A little something I put together for 8/13. It'll switch points of view within the story, but if you're smart, you'll figure it out.

Disclaimer: Kingdom Hearts? Oh, yes, I own Kingdom Hearts. That huge door thing, right? Yup, I own that. I took over it with my Axel plushie last week. Copyrights? Oh, copyrights! I don't own copyrights, those belong to Squeenix and Disney, but come back to me next month and maaaaaaybeee...

Starts out in Axel's point of view.

I groaned at a knock on the door. "Whozit?" I slurred sleepily.

The Superior gave a loud cough from the other side of the door, causing me to roll my eyes. "Be there in a sec…" I threw on his cloak and opened the door. Outside was Ma-I mean, Xemnas, along with a small blond kid I had never seen before. He was pretty cute though. The kid looked up, and beautiful, pure cerulean eyes met mine. Scratch that. He was freaking hot.

"Axel, this is Number XIII, Roxas, the Key of Destiny. Since you have not yet done so, you are charged with making sure he finds his way through the castle, as well as introducing him to the other members. You must also train him in using his weapons, which we will need quite soon."

Roxas, huh? So that was the name of the sexy blond before me. I even get to take care of the kid. So we could be friends and pull pranks together and eat ice cream together and have hot, steamy – Whoa, Axel's brain said, stop right there. And I, being the incredibly eloquent person I am replied to the Superior's long-winded explanation with a simple, "Okay."

Xemnas cocked an eyebrow. No complaints, no fire, no screams of agony? Ah well, he thought, It all works out better this way. "I will leave you two to your business then."

I turned to the kid. "So," he said, "you coming in or not?"

And Roxas spoke in a bored, yet still amazingly musical, voice, "Yeah, whatever."

Walking through the halls of the Castle that Never Was, I spoke, "It's Roxas, right?"

Roxas nodded. "Yeah, what about you?"

I smirked. "The name's Axel. A-X-E-L. Number VIII, the Flurry of Dancing Flames. Got it memorized?"

Roxas rolled his eyes, but I saw the barely concealed smile. "Yeah, I got it."

After going through the traumatizing experience of taking a tour of the castle, Roxas quickly fit in with the group, that being me, Demyx, and Zexion. That was, of course, after initial reactions.

Demyx had taken one look at the two of us and squealed, "Axel's got himself a boyfriend!" to which Roxas had blushed indignantly and I had smirked. "So, have you gotten in his pants yet?"

I smirked even more and drew Roxas closer. "Well," I said, a madly blushing Roxas pinned to my side, "not yet, but I'm highly considering it…"

At this, Zexion looked up, intrigued. He looked over Roxas briefly and said simply, "Don't injure him. He looks fragile."

To which Roxas had indignantly replied, "I am not fragile!"

Demyx had laughed, and Zexion had quietly chuckled. "Sure, you're not, kid."

I remember when we had first trained together, me with my flaming chakrams, him using double Keyblades. To make a long story short, I had pretty much gotten my ass kicked.

"Damn…" I managed to wheeze. "You're good."

We had known each other for 3 months, but we were already the best of friends. We did everything together. We would go on Heartless killing sprees together, we would make fun of Marluxia together, we would set fire to the kitchen together, and, when the day was done, we would go to Twilight Town and watch the sunset from the clock tower while eating ice cream together. And through it all, we had been friends. Nothing more. I had definitely had some less than pure thoughts at meeting the kid, but I had never really made a move more than the one time Demyx had been teasing us. Because I had never meant to love him. I wanted to be friends, maybe fuck a few times, but love…I didn't want to think about love. I wanted the kid; that much was sure. But when lust started turning into love, I had no clue what to do.
"Axel?" Roxas asked. "You okay? You look kinda down."

He smiled and shook his head. "I'm fine. Just thinking about stuff."

"Okay…" Roxas glanced worriedly at his friend. Though the word 'friend' could be questioned at this point. He watched Axel a lot. More than Axel knew, probably. And lately, whenever the redhead thought no one was looking, he looked sad. Or possibly longing. But for what, Roxas didn't know.

It was an interesting feeling, what Roxas felt. It was strange because Nobodies weren't even supposed to feel, yet it could be nothing else. He would get worried when he saw Axel sad. He would be happy when Axel was. And he wanted something from the redhead. Or possibly the redhead himself. He was undoubtedly drawn to him, even from the beginning. But Axel had never shown anything toward him other than friendship. And he hated it because he wanted more.

