Chapter 5: Bond
Too light.
Shizuru's fingers moved deliberately slowly, drawing lazy circles on her taut skin. Her honey-coloured hair tickled Natsuki's face while she traced along Natsuki's lips with the tip of her tongue.
Too shallow.
Unaware of the whimpers coming out of her throat, Natsuki raised her head up in vain trying to capture Shizuru's teasing tongue for a deep kiss. Shizuru giggled and tilted her head back just enough so it was beyond Natsuki's reach.
"Patience, my dear Natsuki." Shizuru cooed at Natsuki's flushed face.
How Natsuki wanted to just push her girlfriend down on the futon and kiss her with all her worth. However, what Shizuru said earlier kept ringing in her head: Girls are like delicate flowers; they need to be handled with love and care. She couldn't make the same mistake again by being rough to the girl she treasured. Shizuru is my girlfriend, not my opponent in a wrestling match for crying out loud. Stop thinking about flipping her over and pinning her down!
Because Natsuki had her eyes squeezed shut, she missed the mischievous glints in Shizuru's eyes. She shuddered uncontrollably as Shizuru lightly grazed the underside of her breasts with a finger, making goosebumps rise up all over her body, Natsuki arched her back in a futile attempt for a more solid touch.
"Do you... have to tease?" Natsuki was almost in tears now. Taking Shizuru's hands in her own, she pressed them down on her own breasts and demanded with a mad blush on her cheeks: "Just touch me."
"Ara." Shizuru's lips curled up into a sad smile. Natsuki's reaction was exactly what she was planning for, however, she wasn't happy at all. She needed to make sure this was really what Natsuki wanted. She had made a terrible mistake taking advantage of Natsuki in the past, she was not about to make the same mistake again. "That I cannot do." Shizuru shook her head and pulled her hands away from Natsuki's breasts.
"Why not?" Natsuki caught Shizuru's hands again. She couldn't believe Shizuru would leave her hanging when they had come so far.
Sighing a little, Shizuru kissed the back of Natsuki's hand and replied with an apologetic look on her face. "Natsuki has too much faith in me. I am a very greedy woman. If Natsuki is so naive as to allow me do as I want, I may not be able to stop myself." She chuckled and continued with her eyes fixed somewhere on the tatami floor, determined not to look Natsuki in the eyes. "What I said earlier about Natsuki stressing out my body was just a lie. I was only teasing. Don't take everything I said to heart."
"What's so wrong about believing in you?" Natsuki asked with a smile. "You tease me all the time, but what has that to do with anything? It's not like you would ever hurt me on purpose."
"But I was trying to..."
"Trick me into having sex with you?" Natsuki laughed at the stunned expression frozen on Shizuru's face. "I'm kinda slow, I know, but I'm not THAT slow." Pulling her hands out of Shizuru's slackened grasp, Natsuki put her hands on Shizuru's shoulders and drew her in for a hug. "You could've just asked, and I would've said yes."
"But..." Shizuru could feel something swell up into a lump in her throat.
"If it's with you, then I don't think there should be anything for me to worry about." Natsuki could almost feel steam shooting out of her ears, but she continued: "I'll admit I have no idea what two girls do to have sex. You know, since neither of us has a dick. I guess I should've done some research on it. Damn. Do you think I can find relevant information on the internet? It's too embarrassing to ask around in person..."
The rest of the sentence was swallowed up by a frantic kiss.
Shizuru had never kissed her like this. There was so much need, so much urgency in the kiss. At that moment, Natsuki realized just how much Shizuru had been holding herself back. Though still light-headed from the intense kiss, Natsuki did not miss the pair of hands fervently groping every inch of exposed skin on her body.
"Na... Natsuki. I can't stop..." Shizuru kissed down the column of Natsuki's neck and grazed it with her teeth, marking it as her own. "... Can't stop..." She moaned.
"Then don't stop." Natsuki breathed, stroking Shizuru's chestnut-coloured hair with a trembling hand.
Natsuki's express permission obliterated the last bit of restrain Shizuru had. Reaching down to the edge of Natsuki's already soaked pink lacy underwear, Shizuru hooked her thumbs over the elastic and removed the last piece of cloth on the younger girl.
"Mmm... Don't let me be the only one butt naked." Face beet red from her own nakedness, Natsuki whined and circled her arms tighter around Shizuru's shoulders. Her response nearly sent Shizuru into a laughing fit.
That problem was easily mended.
It was not the first time they'd seen each other naked. But it was the first time they allowed themselves to explore each other's naked body without restraint.
Natsuki wanted to ask Shizuru not to stare, but she really had no grounds to make such a request since she was doing the exact same thing to Shizuru herself. For some bizarre reason, she found herself staring at the clear liquid glistening between Shizuru's legs. Shizuru must have noticed where Natsuki's eyes were looking, because her whole body had turned red in an incredible full-body blush.
"Er... Sorry." Natsuki quickly looked away. She swore she could hear her blood rushing in her ears.
"Ikezu." Shizuru murmured and continued kissing her way down Natsuki's collarbone, all the while stroking the underside of Natsuki's lithe thighs with her palms.
It felt like Shizuru was tickling her, but it was a different sensation Natsuki didn't know how to describe. Whatever that was, it felt great. It felt even better when Shizuru rolled her tongue around an erect nipple while pinching her other one with a thumb and middle finger.
She must have begged out loud, because she could hear, feel, Shizuru grinning like a cat that just stole its owner's dinner.
"Begging already?"
