and convenience stores. Children's laughter could be heard not far away and a dog's barking shot through the air, sharp, like gunfire.
A man, in jeans a tank top and jacket, leaned against a metal railing gate that lead through to the local high school's oval, his brown hair, short and spiky, shifted with the late afternoon breeze. He looked up and, at the sight of the other man, he smiled.
"You're late, the other's are already here." The brunette accused. The newcomer gave a small laugh and both walked to the middle of the oval where two others waited. Both of them also wore suits.
"Underdressed as always, Kiba." To which the brunette barked a laugh and gave a cheeky grin.
"Just because I have a job doesn't mean I'm going to blow it all on clothes like you and Shino." Neji shook his head and greeted the man standing next to his lover.
"How are you, Naruto?" Blue eyes, which never fully gained back their sparkle of life, closed as a small smile spread across his lips.
"I'm good. I've got my editor pressuring me into writing a sequel to my first book still."
"I'll talk to him." Shino quietly spoke. Naruto nodded his thanks.
"How have you guys been?"
Shino now works in his families business. They own a publishing compony and were looking to expand their horizons even further by Shino's suggestion when Naruto decided to write a book on what had happened to him. It was short and easy to read but the horrific details that he went into gave him many a fan, though very few actually know that it was him that he wrote about.
Neji never really had the talent to become a professional chef like many his fathers before him, but his great interest in the law has him constantly in study to graduate from law school later next season. His father looks forward to lawyer he can trust to help run all of the financials of the restaurants that they own.
Kiba works for a gaming company. Most of his works have made quite a profit for the company, especially in the fighting and adventure genres. But he mostly likes to run outside and play with his new puppy. He was never allowed pets in the house when they were younger because they lived in an apartment complex.
"And Sasuke?" Kiba asked. Naruto smiled and looked up at the cloudless night sky, stars shining down brightly.
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Naruto knocked on the door of his childhood home, a teenaged girl with pink hair answered. Green met blue and immediately after Naruto found himself being leaped on by his little sister.
"Naruto!" The girl bellowed happily. "You're home! You're home!" Naruto laughed joyously and hugged his younger sibling.
"Good to see you too, Saku." Sakura gave a small laugh of her own and dragged her brother inside by the arm. Their parents were standing in the door way, watching the two interact.
"Big Brother, you're late!" Sakura pouted playfully. Their mother laughed and father smiled. It will be the end of the world should he arrive on time or, heaven forbid, early, commented their mother, mirth playing in her eyes. Naruto gave his own small pout but was immediately pulled into the living room.
Sakura sat her brother down on the couch and then sat herself down at his feet, as they had done when they were younger. Mother brought in fresh tea and biscuits while father questioned Naruto on how his life has been going and they both had a rather full and detailed discussion on workplace hazards when the blonde mentioned an incident with a printing press and his tie, much to the delight to Sakura's ears, earning her a hand ruffling up her hair.
Sakura had a biscuit in her mouth, which she nibbled on with disinterest, as she listened to Naruto talk about his new book. Before long, the clock chimed 11 o'clock. Naruto's mother managed to persuade the blonde into staying the night, not that he put up much of a fight, and she quickly managed to pull out an old pair of his father's sleepwear.
His bedroom hadn't changed since the day he left it last year. Everything is so much smaller then he remembers it. He hasn't had any nightmares since he left. He occasionally wakes up in the middle of the night drenched with sweat and out of breath but he never remembers anything, thankfully.
Sakura knocked on the door and entered not long after Naruto had changed and sat on his old bed. She sat down next to him, without a word, and gave him a hug.
"I missed you, Naru..." A small, sad, smile slowly graced Naruto's features as he wrapped his arms around his little sister.
"I'm here, Saku... I'm here..."
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"I'm home." Naruto called out into his apartment. He dropped his keys on the side table by the door before taking off his shoes and walking into the living room. He dropped down onto the couch and stretched.
Naruto gave a little start and his eyes flared wide open as hands dropped themselves onto his shoulders before he looked up and saw a comforting face.
"How did it all go?" Naruto smiled and pulled the face down to his and planted a small kiss on pale lips.
"Everyone is doing well for themselves. Sakura has a boyfriend now so I'm thinking of picking her up from school one day to see what this guy is like..." A small frowned appeared on Naruto's face which increased when his partner gave a small laugh. "What?"
Black hair swayed as the other's head shook. "Nothing, nothing." A smile appeared as the head lowered and planted a kiss on Naruto's lips. "Love you."
"Love you too, bastard." Another small laugh.
"Play nice..." And the face disappeared, replaced by the ceiling. Naruto stood up and walked into the study, which also coexisted with the bedroom, to see his partner on the computer.