"You seem to be 'thinking about stuff' an awful lot lately."

I shook my head and waved it off. "Like I said, it's nothing."

He frowned. "Are you sure you aren't sick or something? Do you have a fever?"

I forced a laugh. "Trust me, I control fire. I always have a fever."

He looked concerned. He came closer and touched a hand to my head. Oh my god. He was so close. I could feel him breathing. My breath sped up erratically. This did not go unnoticed. "Are you sure you're okay? I could take you to see – MMPH!"

My self-control snapped. I kissed him.

I saw his eyes widen with shock. I knew I had forced myself on him, that I should just pull back and let things go back to what they used to be. But I had started it, and to stop would be unbearable. I was ready to face whatever rejection he would give me later.

Then he started to kiss back.

I was even more surprised than he was, but it didn't last long. I shoved my tongue greedily into his mouth, exploring it, claiming it as mine. It was rather unexpected when he started to push back. Our tongues writhed around each other, wrestling in a battle for dominance that he was quickly losing. I smirked against the kiss and pinned him to the wall. It was somewhere at this point where he decided to move from my mouth to my neck. I felt him sucking and licking my collarbone and moaned. I was on the verge of starting to unzip his cloak, but had second thoughts. I hoisted him up, and in exchange received a bite on the neck. "Not here," I hissed. I shoved open the door to my room and dropped him onto the bed. Then we started attacking each other again.

Kisses everywhere...

Tongues exploring every inch of skin...

Licks...

Moan...

Pain indistinguishable through pleasure...

Thrusts, fast and hard...

"AXEL!"

"ROXAS!"

Collapse...

Deep breathing...

"I love you…"

"Yeah…me too…"

We stayed together for 8 months. The best 8 months of my life. Then, the dreams began
They were always about the same boy. Someone that looked like me, yet wasn't me. He lived on an island. I saw his friends. I could feel what he felt for them. Kairi, who he considered a sister, and Riku, who he had mixed feelings for. I could feel his longing for adventure. I could feel his excitement when they started to build a raft. And I felt his confusion when he awoke from a 'dream' of battling Heartless. I saw everything through his eyes. But what really concerned me was that the boy had a Keyblade.

I asked everyone. Who is he? Why does he have a Keyblade? Why do I have the Keyblade? The most I got out of anyone was, "The Keyblade chooses it's master, and it chose you."

I begged Axel to tell me. I knew he knew, but he was always elusive. He would change the subject, usually resulting in him seducing me. Or he would kiss me and tell me not to worry. But I did worry. Especially when the boy in the dreams started to feel familiar. I knew I only had one choice. It was a choice I didn't want to make, but it was the only choice I had. I knew it would hurt, but, even more so, I knew I had to do it.

I had to leave.

The night before I left, Axel pinned me to the bed and started to kiss me furiously. I never learned how he found out, but he did. That night, his kisses were pleading, his thrusts desperate, his hands forming manacles around my wrists. After we both came, he clung to me and whispered frantically, "Please don't leave me. Please tell me you won't go." The pain was tangible in his voice, and I fought the urge to sob.

I didn't say a word.

He was waiting for me when I left the city, leaning against the wall, calm, collected. "You're mind's made up then?" His voice betrayed no emotion. I choked back a sob. I could feel tears coming to my eyes, and I fought them with all my might.

"Why did the Keyblade choose me? I need to know," I said, keeping my voice calm.

"You can't turn on the Organization! You get on their bad side and they'll destroy you!" He seemed genuinely angry. Angry at me or angry for me? I couldn't tell. I knew the real meaning for his words. Last night came back to me. 'Please don't leave me.' The tears came harder and I fought the pain to keep my voice cold.

"No one would miss me." If only I could believe my own words. I started to walk away again, fighting tears the whole way.

"That's not true!" I heard him call out. Then, softer, as if surrendering, "I would..."

The tears began to flow.

I'm sorry, Axel...

They sent me to find him. I found my way into DiZ's computerized world. I watched from the sidelines as he fought the Dusks I sent. I smirked mirthlessly. He was still good. I decided then would be a good time to enter. I applauded, and made sure that there was none of the pain or sadness I felt in my voice. "Roxas, alright! Fight, fight, fight." I walked over to him, but he gave me a cautious and confused stare. I tried not to let the disappointment slip into my voice. "You really don't remember? It's me. You know, Axel." I threw off my hood, hoping for some kind of recognition.