Natsuki faintly registered Shizuru's husky voice in her hazy mind. Her body was aching for more. Not caring what Shizuru would say after this, she sloppily put her hands on the back of the Kyoto-born's head and offered more of herself to the older girl.
Elated by Natsuki's gesture, Shizuru licked harder, dipping her tongue into the girl's navel before sucking on the smooth skin of her toned stomach. Natsuki's hips jumped up in response to Shizuru's kiss, thrashing aimlessly while whimpering aloud.
"Don't cry..." Shizuru rose up and stroke Natsuki's tear-stained face. "We'll stop..."
"Don't stop." Natsuki wiped her face with the back of her hands and demanded: "I'm not crying. They just come out on their own. Damn it, if you stop now I'll never forgive you."
Planting a chaste kiss on the crying girl's slightly swollen lips, Shizuru flashed her a calming smile and picked up where she left off. Licking the inside of Natsuki's trembling thighs, Shizuru panted heavily as she inched toward the junction between Natsuki's legs.
Now she finally figured out what she wanted every time Shizuru smiled at her and all she felt was a weight pressing down on her chest and butterflies fluttering in her stomach.
She longed for Shizuru. She wondered why she hadn't figured this out sooner.
Bucking her hips against Shizuru's mouth, Natsuki sobbed and pressed harder on the back of Shizuru's head. If not for the Kyoto-born keeping her legs apart with a hand, she would have kicked her over the head.
Natsuki's tears worried Shizuru greatly, but Natsuki's hands made it clear that she did not wish her to stop at all. Peering up from where she was, she couldn't help but feel an aching emptiness between her own thighs when she saw Natsuki's flushed face twisted in intense pleasure.
Almost... Almost what? Natsuki was confused by her own thought. Her attention was quickly diverted by Shizuru's nimble tongue delving up and down her flooded fold. Her body tensed up a bit in alarm but quickly relaxed when Shizuru carefully insert a finger inside her. Strangely, it was not intrusive at all. It was, for the lack of a better word, very fulfilling.
Slowly at first, Shizuru gradually picked up the tempo of her finger stroking Natsuki's wonderfully soft and searing flesh. Another finger joined in after a few moments.
"Shi... Shizuru... Please..." Natsuki had no idea what she was begging for. All she knew was she so badly needed something only Shizuru could give her. Her whole body was tensing up, all her muscles winding up so tightly that something was about to break.
And it did break when Shizuru closed her lips around the edge of Natsuki's lower lips, sucking gently on the pink nub while pushing her fingers deeply into the girl she loved.
It took seemingly forever before Natsuki finally came down from the incredible high she had just experienced. Still throbbing from the aftermath, she opened her eyes lazily and found herself cradled in her girlfriend's arms. Heat crept up her cheeks when she realized what they just did. This sex thing wasn't so terrifying like she had thought – it was oddly liberating to give up all her defences and embrace her most precious person.
That, plus Shizuru has a wonderful tongue. Great kisser, that woman is.
"Natsuki's smiling." Shizuru was smiling too. "Was it good?"
"What?" Natsuki laughed. "You just want me to say it, don't you?"
"Natsuki knows me so well." Shizuru pressed on. "So?"
Blinking a few times, Natsuki eventually caught on to why Shizuru would be so determined to squeeze out a reply from her. "I loved it." She cupped Shizuru's face with both hands and kissed her on the lips. "And I love you."
Shizuru had never been happier. "I love you too."
Until Natsuki surprised her by tackling her and holding her down on the futon. "Since you were only bullshitting about me being on top stressing out your body… HA! I don't have to hold back now! Did you know how awkward it felt for me to stay still at the bottom?"
The smirk on Natsuki's face sent shivers down Shizuru's spine. "Ara, I don't remember asking Natsuki to stay till. What is Natsuki trying to accomplish now? Win a wrestling match against me?" She asked innocently.
"No." Natsuki caught Shizuru's wrists and pinned them above her head. "Much worse."
"Oh. Perhaps another tickle marathon?" Shizuru frowned with great concern. "I haven't done anything bad enough to warrant such punishment yet. Have I?"
"Good guess." Natsuki kept one hand securely on Shizuru's wrists and reached down to the side of her waist. "But not good enough. Who said I want to tickle you?" She reached further down and grabbed one of Shizuru's thighs while straddling the other one. "Now I remember. Our legs were like this when you had your 'seizure' last time. You could've just told me instead of having me running around asking other people about it. God, that was embarrassing. I'm so going to make you pay now."
"I thought you knew. It's elementary, Natsuki." Shizuru looked up into Natsuki's brilliant emerald eyes and chuckled softly. She couldn't wait for Natsuki's 'punishment'. The girl was a fast learner, after all.
Shizuru's mother stood in front of her daughter's room and shook her head in amusement. Covering her mouth to stifle a laugh, she stuck a piece of paper on the closed sliding doors and quietly walked away. She needed to get out of the house and hide for the remaining time Shizuru and her cute little girlfriend stayed over. Why? Because she had a funny feeling that her life would be in dire danger the next morning the two girls woke up and saw what was written on that piece of paper.
It read: "Do Not Disturb. Hot Lesbian Sex In Session."
Author's Notes:
1. ... Can't stop blushing. (Hannah said she giggled a lot when she was betaing this story. ;-;) Now I'm going to crawl under a rock and hide for the rest of the night... week... or maybe month.
2. So this is it. The end of a long (well, at least for me) ShizNat lemon. (Caz, teach me how to write an epic smut!) I hope you all like it. Please read and review.