Wrapping tan arms around a pale and slender neck, Naruto started to nibble at the other's ear.
"Naruto..." A sigh escaped. "You only just got home and that's the first thing on your mind?" Naruto mumbled something into the ear causing a shiver to race down the spine of his victim. Another sigh. "If that is what you want..." He drawled before twisting his head and pulling Naruto's face to his own and crashing their lips together.
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"Sasuke..."
Sasuke always has to go slow with Naruto. Go too fast and Naruto starts remembering... it has taken them two years to get to this point and Sasuke won't do anything to jeopardise what he had wanted since he was fifteen years old; for Naruto to love him.
Soft kisses, which only become rougher with the pushing of Naruto, and must never touch any other part of the blue eyed man beneath him. But most importantly, Naruto can not be touch anywhere down there. Naruto must always be the one to penetrate Sasuke.
They had tried once before of Sasuke taking Naruto but the moment anything went in, Naruto would have a relapse. Their relationship was so fragile when it came to intimacy. However, after the first experience, Sasuke became accustomed to being penetrated and found it a good change from being the boss that he had to play at work and the 'servant', if you will, in bed.
Itachi actually commented that their employees started giving him feedback at how Mr. Uchiha seemed a lot more approachable and easier to talk to then before.
Sasuke blushed quite heavily when he made the connection.
Sasuke prepared himself and squatted down, over Naruto's groin. A bronze hand gently grasped a pale hip and guided the Uchiha down to the other's erection. The blonde man gave a low groan as he entered his lover, sending shivers of anticipation through Sasuke's essence.
A moment of wait as elder of the two quickly adjusted to his lover. The other hand came up and grasped his hip and Sasuke mechanically leaned forward a little to grasp the quilt. Slowly, ever so slowly, Naruto guided the other up and down.
The Uchiha had mastered a considerable amount of patience this way. An asset he was now cherished for at work and another connection that made him blush heavily.
Naruto kept his eyes close, as he has always done, and panted softly. Sasuke concentrated on the feeling of having Naruto inside of him and felt the twitch of his own penis in response. One of Naruto's hands leave his hip and trails up to his neck.
On queue, Sasuke slowly leans down and plants a soft kiss on his lover's lips. He has to be careful, to be gentle. It is because of him that this is what he must do, so, he will do it. He will help Naruto as Naruto has helped him.
The kiss ended but instead of Naruto's hand falling back on the other's hip, the blonde opened his eyes and stared up into Sasuke's eyes.
"Sasuke," Naruto whispered. "Touch me." A simple command by nature, however, if it goes too far... Sasuke hesitantly and gently placed his right hand on Naruto's chest. A sudden whirl of emotions appeared in the blonde's eyes causing the other to keep still and watch to see how Naruto reacts further.
Seeing his lover swallow nervously, Sasuke slowly removed his hand from Naruto's chest and, instead, gently took hold of the hand still placed on his neck. Three small, white, scars can be easily seen on the tanned flesh of Naruto's arm. The marks from when Sasuke had the other pinned below him on a dirt path in front of the run-down church.
Slowly, Sasuke leaned down and planted soft kisses on the marks where rocks and cut through and marked Naruto's skin, sorrow and apology welled up in his black eyes. Blue eyes stared back and a small smile played on his lips.
"Those are your fault, you know?"
"I know..." Sasuke kept kissing the skin in his grasp. Naruto shifted a little and the Uchiha mentally slapped himself. He is not supposed to talk! And what did he do? Talk! No talking, ever! The other hand on his hip left and Sasuke stopped altogether.
The hand came to rest on his ribs and Naruto pulled the other hand away from Sasuke's lips and placed it on his chest. Sasuke feared his lover was going to leave him and his fear only doubled when felt the other push him away and down on the bed.
What he did not expect was that Naruto remained inside of him and leaned down to kiss him. Preoccupied with the more then lust-filled kiss, Sasuke failed to notice the hands leave him, the left gripped the bed sheets by his stomach and the right gripped the sheets above his left shoulder.
He did notice, however, a rather rough thrust into his lower area. Sasuke gasped at the feeling and Naruto quickly buried his head into the neck of his lover. A little rougher then what he is used to, the Uchiha couldn't help but let out a small moan from the back of his throat.
He felt Naruto shiver before an even rougher, more brutal, thrust claimed him. Teeth clamped down on his pale neck and another low moan slipped out, the pace went more forceful in response. No longer able to hold back, Sasuke started panting and low groans kept escaping him, the more that slipped out, the harder and faster the pace seemed to go.
It wasn't long until the hand above his shoulder moved to grip the underside of his thigh and lift it to get more access. Sasuke let everything out... moans, groans, yelps and whispers of his lover's name. Through it all, Sasuke failed to realise the blood that lowly crept from where Naruto's teeth had clamped down.