He merely looked more confused and said, "Axel?" as if trying it out.

I tried my best to stay casual. I rolled my eyes saying, "Talk about blank with a capital 'B'. Man, oh man. Even the Dusks aren't going to crack this one." I spun out my flaming chakrams. He seemed frightened and angered at this.

"Wait a sec! Tell me what's going on!"

I kept up my usual mask of sarcasm. "This town is his creation, right? Which means we don't have time for a Q and A. You're coming with me, concious or not. Then you'll hear the story." I got ready for a fight. I didn't want to hurt Roxas, but I'd do whatever was needed to get him back.

He backed away, frightened. Then the air started to swirl and thicken. Our surroundings were distorted. DiZ had probably found out. "Uh-oh..."

Roxas looked around at his still frozen audience. He growled slightly, then looked at his Keyblade. "What's going ON?!" he demanded in a rage, flinging his Keyblade down at my feet.

As it normally did, the Keyblade simply reappeared in his hand in a flash of light. "Number XIII. Roxas. The Keyblade's chosen one." I spun my chakrams, ready for an attack.

Roxas glanced down at the Keyblade one more time before saying in the defiant tone he always used before fights, "Okay, fine! You asked for it!" He attacked. We fought. We were interrupted when DiZ appeared.

I growled, "So it was you." I set my chakrams in flames and tossed both of them at him in rage. This was his fault. His fault Roxas didn't remember me. His fault Roxas left. My weapons were deflected on some invisible barrier, and the man turned to Roxas.

"Roxas, this man speaks nonsense!"

I called out, fighting panic and desperation, "Roxas, don't let him deceive you!"

He called, "Roxas!"

I was on the verge of snapping. I could hear desperation as I cried out, "Roxas!"

The air once again began to swirl, and some unknown source played our voices on a loop. I knew I couldn't stay. I left, but not before hearing Roxas call out, "Hayner! Pence! Olette!" The names of his new best friends.

I left. I broke.

I appeared along with a few Dusks. "Look at what it's come to," I said, my mask of manipulation shrouding me again. "I've been given these icky orders to destroy you if you refuse to come back with me."

Roxas, as if pleading, said, "We're...best friends, right?"

I didn't register his words at first. "Sure...but I'm not getting turned into a Dusk for..." The words sunk in. "Wait a sec. You remember now?" I hoped with all my nonexistant heart that he did.

"Y-yeah..."

"Great!" I sincerely thought we could go back to the castle and live like the months before he left. I wanted that, more than anything. "But, you know, gotta make sure and all so, uh...What's our boss's name?" It was an easy question. We had joked about it many times together. I was sure he would remember.

He shook his head, and my nonexistant heart broke into a million pieces all over again. My voice didn't even hold half of my disappointment. "Can't believe this..."

He fought the Nobodies I sent. He fought and won. I was about to face him when a force suddenly made me freeze. I heard a voice call, "Roxas, to the mansion! The time has come."

He left and the force freezing me left. I spoke aloud. "The Roxas that I know is long gone...Fine, I see how it is..." I kept the pain out of my voice. I shoved it all into a dark corner of my soul and concentrated on what I had to do. Roxas wouldn't come back. I'd have to destroy him.

Once again, he fought the Nobodies and won. Not like I expected any less. I entered, my mask on once again. "Simply amazing, Roxas."

"Axel."

"You really do remember me this time. I'm SO FLATTERED!" The surrounding area burst into flames, trapping us both in a ring of fire. "But you're too late!!" I raged, the anger hiding the pain.

Roxas pulled out his twin Keyblades and spun them, just like he always did. "Two!?" I wasn't really surprised. I summoned my flaming chakrams and smirked. "Come here, I'll make it all stop!" I taunted. He lunged. We fought. I lost.

As the flames died around us, I said to him, "Let's meet again, in the next life."

I couldn't read his expression. "Yeah. I'll be waiting."

I chuckled darkly, summoning a dark passage. "Silly...just because you have a next life..."

I didn't have the heart to finish.

I tried. I really did. But I didn't have much hope in succeeding.

