Commitments

Prompt: #008 Loyalty

Notes: Written for 7rainbowprompts on livejournal. Also, I'm going to dedicate this one to phrenitis. Hope you like!

She didn't want Matt to tell her to take up the offer to go to Quantico. She didn't want him to encourage her to accept what would mean an entire year apart. She knew she'd make it through okay, as would Matt, but their relationship might not and that thought scared her.

She wasn't prepared to risk it.

By the way Matt had reacted initially, it seemed that maybe he was. Or maybe she was just reading him wrong. It was entirely possible that he was as scared as she was that if she went they would lose what they had between them.

If that was correct, and a big part of her hoped it was, it made sense that he wouldn't ask her to stay. Telling her to go, while supportive of her career, was a sure way to end them. On the other hand, telling her not to would be like making a commitment.

Matt was smart. He had probably figured that one out. Maybe it was why he hadn't said anything to her yet. Maybe he was having second thoughts on where they stood. Maybe he was scared by the idea of committing himself to her.

Or then again, maybe he was too proud. Telling someone else that they needed him or her was surely not an easy task. It required devotion and a pure heart. It required love.

Maybe…there were too many maybes. She was over thinking it.

Sighing, she forced her mind to clear. There was nothing she could do but wait and talk to Matt. He was the only one who could settle her unease and answer all the questions that plagued her thoughts.

Talking through their commitments would have to wait for later, though. She had a job to do.