There is still a long way to go. Not that either is complaining about it, of course. Right now, all seems far too right in the world to set it off balance, why spoil it?
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--Author's Explanations--
Chapter 1 – Does anything need explaining here? Let me know and I'll tell you
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Chapter 2 – About the following sentence As daft as that teacher was, she wasn't all that please to find a month old half-eaten apple underneath the block heater by her desk...' this was inspired by my own teacher in 2007. Yes. There was, indeed, half eaten fruit laying about the class room fermenting under the heater...
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Chapter 3 – About the following sentence 'Growing frustrated with himself, but never one to quit, he too was soon jumping the fence, trying to keep up with his best friend.I never once mentioned that Sasuke had lost track of Naruto as the teen made his getaway. And, like the sentence says, he is never one to quit.
About the following lines:
...no... no more... stop... I... Sasuke?
"Wake up!"
Sasuke... Sasuke... Sasuke...
Naruto is repeating Sasuke's name because he is the one who caused all of Naruto's pain. Notice how he isn't asking Sasuke for help?
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Chapter 4 – About the following lines:
... But he was still warm, still protected...
He was loved...
Naruto is still in shock about what his best friend did to him. He was comforted and given hope that it would not happen again by the devotion showed by Sasuke. Funny enough, the title I imagined Naruto naming his book would be Devotion.
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Chapter 5 – I did chapter 5 because I had just a weee smidgeon of writer's block and I needed something else to do and I have never done a threesome before so... yeah!
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Chapter 6 – A few people got the impression that Orochimaru had raped Naruto. And that is what I wanted you to think! I wanted to throw Haku into the list of suspects but I thought it may be a little too much so I left it be. I know for a fact that at least one person was surprised to see how the old man acted! I wanted him to be sly but have dignity and respect in his position.
I was also not going to write the rape scene that should've happened in Chapter 3 but I knew you guys deserved better then that!
I wanted to go into more detail about Haku but I thought 'Ohhh... they'll probably get sick of me and start flaming me demanding to know how the actual story goes...' So I cut it short there...
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Chapter 7 – In the beginning, I wanted you all to see what kind of family Naruto grew up in and what kind of sibling he is. About the paragraph:
The crying originated from a young girl dear to Naruto and, through his many years of sibling love, the sound of her voice in such pain and sadness made his heart clench. His overall fear for himself fleeted as protective instinct surged forth.
I wanted to show how protective and good hearted Naruto really is and it also gives me a good chance to show what his sister is like because of her important role in Naruto's path to recovery. About the paragraph:
"I-I sh-should be... be telling you... you that!" Sakura cried... scared for her brother and of the elders who were holding him down. She... screamed at them to leave her brother alone.
This paragraph is how I mainly tried to put forth Sakura's character. She doesn't care who it is, if they hurt her brother, she won't have it. 'A confident and loving person who is also rather too young to truly understand everything that is happening around her.' Is the message I tried to put across.
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Chapter 8 – Well... I believe I cut this story short by two chapters... then again, it is a rather big chapter '
Perhaps I should explain the summery? It is sort of like a riddle if you will.
'The end of all things starts with admitting what you deny.'
This means that the As in telling the Finally coming to 'end' is talking abouttruth just as an terms about what the end of the storyaddict would Sasuke did to him and the end of theabout their mystery of the rapistaddiction...
If that made sense...
Now... how did Naruto end up waking up in the church?Sasuke is his best friend so I just thought that he MUST have a key to Naruto's house, right? Right? Well, it is a better explanation that his little sister flying him there.
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Notice how Naruto took a TRAIN after the time skip? It's the first and most vital sign of his recovery. The second is how Naruto smiled upon hearing Sasuke's name and the third is the mention that he has no more night terrors!
Ah, it is now a quarter to four in the morning and my eyes are burning slightly and feel stiff... perhaps I should go to sleep now? Haha... I just had such a powerful rush of wanting to write and I was scared that the idea that had popped into my head for the last little bits would vanish overnight that I could not stop.
It seems I still can't...
Later on this year I may re-read everything and correct some obvious errors on my part but right now I have other matters I should attend to first that have needed it far before I even started this story... However, seeing as how this is no longer a one-shot, I'm thinking of re-naming it 'Devotion'. Do guys think that would suit the full story better then the name from the one-shot?
Well... this is truly it. This is the end people. Please note I love every single on of you and if there is some questions or something, do NOT be afraid of asking because I love talking to my readers and reviewers!
Love, love, EVERYWHERE!! YaoiSpark
--The End--
I hate those two words... every time I read them I get a sad feeling inside... sniffle