I kidnapped Sora's friend Kairi to try and turn him into a Heartless. You are allowed to call me a selfish bastard. That's what I was thinking myself, really. Then Saix caught her and, from there, everything fell apart.

I waited, leaning against a rock face, for Sora to come by. The sense of deja vu and irony was amazing.

"Way to fall right into their trap."

They spun around and prepared for a fight. I stood up straight and walked toward them. The kid looked so much like Roxas, the defiant face, the spikey hair (even if styled differently), and especially the beautiful cerulean pools that had pulled me in from the very start. I had to fight the urge to jump on him and cry. "C'mon, it's a set-up by Organization XIII. Xemnas is using you to destroy the Heartless. That's his big master plan."

The idiot duck asked, "Xemnas?"

I almost rolled my eyes in exasperation. "The guy you just saw. He's their leader. Got it memorized? X-E-M-N-A-S."

The dog-thing was just as stupid, if not more. "Organization XIII wants to get rid of the Heartless?"

I sighed and explained to them the Keyblade and the hearts. I figured it'd be good if they got the rest of the Organization off my back. Even if I was seriously pissed off after watching them kill Demyx.

Sora then caught on. "You. You're the one who kidnapped Kairi!"

"Bingo." I smirked. "The name's Axel. Got it memorized?"

"Where is Kairi? Please, just tell me!"

I sighed. "Look, about Kairi, I'm sorry." I then heard a voice call, "Axel!" and Saix appeared.

"Uh-oh!" I fled.

I wandered around Betwixt and Between for a while, pondering what to do. I could barely just go on living. If anyone in the Organization found me, they'd kill me anyway. I wanted to die, but I wanted to make it worthwhile. I wanted to see him again, at least once. Just see him again and tell him again that I love him. I choked back a sob and continued.

It must've been at least a day or so later when I saw Sora and his friends fighting off scores of Nobodies. 'There's no way they'll win. They're going to die.' And I figured, if Sora dies, then Roxas will die with him. There's no way I could let that happen, no matter how much I hated Sora at the moment.

"Don't stop moving, or the darkness will overtake you!" I jumped in, chopping up a few Dusks along the way. "Get goin'!"

The idiot was so clueless. Roxas wouldn't have hesitated, but this kid asked, "Why?"

"Don't ask, just do it!" Some Dusks pounced on me while my guard was down. I should've learned after the first million times.

He ran toward me and killed the Dusks. "You okay?"

'No, I am definitely not. The guy I love left me and my nonexistant heart got ripped into a billion pieces. Now he's inside you, and I can't talk to him or hold him or fuck him the way I used to, and you look so much like him, it makes me go insane, and I just want to talk to him one last time and tell him I love him so I can just end my sad and miserable excuse for a life.' I didn't say that. Instead, I explained, "I kidnapped Kairi, but she got away from me. After that, Saix caught her. He's a member of Organization XIII, Saix. Got it memorized? Now go save her!"

He whirled around and sliced up a Dusk, just as it was about to hit. Then the kid shouts, "Leave us alone!"

We fought, together this time. The duck and the dog-thing were nowhere that I could see. We fought and killed Dusk after Dusk, Assassin after Assassin, but they kept coming. After a while, we jumped together again and I said sarcastically, "I think I liked it better when they were on my side."

The kid looks at me and smirks. "Feeling a little...regret?" he challenged.

I smiled like it was nothing and said, "Nah...I can handle these punks. Watch this!"

I jumped into the fray. I had known that it was coming to this because I wasn't afraid. I couldn't be with Roxas anymore, and any heart I might've possessed had been shattered and broken beyond repair. I reached into the corner of my soul where I had hidden away all of my pain and rage and poured it all into one huge explosion.

After I opened a passage for Sora, as I faded slowly into nothingness, I could swear I saw Roxas through him, face streaked with tears. I saw him crying out, and though he never moved his mouth, I could hear his thoughts, loud and clear.

"Don't leave me! Don't die! I love you!"

I smiled. At least whatever gods there were had granted me a dying wish.

"Yeah...I love you too..."

Longest thing I've written in a looooooooooooooooong time. I think I like it, but I am not the judge of these things. You are. So review, or I will damn Axel to an eternal hell filled with rabid OCs and fangirls in place of fire.

8/13 - Happy AkuRoku day!